I'm such a humiliation slut, today I went to a clients office encased in my new asylum chastity device.  It was so tight, I still can fit all the way in, my initial soft size is too large.  I'll figure out how to squeeze in though.  Then after I was done I wanted more humiliation, so I went and bought me some panties.  I'm not a fem, but I love the humiliation me having to wear panties gives me.  They were on sale, so I bought myself 5 pairs, I took one of the lacy purple ones and went to the bathroom to put them one, they fit so tight, and as my cock got hard it started to peak out from the top of the band.  I'm back home cooking, and still rock hard.  I wish I had a local mistress to keep me in this humiliating posture and use me.  I've had many offers from finDommes but that's not me.  I'll continue to journalize my self degradation here.

j

i hate myself sometimes - i am truly trying to be good, but i can't - my Wife doesn't know my desire to have someone control me - i have always exercised the control with Her.  i dream one day that someone, maybe a Mistress that i meet privately, meets us out with or without my prior knowledge and then leads my Wife down the path of dominating me - teaching Her what it is to have a slut at Her disposal to service Her.  How to control my libido on Her schedule so that i am what She wants when She wants it and not on mine.  i dream too often that you slowly turn her into your little project.  A mean strict Domme who knows what i need and how to use me to Her advantage.