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It was the third morning in a row. The alarm sounded at 5:15am. Usually she could fall back to sleep with him for a few more minutes, but the last few days were different. She found herself angry at her circumstances. Why? Why so early? She was up. And she was pissed about it. He reached his arm out and under her covers. Usually he would caress her back, lightly play with her nipples, sometimes even slowly finger her till she came in his arms, but this morning, this third morning in a row, she was not having any of it. Don't fucking touch me!" She slapped his hand away. It was more force than she had intended to use. He pulled his arm back and was quiet a moment. "God fucking dammit" she said out loud. She kicked the covers back and swung her legs over the edge of the bed. She was about to get up, when his arm shot out quickly, he wrapped his hand on her hair and clenched tightly. Fear shot through her. She knew in that moment, that she had pushed it too far. Her breath caught in her chest as he pulled her backward onto the bed. "Just what the fuck is your fucking problem?" He asked. She stayed silent as he pushed her face into the mattress. "I asked you a fucking question you little brat." He squeezed her mouth a little, and she whimpered. |
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I hate dick pictures and I so hate all of you stupid fuckboys who keeps sending me messages talking about hey do you like what you see no I don't f****** like what I see I hate that s***!I'm a f****** submissive not a f****** whore there's a difference. Some of you cocksuckers who call yourself Doms really need to get a f****** life and realize this lifestyle isn't always about the kinky sex. Take a look at who you're dealing with. If she's a slut yeah maybe a dick pic but if she's a little like me have some fucking respect. The last thing I want to see if you're crooked dick and your wrinkly balls f*** off. |
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I know its bedtime but i cant sleep. |
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I am looking for my Daddy. |
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what I need right now is strength. need to be wrapped up in his arms with my head on his chest I need to fall asleep with his dick in my mouth like a pacifier, hands in my hair. I need him to finger me while I do the dishes. I need to be on my knees in front of him when I do wrong, with my hands behind my back. I need to sit on the floor between his legs and color while he talks to his friends. I need to be spanked when I get cocky, and punished with chores when I slam the doors in the house. I need to have a schedule, and the bed time strictly enforced. I need to be f***** from behind in the morning before he goes toto work. I need him to brush my hair when I get out of the bathtub. I need him to tell me no. I need him to punish me for watching dirty movies alone. I need him to listen to music with me all night. I need him to let me have one glass of wine. Maybe. I need him to walk on the beach with me. I need him to tell me to slow down and breathe, look at him and know what direction to go. to pull my hair to put soap in my mouth when i am a brat. To put me in time out. To grab my hair and ram his cock into my throat. To tell me I've been good and encourage me. to kiss me like I'm the only girl in the world. to pull up in the car grab me and put me in it because I'm not where I'm supposed to be. To smack my mouth if I've been disobedient. To tie me up and leave me there for an hour, so I can think about my choices, while he talks to his dom friends in the living room. to demand an apology while I'm on my knees. to pull my hair back and come on my face. to make sure I'm following my schedule and eating right. to count my money, make sure I get up when the alarm clock goes off. to pinch my nipples till I scream. To fuck me in the ass when I've been bad, or just because he wants it. To have other Doms watch my discipline but not touch. to feel safe no matter what. To pick out what I wear to dinner, no panties allowed. to love me. to make me laugh, make me cry when I need an attitude adjustment. to have a room of my own, like a nest that he made for me. To look at my progress reports, to talk to my counselor about what I did in group, and What needs Improvement through discipline. to be involved in every facet of my life. To have control of this brat who really wants to be a good girl for you, who will make you laugh and bring you pleasure. I don't know these are just some things I've been thinking and wanted to put down on paper about the type of relationship I'm looking for. I am a handful, but the reward is great. I will add to this as my thoughts change. |
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I am not taken. I am in recovery. Sorry if that turns you off. I'm trying to do the right thing since the one i thought was the one wasn't. My life is a mess, i needed structure a long long time ago, but that didn't happen for me. I am finally starting to grow up. I am looking for male friends who can help me along my way. Please don't send me gross pictures. I am not interested in your dick unless i feel something for you. I am going through some things right now and i am still looking for Him. But right now i got a little chip on my shoulder and i gotta be tough. But i could use some friends in the lifestyle who understand my need for the occassional session. |
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Damn it! Where are you when I need You? Like obviously something's up. I would be doing my chores right now but I'm not. I swear I don't have a bad attitude right now just some direction would be nice. Something sturdy with a little compassion BC my body just isn't listening to me today I keep saying I need to get up. It isn't my fault I just like feel blah. I would want you to come talk to me. To tell me how the day should go from here. I don't know. Tell me. Like get me thinking right and please fucking play with me like I can't take the tension. I've been so good lately this is bullshit. Fuck me. No I'm not asking. Wow so remember how I said I don't have a shitty attitude. OK so that wasn't the truth. And yeah I'm still smoking. Whatever you aren't here. |
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I'm supposed to be doing something. Like around the house I'm just laying here smoking weed. Lol trouble ahead trouble behind...ugggh! I don't feel like moving. |
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Sooo he wakes up in straight dick mode this am. And its continuing. And its pissing me off BC its like not an option to like, say anything. |
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I mean seriously? What an asshole he's being today. Submission? Right now I want to get the fuck out of this house! |
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He is an exercise in patience... can't wait for your response. Butterflies in my tummy xoxo |
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Look dudes I've said it before I hate when you have dick pictures on your profile or you in your underwear its so fucking nasty I hate that shit. It wreaks of desperation and cheapness and if you can't keep that shit private how can you be committed to one baby girl. I'm not looking for anyone. The one I'm talking to, I feel very connected to. Look don't even bother writing me I'm not a slut or a hookup I have certain desires not met in a traditional vanilla relationship. Stop being disgusting I hate that. God I hate that. Keep your dick in your pants if you absolutely must write me. Fucking nasty. I just threw up in my mouth you posers are whores with no moral code. God where the fuck is my Daddy he would never disrespect me like that unless I wanted him to ;o) |
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Its really weird there's only one person I want to hear from right now and that's slightly intense... |
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Feeling bad. Like I got no home, no place I fit in. No one who knows the real me. I never had a place I belong. I was close with this Daddy I know he loves me completely but I still can't be in the space I crave, I have to be grown all the time. Daddy is mad BC I cry a lot but I am sad. He says I need a counselor. But I just feel sad BC what I want I can't have and that is my own space where I feel accepted and I can be his little girl. I don't think he sees how seriously I want and need this. I don't feel 28. I don't even feel 18. I'm scared this side of me will never go away. And eventually my Daddy will get tired of me BC he wants a grown woman and I am sexually very grown but in all other aspects I crave to give control over. I made a mistake with the stupid seasonings pack in the Kraft home style macaroni and his brother and his girlfriend refused to eat it BC I didn't put the packet in. It really hurt my feelings I was trying to do a good job for Daddy and everyone. Everyone just jumped all over me telling me how I fucked it all up. I mess up everything I can't do anything right ever and nobody understands me or even likes me except daddy. And then he got mad BC I was crying so much. Nobody ever not ate my food before. I feel like they don't even want me here they just want my money or something. I went to the bathroom and cut my thigh right by my pussy 2 times BC I needed to be punished. Daddy doesn't do punishment he's very gentle. After that I got in my bed with Mr bear and cried until I fell asleep next to daddy. He didn't even want to hold me tight like usual. My heart is hurting I'm sad. I can't sleep. I just lay here thinking nobody wants me around. |
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Didn't sleep well. My breast milk came in, yesterday. But our baby died. I feel guilty, and I am craving mind numbing pain to deal today. I'd like some type of sharp object, drug across my skin. Or the belt till I can't feel anything. Redemption. I don't fucking know I'm not in a healthy place I get that but wow, I really don't know how to deal. Hurt me. I deserve it. |
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Feeling so good right now. I liked Daddy's way tonight, he is being rough and playful all at the same time, I like the aggression. I wonder did he see my journal or something this different than usual. I love this playfulness Hes so much fun and this sexually charged play is exactly what I needed. Not feeling so pent up. Thank you Daddy! |
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Wow so how long are you going to let me talk to you the way I do? I mean seriously? I had to flat out say, you need to nip that shit BC I'll keep going. Especially if things didn't go my way. I'm begging for you to fix it, expect me to be a little brat until you grab me by my hair, push me to my knees and tell me you don't like how I address you, and mean it because I got away with fuck you, I'm not doing shit, and the ever classic, I'm leaving. Can you believe that shit! I flat out told Daddy, you let me do too much, you need to speak up and say something, BC that isn't right. That being said I do feel a twinge more than a twinge, of an almost sadness, like He's too good to me. Earlier he was harsher and I deserved it. I would almost prefer it right now BC he's so sweet. |
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Daddy was so super harsh this morning. Like no kiss for me, like short with me, really critical, and I didnt do anything wrong. Last night I went for a walk and I didn't ask I just left And I went and talked to my friend whom he doesn't approve of but I had to get out of the house I felt like a bug under a microscope. Is he still mad about it? Fucking grouchy and he made me cry and he's not usually like that. Everyone's been getting so pissy wtf. Is it my fault? I don't fucking know. :( and kinda pissed off. Try me. I'm in the mood to fight. BC I didn't do anything |
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Tonight Daddy said stop sucking your thumb and he meant it BC he took it out from my mouth. And at first I was very frustrated, but then out of nowhere,:something I beg for all the time, his finger instead. Omg it was so satisfying like I just played theren heheaven. Sucking away until we both fell asleep. I just woke up and had to tell it was so yummy to my heart body soul! Happy baby girl right here! Now I'm going back to bed before I land in trouble. Goodnight everyone. Sweet dreams. |
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So frustrating today. I want to play so badly but we did not go to bed till 430. A nap is in order as it was way past my bed time but I was happy laying in Daddy's lap reading dirty stories while he watched TV with uncle sky. I felt very horny all night his hands on my skin felt crazy good and I know he knew what was doing to me and this morning is no better BC he smells fucking good and its driving me up the walls my pussy is so wet I can't take it. So naturally going on no sleep and not getting what I want I'm actually whiney but I'm not trying to irritate him. My tummy hurts and like I said. I'm horny. I've been warned which means I have to settle down and try to nap BC I don't have a choice. He seems irritated but dammitttt! Play with me. Pinch my tities, let me taste you, its nap time, I'll be good if You give me a pacifier. Yes I'm bargaining good behavior for some activity. But my requests are not being met with enthusiasm. |
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I am owned I have a Daddy I come on here to talk to other little ones. |
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Wow so today was a very very bad day. I completely forgot my place as his baby girl. Now I am lying here awake watching him sleep wishing I was in his arms tucked under his chin buried against his flesh like I am every night. But I was mad at a decision he made. But I forgot that's his decision. I'm still mad and a little hurt. But I am now regreting the massive fit I threw about it. I wanted this independent time like I felt all grown. I said a lot of stuff I shouldn't and I kept pushing him to see how far I could actually go. I even knocked over a cup of Pepsi and the tree in the living room. I said sorry but this day has totally sucked and I plan on really apologizing first thing tomorrow and telling daddy that I want to be his baby girl not on my own BC I need him to help me get better and I love him.
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I have been really happy as of lately with my daddy. We are starting to truly understand each other. I want to please him and I hate when I let him down. He teaches me things and is patient very patient with me. One thing though he says no ink. With no explanation. Just like I don't want you getting any. I asked nicely like could you elaborate. "No. I don't need to. Just no, and maybe we will talk about it later." That's bullshit I want a reason. I am used to getting a good compromise. I am used to being listened to. But I have to say the decisive manner of him turned me on so so much. I was thinking it isn't fair and blah blah blah but the whole time my panties were wet. And truth be told I already know why not. So if I push the issue, that's asking for trouble...and I think I might be cruising here a bit. Its been a minute since my last good spanking. Have a good day! |
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Another thing cock pics are sick. It doesn't make you a dom. It makes you gross. Please stop doing that people. Signed, a grossed out baby girl. |
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