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Read ALL of the journal and profile if serious about real life. One can tell when people send form letters or one liners from seeing just a picture. ***This is still happening with even women after posting this earlier!***
First profile picture is of myself and the rest are samples of recent photography style. The journal will tell more about experience, beliefs, and desires.
Single Dominant with years of experience in the lifestyle and teaching singles and couples how to integrate it into relationships. Currently seeking a TPE with serious females who want to be owned for life.
A nympho with sadistically voyeuristic tendencies and a highly intelligent erotic artist and musician. The mind is the greatest sex organ and this Lady wants to possess mind body and soul for life... Now. To make a living piece of erotic art. Dolls, pets, slaves, focused and devoted submissives can apply.
Age does not matter to me, often finding older women to be attractive like a fine wine just as a younger woman is fresh and eager to learn.
No role play, instead live the lifestyle 24/7 and am quite religious about it. I find the lifestyle both sensual and spiritual. If you are real and serious, send me a long detailed message... no one liners!
Be ready to voice and/or webcam verify early on.... have met hundreds of fake 'women' who were men and will not allow more years to be wasted in that regard.
Don't be shy.... not that intimidating unless wanted and one begs for it.
Feel free to toss me a message if you are interested in exploring lifetime devotion, I am not judgmental.
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Looking for a houseboy/ errand boy on friday during the day |
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Happy pi day and Happy birthday to Albert Einstein and myself :) |
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Oh we'll all cum out to eat her til she cums! Oh we'll all cum out to eat her til she cums! Yes, we'll all cum out to eat her and still possibly, we'll beat her. Sure, we'll all cum out to eat her til she cums! -My personal randition |
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Best Wishes on St Patty's Day! |
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Looking for a local errand boy, apply within |
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What does it mean to sacrifice one's life? In my opinion, it does not mean to create death... that would only be sacrificing the way we die.
What does it mean to sacrifice our own free will to become part of the kaleidoscopic nature of ALL life, a prismatic reflection of those around us. Understanding the hive mentality and acting in a way that can vibe with others, yet slowly effect positive change and evolution through constant life improvisation. To sacrifice a role of pure vanilla (often used only to impress others) and infiltrate the darker parts of existence in order to inject light; adding new depth and unseen arts as the sea creatures have evolved in the deep. To play the part that might be seen as mean, egotistical, greedy... only to exemplify what one shouldn't aspire to. Teaching by example of parody: the insanity we often live amongst in 'normal' life. Thoughts? |
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The amount of responsibility involved in having a poly BDSM household is great for all parties. Patience for universal consensus and understanding. Restraint from losing self control. Self domination over anger and talking back. Love constantly exchanged and interwoven between each member, keeping the house closely knit. Strength rises in the ability to improve without negativity entering the space. Soon it becomes a unit, acting as one consciousness with many roles and a shared ideal. One part will anticipate the desires of another before they have the need arise... simply out of caring.
A lady will maintain organizational instruction and work actively to interpret instructions to those who have devoted their life to receiving that information. She will keep a healthy, fair, balanced, and educational life for all who enter. Focus will be on constant evolution of all involved. Perception of therapeutic needs for all members of the house is required. BDSM is a therapeutic art for ALL parties involved. When one has been the victim of sexual, physical, mental, or self abuse... accountability and commitment with others in a safe, sane, and consensual environment will bring healing. Overcoming anger/violence issues and watching others in true action can be healing.
To those who have been chasing and endless stream of experiences, drugs, and addictions: Breaking the cycle does not mean stopping the enjoyment of life... it means spiraling forward to an evolved dimension. Become the embodiment of love: living erotic art in motion with many mediums... expression of thought archetypes and relationship dynamics through real life manifestation. Dance down that path together respectively and enjoy the ride.
A truly devoted soul will make constant effort to learn and follow directions provided as well as remember the previous training from the teacher that has proved useful for proper growth. By cooperation and 100% reliability that all parties truly care about sharing the responsibilities and devoting themselves to each other.
Simple house rule: Don't do anything that gets in the way of what the other members will be doing or desire. Disrespect of personal limits will not be tolerated! Remember that a lady will give a chance to prove if intentions are coming across correctly. When a lady states what is not desired, acting against it PROVES the devotion requires evolution. (Not re-volution). The idea is not to regurgitate the same fantasies that have been engrained through masturbation before the pact is made. Instead, the idea is to make a conscious decision of what goals are desired in the immediate, short term, and long term plans- then act on it along with others.
It is imperative that one who desires to be a 'pet, doll, toy, child, object, servant, submissive, or slave' in the legal BDSM terms does not 'Dom from the bottom' and attempt to control the reality selfishly while swearing allegiance of service. All that does is hold back the rest of the house. Understand that timing is crucial for all sides and true balance and flow will happen at the correct time.
Know that the erotic art and writings we put into our current media will effect the tastes, urges, and trajectory of our fruits and families. Even in the midst of darkness and pain, actions will be done in the correct light. |
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Will be at the Grassroots Music Festival in the carolinas this weekend :)
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It's true, the sun supplies light to our world.... but without the reflection of the moon, we are lost in the dark. Remember the illusion can only be broken through with the looking glass of a truly powerful female.
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Catskill Chill Music Festival is this weekend... I will be unreachable until next week. It's true... cats do kill ;) Raaawwwwrrrr!
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Moving back to NYC tomorrow. Big apple, here I come!
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Excellent rope class with LadyHawk and The Next Generation 18-35 kink group in Buffalo. Siren and her pet graciously hosted. My last upstate event before moving back to NYC this weekend. Look out, big apple. Happy Friday the 13th!
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I added pictures, including a candid body pic at the end for all you horndogs and the only picture someone caught of the male Dom in this house and I in the same frame. We were in a club, so we're not next to each other but real nonetheless.
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Having laptop issues, so I will only online every now and then.
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Ive been craving a MILF... any older women looking to be owned? |
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Just returned from Ithaca Grassroots Festival 2010... I would highly suggest it for anyone who likes eco friendly long weekend camping, music, and arts festivals.
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Siren hosted a wonderful party for the Buffalo TNG (The Next Generation) last night. My pet wolf (tied up in profile pictures) joined me for a night of conversation, play, and music. I would highly suggest getting involved with this group if you are in this area looking to meet real (and attractive) people :)
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Hint: When a 'female' sub/slave continues to guide the conversation to a specific fetish and keeps going back to the same topic without answering your questions or has the same convo with you repeatedly without remembering, they're probably a man. They lose memory when in sexual fantasy mode, and become even more dumb when they cum.
When the evident focus of the conversation or profile is to get you to feed their fantasy with your words and effort, THAT would be dominating the Dominant. I do think it is important to make sure you are on the same page as far as what will be happening in real life with each other, but We do not exist to serve your submissive fantasies without real life ownership. There are phone sex lines and pay sites if you want someone to work for you.
Also, if someone can give a very long response to your email within a minute listing their cut and paste fantasies (usually having punctuation, spacing, and font inconsistencies), they're probably fake.
If they put an email on their profile like 'yourhoneypop' or 'yourlolipop' etc, they are probably a scammer from Africa.
If they have a list of friends that is ridiculous, OFTEN they are not genuine.
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The offender has been removed from the site. Justice prevails! :)
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It has come to My attention through the eyes of submissive fans that someone under the name of mistressemily1 has been using my latest journal entry for plagiarism on her profile on rxxx.com. These words are Mine, and mean much more to a serious lifestyler than being copied and pasted on a fake profile to ask for tributes. No one has the legal right to steal My thoughts or words, let alone waste them with being fake and only caring about money. People like you ruin the scene for true lifestylers, and you should be ashamed!
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Its that time of the year
again... many young sub/slaves who have been researching about BDSM
and speaking with others in the lifestyle are now leaving school and
finally have a chance to jump into that reality. In many cases being
in school can protect them from the wrong 'Dominants' and gives them
a chance to see if they are serious about owning them for life.
Still, living in the normal vanilla world with vanilla family and
friends can be quite torturous (not in a sexy way ;) when thoughts of
what could be fill your mind. I urge you to make those thoughts of
what WILL be.
Its not about online chat
or trying out 'playing' with random people. It is also tempting and
convenient for a sub/slave to try a vanilla partner who has dominant
qualities in person, yet I have spoken to many people who have just
been stuck in an unfulfillable search in that arena because of lack
of training they have received in the mental aspects that mean the
most to a woman's sexuality and ESSENTIAL for proper lifelong
ownership and proper guidance in focus and devotion. The women then
either feel trapped (as many don't want to hurt the other party and
are often people pleasers) or eventually are dropped by that vanilla
dominant personality and must rejoin their search for the life they
KNOW they are meant to be living.
When looking back, often
there are strong feelings of regret for wasted life that can either
push you further into a strict search or jade you. A growing trend of
those women have been turning lesbian lately from abusive situations
or simply because of a lack of being fed mentally, sexually,
spiritually, by that partner.
If you are one of the many
women who have been jaded by this site yet still serious and
hopelessly romantic in your search, I urge you to contact Me in order
to begin a dialogue and a true meaningful relationship that is
contained deep within all actions in D/s.
If you are a man, do not
contact Me unless you are looking to offer ownership of a female
slave in TPE.
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I had a wonderful evening at club diablo this weekend with wldlilpony. I have posted some pictures from the night on the profile. There were some demonstrations from Sir Roy and Lady Hawk and a packed house of people ranging from serious lifestylers to bar flies who were just being introduced to the scene by our presence.
Wldlilpony (wolf) was very proud to sit at my feet and engage in a bondage demonstration, as well as battle the barfly at pool while tied up, one ball away from kicking his ass. I look forward to the day that she lives at my feet forever. We both want to have a poly house and other girls to play with, and have known that since we were young. It is very nice to see such a focused pet in reality, as I only want to create art and photography based on real life.
CLARIFICATION: People have asked for samples of my photography, so I took the pictures on the profile and have more. The first picture is Me, and I have permission from the rest of the models. I will repeat that I am looking for the real life model and muse I can own for life, to mold like clay in my hands. As if I'm a potter slowly shaping a vessel of pleasure and pain... living erotic art. Anything short of that is porn in My opinion.
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Going to BDSM revolution at club diablo in downtown Buffalo tonight (April 30th @ 8 pm)
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I have always loved the female form and
energy. From the sisterly or motherly bonds to the erotic power of
truly liberated women bonding with a natural power a man would not
understand. The feeling of them playing with your hair, caressing,
soft flesh, the chemistry and understanding... a natural inclination
to listen to their partner's body and DESIRE to please THEM. A
natural inclination for empathy and healing each other through sexual
therapeutic touch. The ability to see through the veil in their lives
and show each other what and how to change it.
The idea of having a devoted piece of
living erotic art has been on my thoughts day and night in everything
I do because they are a part of Me, and I in them. A yin yang of
spirits and flesh, making your thoughts and life one. One without the
other is like a missing puzzle piece, a hole that grinds on your
thoughts constantly and causes you to want to escape your reality
through other means than actually uniting with that piece. There is
so many deeper levels in this lifestyle, and it takes a willing soul
to explore it properly through focus and devotion. The right attitude
and emotions can bring you to a world you didn't know was there...
the water beneath the surface. It's up to you to hold My hand and
dive.
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I have known who I was sexually and
what kind of house I wanted to have since I first had fantasies and
dreams before kindergarten. From the images I've remembered at that
early age, I knew I wanted a poly house, I was Dominant, and that I
liked women and power. As I grew older, and was exposed to the
commercial American life and media, I was convinced I wanted to be a
good god fearing housewife that kept a perfect house and impressed
his friends.
When the subject of sexuality came up,
I did not really see myself in much attraction there except being
treasured and lusted after, loved and cherished. Lets just say I
rooted for characters like the Phantom of the Opera, the Devil in
Legend, and the Goblin King in Labyrinth. They were not normal or
even what current cultures call 'powerful', but you know the sex and
spiritual interaction would be similar to Dr. Manhattan. When I had
dreams or sexual fantasies about the male energy, it was usually
involving something of the Other... demons, spirits, forces, Ones
with true power who were attracted because I stood out to them. Power
became My main fetish.
I grew up saving myself for a lot
longer than any of my college friends partly because I was originally
overweight and lost drastic weight, and I hadn't found any man who
stirred my fantasies or seemed to be on my level. I had to try one or
two men, but they were lacking anything but the cordiality of being
after my flesh... and sexually/spiritually unsatisfying. If I want a
man in My life, He would have to be esoterically aware, gifted,
devoted, and powerful. The kind you can feel from across the room.
I've already found Him, and we have worked and lived together for
years, so the position has been filled. If you are a female wishing
to be devoted to this Demon's cock and spiritually gifted hands,
speak with Me or His profile: pangaia
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Being considered a 24/7 lifestyle
Dominant for years now... I have met and spoken to hundreds, even
thousands of fetishists and BDSM fans. There are those who are just
curious, and those who play from time to time to fulfill their
fantasy but go back to a lonely life or their wife when their done
with the session. There are those that live in a collared
relationship, but are mostly vanilla with the exception of sessions.
Then there are those who are seriously devoted to living the
lifestyle 24/7 and never dropping character. True, complete, lifelong
TPE... personally believed to be the only way to say you are 'owned'
and have in reality devoted all power to your Owner without question.
There has lately been a sad development
in the lifestyle. I call them mental masturbators. These are the
people who get on sites like 'collarme' to hunt for their fetish, or
even just explore it, and get sucked into the vortex of virtual
facade. It can be women who love the fetish but never act on living
it in real life, so they stay online. The men are not able to be
successful in real life or with women on the site, so they either
create an alter male ego that would appeal to real women (not
intending to live up to their emails and chats, often disappearing
after they cum) standing them up for real life meetings, or even
coming to meet them to get a free 'session' in their head and
disappearing when it comes time for devotion.
Some men like to be treated as a woman
in their fetish, or they are just an unsuccessful male profile, so
they create a female alter ego (often with additional emails,
messengers, and stolen pictures) in order to be spoken to via a real
woman and fulfill their mental masturbation (or physical) of a life
or experience they crave constantly but aren't living. After a short
period of time, this hunting method online becomes addictive, and the
masturbation and sexual/mental stimulation releases chemicals that
train your brain to only achieve release through that thought or
experience. It is a good training tool to have a sub or slave
masturbate to your thought or image, as it trains their sex to be
You. If you never have a specific Owner you are devoted to you will
just get addicted to the chase and tread water with no fruition.
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Happy Holidays! Im spending the weekend in NYC so will be off of collarme and only available via phone, yahoo IM, and email. |
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Repeating the last journal entry... I do not like online relationships... you should be prepared to talk on the phone and meet in real time quickly.
Also... if you are a man... don't IM me without getting an email response first. ONLY women may approach me freely, males have the protocol of sending a LONG, DETAILED, NON-FORM LETTER. Another way to gain my interest is to provide real female slaves my contact info and introduction.
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Visiting family in Pennsylvania for a bit, managing their office and picking up my passport. Looking to return to NY next (or any other offers worldwide) and own a real slave in a 24/7 lifelong contract TPE. I'm serious, and also looking to create constant erotic art with a beautiful muse.
Serious and immediate r/t inquiries only... I'm not into online relationships.
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Age: 40 |
Croydon,
United Kingdom |
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