4/19/2024 11:11:46 AM:   i crave an Owner. Not an angry or abusive man, but a casually cruel and creatively callous Dominant who takes pleasure in my suffering. He will starve me to amuse Himself, or because i am too fat, or because He wants to... i will, i desire to cede all rights to Him. He will decide what limits i have...if any. my life will be His to use. He will do as He chooses. my existence will be under His foot. i will resist and rebel. i may fight. The Owner i seek will enjoy such futility on my part, and punish me severely. i crave this. Please find me.  

1/21/2018 1:24:21 PM: i spent three years as Miss Lynn's asphyx and analingus slave.

10/19/2017 6:37:37 PM: i seek a torturer / degrader, not ruled and operated by their fantasies but who rules and operates their desires. This isn't about porta potties and shit and beating someone into hospitalization. This is about subtlety, creativity and evil desires. This is an opportunity to do as you wish but you should be something more than just angry.

9/24/2017 4:24:54 PM: i need to be taken to the lowest depths of slavery. � the username is my goal. i envision becoming tortured property. � i will cede all to the Owner(s). He / She will decide all aspects of my existence. i anticipate being forcibly stripped of ALL limits. i may resist and understand that restraint and punishment will be imposed. � As an example, i do not want to eat shit, but understand that what i want is meaningless and ridiculous. i do not know if i will eat shit or not - that is not my decision. � i envision locked chains, a taser and cattle prod to ensure my usefulness. i envision an absence of choice and a� crushing requirement to obey. � i seek an Owner who will reduce me to a mere 'it'. �

9/6/2017 6:43:19 AM: In many ways for what I seek the 'gentlest' form of slavery would be to be reduced to a functionary. No sexual interaction, simply doing As Told as a servant. In effect, I cease to be a sexual entity. The absolute sterility of this is terrifying. The next level would be the same except that I am naked most of the time. This would increase my sense of vulnerability. At times the Owner would be naked in front of me, to torment me and remind me what I will not have again. The constant exposure, being touched but not allowed to touch back, having my body mocked and ridiculed, and helpless to do anything but endure it is unimaginable to me. The next level would include me being used as a sex toy. I would rim, suck nipples, give massages, whatever pleased her. Perhaps such sessions would be short and infrequent. Or they could be very long - I cannot handle rimming for hours - but I wouldn't have a choice.