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I keep thinking I can find what I DREAM OF.
IS IT ONLY A DREAM? |
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The ach of failure. Why does my want elude me? Is it so hard to love me? |
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when you think you would change everything for someone. But when they dream out loud, you where not in the dream. It was she. They say the word love, but then don't call for days. We talked everyday, at least I thought. What did I think? I am not a moment. I want to share moments. Is there love for me? Is it too late for me? my heart, so raw |
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One that wants as I want back |
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All I can say
I wanted
but interest was lost
I force nothing
I want to be given
never having to ask |
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My how I desire. Love the feel of a nice man. clean man. kind man. Pleasing man. |
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I waited and waited. He never came. Said he would be here for me. And I just waited. Why is it, that one. One not with me. I waited years. Why did I? Time.... TIme went by. I waited. I settled for crumbs. The cookie is gone. And I wanted so badly. I still want to smell you. Crumbs |
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The memory is in my soul. In every pore of my being.
The change shocking earth shaking reality The heart goes dark.
Darker still.
for D |
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You email here. I get excited.... I think maybe this is someone. Then some simple statement lets me know. I am not the one. How do you shatter over a few emails? How do I ever forget. |
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I will alway be bad, nothing I do stops the bad from showing |
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Nothing is better than getting what you want. Even when you didn't know you wanted it., I woke and had the best feeling laying next to someone I truly love. I hold that memory to my death. Nothing can take that from me. |
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Again wake with empty heart. The one has no clue he is only a dream I love him so open for him need him
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My life is changing. I hold my arms open to receive. Feel it brush against my face. Stillness eludes me. I shake from fear that I might never have my desires filled. Alone. Always alone when I lay down to sleep. So tired of loneliness. Hold me all night. Kiss me awake if I have not found your lips first. . Make me believe you love me. Never to leave me |
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The waiting for the right person is endless |
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I want someone that wants me. Not what they can get from me. Touch. Love. If that is not you. I have no need. I am not here for use. I am here for the life I want to lead. |
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I am just lonely for one true person. One True man. I don't need toys or fetish wear. I need a man |
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Well I am here again. Will it be more of the same? Or is there someone out there? How I miss the touch. |
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