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| Who am I?
I am your friendly neighborhood sadist. Causing pain and pleasure with the right person is very exciting for me. The trick is that the person receiving the pain and pleasure my want it or else I don't enjoy it. I am willing to switch with the right person, especially when learning how to do stuff so I can experience it both ways. And I like to wrestle. But inflicting pain and potentially kidnapping, raping, and torturing (all consensually of course ;)) are my passions.
My relationship status is "divorced".
What have I done?
Have caned, whipped, pinched, slapped, spanked, shocked, pinwheeled, tied, clamped, used dildos, butt plugs, etc... I haven't yet really begun to role play and play out the kidnap/rape/torture fantasies.
More detail: On the level of single/double column ties and some chest/body harnesses with bondage, no suspension yet.
What am I looking for?
I definitely need imaginative masochists to play with :) I think the specific details of the relationship between me and someone else depend a lot on the other person. I like to wrestle and am willing to switch with the right person but I definitely enjoy to do the tying/hitting and while I am sadistic myself I am not masochistic.
*** Important ***
Regardless of who you are and what you are looking for thank you for reading my profile and I wish you success on your journey for whatever you are searching for.
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It's funny I can't say I have a super amount of fun at munches. Being extremely shy makes any gathering of people not the most comfortable place in the world for me. And yet to everyone searching online and being frustrated, I would say try going to a munch and meeting people. In this world there are no guarantees and I can't say munches have given me Mrs. Perfect. But I did meet one great friend and play partner at a munch. And I wouldn't not attend munches :) Plus the people at munches are real, they pushed themselves to attend a munch, they have already not flaked out once. Online you never know what you will get :) Some people are just living the fantasy and are not ready to take it to reality.
Still for whatever reason I can connect with people online much better than in person because I'm less shy. But I have not had the opportunity to connect strongly with someone and then take it real because the best people I connect with live so far away. |
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Sing once again with me our strange duet my power over you grows stronger yet and though you turn from me to glance behind, the phantom of the opera is there inside your mind.
-- Phantom of the Opera
:) I want that level of power over someone eventually where I am inside her mind and heart and she cannot escape :) And of course a strange duet together because "normal" duets are boring :) |
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I just can't get enough of closet land https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KVOe-akMQC0 . The end is a bit disturbing especially now that I know people who have experienced some abuse in real life. Still in general I love the dynamic between the interrogator and the victim. The constant lies, the giving and snuffing out of hope it's so awesome. I also love the anticipation.
Indeed in some respects tying someone up, telling her can she imagine a hot brand cooking the skin of her ass, can she smell the burnt flesh with her nose, can she imagine it? Then branding a chicken or something else in front of her and telling her she is next. Oh the sheer terror. Or like bringing a soldering iron over and allowing sweat to drip and sizzle with the iron for terror. So many fun possibilities :)
I still have ways to go to get the physical set of things I want to do up to my fantasy level :) When I can suspend someone upside down and beat their thighs with a board with nails in it safely, drawing just enough blood and not totally destroying them permanently then things will start to approach my level of kink dark fantasies.
Still I also am very loving and caring and I have that side. I really am concerned about potential partners and while I am sadistic and want to hurt as well as having all these evil dark fantasies, I also want my rope ties to be non cinching and if my bottom is experiencing any nerve tingling I want to correct it ASAP because I do care for the health of people I play with. Some day like most people here i hope to meet that special someone where you can play hard and love even harder.
Maybe 2015 will be the year :) It will definitely be a better year, but it may not yet be time for me to meet my soulmate yet, only time will tell :) Still there's no hurry, it's a fun adventure in the mean time :) |
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Happy 2015 to all, warm wishes for a great new year!!!!!!
I've decided that for me I'm just going to make 2015 be great and that the universe is going to have to adjust itself, sorry :) |
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For some reason I have mixed feelings about attending BDSM events. One the one hand yes attend, but on the other hand I find that I drag my feet and am slow getting out of the house. Often I don't manage to drag myself out. I was never big into parties because I am such a shy guy. But on the other hand I do enjoy watching others play though I'm still pretty shy for approaching people afterwards and talking to them, I don't really know what to say.
Still the discomfort is also some motivation in itself because I believe that by leaving your comfort zone you get richer experience in this life :) Again that's why I bottom because it is less comfortable and I do feel more vulnerable. Still trust is super important.
In any case just random musings on this fine Saturday I hope everyone had a great holiday weekend. For me it's a strange time of year.... |
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It's kind of tough as I don't really fit into a traditional role at all. I'm very very very shy. At the same time, I don't really want someone else ordering me around too much. Still it's tough my personality is to wait and see what's going on, and to compromise but then I want what I want.
I definitely enjoy inflicting pain. But still I feel bad if I step on your foot accidentally, though if I do it on purpose...then YAY. Also I want the recipient to enjoy things, it makes me excited to watch someone about to cum from having her nipples twisted or something.
I switch as well. When I bottom I do it more because I don't necessarily want to and it's good to make yourself do things you don't want to get out of your comfort zone. Additionally it helps to be able to empathize. But it's definitely weird to let someone else totally be on top.
Switchy like activities like wrestling, or going to a class, and then I let someone use toy on me, then I use toy on them where there is instant back and forth feel more natural.
Top activities also are a bit weird for me though way less weird than bottom activities. In the end it's fun to tie people up and do stuff to them :)
In terms of someone becoming my slave and never having to think again while I make all her decisions for her, that will not happen. In our community one important lesson is personal responsibility. I will hold any partners responsible for their own journey. And also decision making is exhausting for me. I'm more likely to make a few rules and occasionally order some stuff for my pleasure. Less is more. But still if someone wants to be a slave she or he should do it out of a choice and as part of his/her journey. Well in my philosophy. You know what they say about opinions, they are like assholes and everyone has one :) And I'm sure there are people who will take that total control, just like I'm sure there are people who will rally against that total control.
I like people who think for themselves and submit out of willingness and respect as opposed to someone who is a doll and will do whatever. Still there's nothing wrong with being a doll and I'm sure there are people who would love a doll :)
Safe and fun journey to all :) |
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Well I guess now I'm "Old but not that old, young but not that bold" like One Republic says ;)
And also I guess it's true "Everything that kills me makes me feel alive!!!!!!".
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| Age: 28 |
| Plumstead,
United Kingdom |
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