i am MTF pre-op trans. i list as female because i am not a sissy, which is what the bulk of people think the trans tag here is for.
i have been in multiple abusive relationships; this means i've been diagnosed with depression and PTSD. Otherwise, i am a geek, a liberal, someone whose D/s side has been abused and taken advantage of multiple times.
What does that mean, particularly in regards to this site? Well, i'm really very much into bondage (safer forms of this, so that means no rope as a main thing, i don't trust it) and latex/rubber. By various definitions, i could be called a doll. i am into objectification, but not in a degrading methodology; i mean, reduced to an object, only able to react, not given a physical choice.
i might be able to become more D/s, assuming i could build up trust with the dominant(s) i interact with; makes sense, since the things i am curious about rather demand a high level of trust: intubation, catheters, chastity, loss of control. But, the times where i am not an object or reduced, i really hope for a more equal relationship, though i can also see that time shrinking as trust and time goes on.
i'm a geek. i love games, i love stuff like sci-fi and D&D, i play all kinds of things....but avoid sports. An avid Whovian, i really want to see what happens when Moffat finally leaves the show, since he overuses ontological paradoxes.
If you have more questions, please feel free to send them to me, as i try to work on this profile; if you bitch at me about how there's a trans tag, and i need help because i am listed as female, you can go fuck yourself.
3/20/2017 11:03:50 AM
So, full profile again after i took a chance on someone who only offered vague comments on what things would be like, then refused to say anything more, and rejected when asked for reassurance. All red-flags to an abuse survivor like me. This was someone who couldn't understand where i was coming from.
2/12/2017 8:40:35 AM
This really needs to be read by anyone wanting to talk to me: https://transphilosopher.com/2017/02/15/trans-porn-trans-women-and-the-fetishization-of-tgurls/
11/1/2016 8:11:17 AM
If you think that a sub you aren't dominant to wanting an answer to a question you knew was asked but avoided is "switching" or "attempting to top", you don't understand what it is to be truly dominant; you just want free sex and a pre-50s housewife/maid and hide it behind the role. Such as so called "your dom now"
9/18/2016 3:56:58 AM
Sigh, another day, another idiot harasser. This one, a male sub named iraalgolagnist, decided to look at my profile, then rage at me because i am trans, and not a genetic woman he can try and convince to dominate him, like any other woman who LISTS AS A FUCKING SUB for a reason, they are submissive, not dominant.
EDIT: and calling in the wagons, with friend coeli.
9/5/2016 7:20:31 AM
Just a thought to put out there, but i am becoming really leery of the term "service-oriented". i've already experienced enough people where it pretty much meant "unpaid maid or servant, that i don't gotta do anything with", which, given that i feel i have to remind people that TPE means Total Power EXCHANGE, and there is give and take for both, that both sides have needs, wants, desires to be fulfilled, and yet most subscribe to the absolute bullshit idea that subs/slaves should just be happy doing everything a dominant wants and not care about the self?
Excuse me, but fuck that. See, in taking a sub or slave, you are also taking responsibility. a sub or slave's desires, health, emotional needs, so on, you are taking direct responsibility for. And people don't seem to want to do that. Honestly, those that don't need to be castrated and kicked out of the scene, instead of coddled.