12/16/2013 4:47:08 PM: There is a part of my character that has always cut off my nose to spite my face, but that doesn't influence my relationship choices as I absolutely know what I want. I actually don't know if she is out there but I'm not willing to compromise, not willing to settle for anything less.First she needs to have a deep and enduring need to serve her needs by serving mine. That means that I do not want to dominate her I want her to submit to me. In my heart I do not want to take anything that she does not want to give.Of course I understand that there is a price for that, that she has to feel exclusively mine and that I am going to make her feel that her gift is appreciated and understood. Its a symbiosis, a melding of desires, and when we are in that deep, intense, emotionally co-dependent place, I will not know where she starts and I begin.She will be my muse, my inspiration to create and achieve, my work will be a living testament to the joy that her submission gives me, and the force that drives me on.I have no idea if she exists, but until that time that she comes into my life....I want nothing else.