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**If you are from any kind of university and you are trolling my profile for research, I'd just like you to know, I don't give a flying fuck.**
Okay, so this is yet another attempt to make a profile on here. Throwing a lot of information out here that I haven't done before, hopefully it either attracts attention or discourages the wrong kind of attention. First off, I am transgender. Male to female. I've known since I was 21, had clues at 12. Started officially transitioning at 24 and have been on hormones since 28. I'm also non-op. At this point I'm not planning on having the final surgery. It's $20K i can't afford, it doesn't do much to change my self image, and it doesn't change anything for sex (more on that later)
Secondly, while the name says maid, I'm not a maid. I've just had this profile for just short of a decade and I don't like giving up that kind of longevity. I've learned since then and found I have a clothing fetish, and a particular one for maid uniforms. I love them, I wouldn't mind wearing them frequently, but I suck at housework.
Third, I'm polyamorous and pansexual, while at the time mostly nonsexual. A weird combination, but hear me out. By pansexual, i mean that I'm more interested in the other person's brain, their personality and intellect than their body. I have no problem with plus size, but if you're not taking care of yourself while in that position, then that says something about your personality. Polyamorous, I enjoy a family situation. I had a nice family online, but found that we didn't knit together as well when it came to a rl family.
Nonsexual, that's it's own beast to tackle. I see myself as sensual, not so much sexual. I'm very touch sensitive, but i can count on one hand the number of times i've had sex on one hand. And it doesn't bother me. I can play by myself, but if i'm around others, i lock up and i can't orgasm regularly. I do have mental orgasms, which are a delight. I suspect it's due to fetish being a big part of me even before puberty (self experimentation!!! Nothing illegal)
I do happen to be disabled. Fibromyalgia, combined with traumatic arthritis in both of my knees (contributing factors to my being overweight), as well as depression and anxiety. I'm a Veteran of the US Air Force, and I do use their medical services and am serious about taking care of myself and keeping my conditions as stable as I can. Some days are better than others, and others it's a pain to leave the apartment.

I've been living in Portland for just shy of five years now, and in some ways I'm still learning my way around things. I don't have a car, but who needs one with this transit system? I hope to meet new people and get involved with the local lifestyle. I was part of EIK and BBDSMS when I lived in Idaho, and have a decent grasp on play party protocol, while still being ready to learn more. I was getting decent using a flogger before my move, and while I'm not suited for switching in a lifestyle, periodically playing with someone from the top can be a secret, devilish pleasure.
A few last bit housekeeping things. I'm pagan, follow the Wiccan Rede (Do what you will, lest ye harm none), and strongly believe in Karma. I'm otherkin, meaning that i see myself as having an animal side, feline in my case. In fact, it's not unusual to see me prowling downtown Portland wearing ears. I also get along well with the vampire crowds, being a combination Black Swan/doner, at least when i'm comfortable with the person. I perv profiles regularly, randomly comment on things I like and love having conversations. If i don't reply to your email, most likely it's because i looked at your profile and didn't like what i saw.

Other contact: Discord: Sera de Noir#0922 Profile updated 6/14/2017

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6/13/2017 3:56:59 AM
I know it's been a long time since I've written a journal entry.  My life has crashed, gone up, crashed, and gone up in the 6 years since I last wrote.  I'll try to flesh things out in the coming days, maybe make some more sense to people where I'm coming from and hopefully going.

2/3/2011 10:34:29 PM

A ring.  Amazing how a few grams of stone on a finger can change your whole outlook on so many things.  Life is finally really starting to be good again.


11/9/2010 10:35:19 AM

So, peeking around here for old times sake ... lot of new things in my life

New uniform

New lease on life

New girl to call Mine

New Daddy to call His

New job to get me money

New hope for a better future

I like to think that karma has a lot to do with it.  Because I've been (figuratively) stepped on, beaten, trampled and generally walked all over by others who have only had their personal interests at heart.  And as I'm still climbing from the ashes, I really feel like I'm going to become the phoenix out of all of this.

Reborn.

On .

Unstoppable and eternal.

People reap what they sow.  So when I hear about people getting evicted from a house by inviting in a homeless pot head in that screwed up their lives, I can't help but think about when I lost my place, in no small part to a person who was in a bad situation when i broght them in my house, who lost their job, lied about getting a new one, and squandered my hard earned money for the next 6 months until they finally got caught, lied to chuches about getting jobs overseas and needing airfare money that never even left the city and could likely have been better used for other less fortunate people.


5/9/2010 11:50:57 AM
I think that i am officially done with collarme's chat system.

Ever since the "upgrades" it's been neigh impossible for me to login anywhere but the webchat.  And when I go in that way to try to get assistance to continue my enjoyment of their services ... wow, talk about fantastic customer service.

Now it's clear why this place is second (or even now third) rate when it comes to chatting.

If you want to see what i had today, check here:  http://atech.pastebin.com/GpcqJVge

5/22/2009 12:13:04 AM
As the Meat Loaf song goes "I'm still alive, must have been a miracle, It's been a hell of a ride, destination still unknown"

Not much money, not much work, but still working on trying to get out of where I am

10/14/2008 6:33:33 PM
~sighs~ Well, today i say farewell to my closest friends. i was introduced to them by my former roommate, and i've gotten along with them fantastically since then. They are what i would consider my family. Not my biological one, but the one that i've been able to connect with. They moved across the state, and while i know that i will see some of them from time to time, i don't know when i will get to see all of them again, if ever. i don't really have friends left here now, and it used to not be a problem, but it's tough now. i used to be quite the loner, and while i'm still not the social butterfly that others might be, they were able to draw me out of my shell. i don't know what will happen from here on out. But S, F and C-R ... thank you all for everything ... and best wishes in everything that comes your way.

10/13/2008 11:38:38 PM
i've been having a bit of a hard time trying to recover from last night. A lot happened, and there's a lot that still needs to happen from this. It started off with some basic training, makeup, voice, and walking. A lot of walking. It's going to take a long time and a lot of practice to get better at those things, but i've been preparing myself for the long haul. It's been a long time since i've really thought about wearing makeup, never thought i needed to do that much work on my voice, and i hadn't really thought that the stiffness i've had ever since i was in the military would still be causing me that much problems. Then i was supposed to go to the convenience store in my uniform to get Mistress a soda. Sadly i chickened out, worried about the kinds of people that are in that area at that time of night. So i got lucky and was able to wear a different outfit. Wouldn't you know there was no one even there? Definitely need to build my confidence there. Afterwards there was more training, but it was the fun kind ... blindfolds and gags and cuffs. Helped to build my trust level and my tolerances at the same time. i still may not be the biggest fan of the cane, but i certainly have a very healthy respect for it. There were also mental exercises, building on a lot of what's happened over the last few weeks. i feel like i'm starting to get a better feel for Mistress' thought process, but i know i still have a ways to go. Learning how she defines things, how she logically processes information, and where she works on multiple levels at the same time. It's a skill i'm still pretty rusty in, but i'm certainly going to work on sharpening my skills.

10/2/2008 11:30:19 PM
Pretty quiet day today, not a whole lot to say unfortunately

10/2/2008 12:01:37 AM
it seems that i have a lot of work ahead of me ... moreso than i originally thought

10/1/2008 12:13:49 AM
Hmm ... well, the end of one month. A month that had it's share of headaches, but some good things came out of it. Hopefully this new month will make things even better. There are still roadblocks ahead, but i'm feeling better about them.

9/28/2008 10:56:19 PM
not too much to say about today. Sometimes service takes elbow grease to do it right. That's the point i'm at right about now. Maintaining what i've already accomplished while improving on what i haven't.

9/27/2008 11:51:37 PM
i've had a bit more time now to think on what's happened last night, and i know that there is a lot of work that i need to do. i've started working on that today, getting things together to start correcting my shortfalls, to try to show Mistress that i can learn from my past mistakes.

9/26/2008 11:35:06 PM
Well, i've had my first session with Mistress. it did go pretty well, although i hadn't prepared as well for it as i needed ... hopefully next time. i still have some difficulty figuring out exactly how i feel, there's a lot to process at this point.

8/14/2008 10:07:44 PM
{soapbox} You know, it kind of stinks when you send someone a message with a compliment, and they delete it without even reading it. They don't know what i was going to say even. Do they do this to everyone? Or do they glance at my profile and say "ooh, it's one of those tranny freaks, i don't want to associate with one of them" News for you. In the vanilla world, we're all freaks. More news. I'm more comfortable now with the body I'm in than a lot of 'straight' people. I know I'm different. I didn't ask to be this way, but I'm doing pretty good with what I have. {/soapbox}

7/6/2008 12:01:36 AM
my life is so screwed up right now ... i wish i even knew enough to say what was wrong, but i'm still not sure ~edit~ i have another journal in a more 'restricted' place that went into more detail about the night that caused me to write this message. Needless to say, that was a long time ago. And i got better too. Nothing to see here, move along

6/29/2008 4:07:03 PM
So, i think my dominant side is starting to slip out a little bit.  Not quite sure what i'm going to do with it yet though, with any luck i might run across someone who can help me develop it a little more.

6/22/2008 10:54:08 AM
Well, i'm trying to slowly get back into the lifestyle again, as much as time will allow (blushes as she misses being bound and gagged tightly in her maid uniform by someone else, unable to get out)

3/10/2008 8:58:00 PM
Just got back from a very nice vacation back east ... meeeting some very old friends from an old life, and new friends from a new life. It's nice to move on and leave the junk behind

1/6/2008 6:28:35 PM
Well, just a quick update, adding in a new, more recent picture, and tweaking a few other things ... My old picture was a few years old and is probably a bit too ... flattering ... of how i look, so now there's a newer one for you

11/7/2007 9:41:57 PM
Things are starting to look up. Home life is settling down, work is going good, in fact I'm further along with my transitioning than I've been in years. Definitely looking forward to the next few weeks, a lot of behind the scenes work has gone into it, and it's finally paying off.

9/22/2007 11:40:08 PM
Finally starting to be able to settle down again.  Feel free to drop me a line, let's talk.

7/30/2007 8:33:57 PM
Well, I'm in the middle of a messy move right now, I'll still be in the Boise area after it's all said and done, just don't know for sure exactly where yet ...

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mrsedward
 
 Age: 24
  Georgia