and another incarnation of CM bites the dust   R.I.P  camwhore Luna

Do you have a fantasy? Would you like me to be a part of it?

You dont need to be frusterated and misunderstood. Like minds are hard to find and I will definitely understand you, take your frusterations out on me ! :)

I am willing to listen , obey and expand upon our desires. My name is Luna , once you play with me you'll never forget me.

I make Online play extremely intense and satisfying. The kinks that I enjoy in play are impact ,breast,pain,food,wax,rope/bondage, predicament,humiliation and roleplay which is really only some of them .My limits are blood, , breath play and permenate marks . I play online ONLY !!

I am often found on the Video Chatroom here on CM , come say hello. Your welome to ask me anything you want . Nothing in life this good cums for free , you will need to pay an agreed upon fee on paypal before we play together on skype . Don't be shy I only bite if you tell me to ;)

: i was facedown on a carpet with a zip tie around my neck , wrists , and feet with a dildo and anal plug inside me and being mercilessly touched
with a magic wand today .

  Its time to try something new,  and for the first time in a long time I can see a tiny speck of iron inside me . I dont want to inspect it or scratch at it to uncover more, not yet . Its so small it could just receed away and be reabsorbed into my old habbits so easy still. Not fragile but precious  is honest resolve to make change.  We all know the definition of Crazy and like a eccentric mouse  who continued to run the wrong way in the maze and run straight into the wall enough  times that the general consensus of all  observing was that this one just wont learn, well  dont count me out yet.

 I woke up feeling better and clearer than I have in a long time . It wasnt just a dream was it ?  I have not actually tried my best  in longer than i care to remember and for once being good doesnt seem quite so boring, no not boring by  a long shot ;)  Thank you Sir

 Out of a hormone fueled  wild and twisted  tailspin I come to. I pull up on the nose hard and am leveling out ,Its my hope to be gaining altitude again soon but now in THIS moment with THIS breath I am happy and grateful to be flying level.

"Good Lord do I push it "I think to myself in these moments of clarity and my resolve to remember  before being spun into another spontaneous  carnival  fun house tangent of mischief and mayham strengthens although whether  to enough to actually forstall the next one remains unclear.

 I am a masochist and I am petty and immature those combined means I will do whats fun and frought with danger and have leaped long before it even occurs to me to look.

 I collect men that come under the Dominant heading much like a bird who is supposed to be out looking for sturdy materials for its nest but gets distracted by pretty and shiny coloful bits that it can look at its reflection in and then looks on jealously at all the other dutiful lil birdies that have nice warm strong  nests in the cold of winter.  I am a sweet person.  I am not naieve but perpetually insistient on the goodness of people. I am often surprised that despite  giving away all the milk they didnt want to buy the cow..".but but there is so much more where that came from if you stay" i call out into the distance after a solitary figure with a turned back  or I like to imagine its that and turn my back  before they even have a chance to weigh in on the decision.   But I dont want to continue on such a empty path.  I know I am fully capable  being the submissive of my and the nameless prince charmingDominant's  dreams . I know I have had years of happiness as a partner in a long term relationship that while lacked definition was essentially D/s. I was a domestic once up time when making him the perfect Banana Cream Pie from scratch was truly important to me. Seems like a lifetime ago from paid cam girl and a wasted Molly mule I see now. Just wait all this remorse , resolve and introspection will dissolve again and Crazy Alex comes out to play  I wonder  can anyone keep her at bay?

when i reach out i reach too far

out into space i drive my car

live out my life my head held high

i feed my heart pie in the sky

im wild im child im silly im fun

but what will i be when you are all done?

Who can bind me?

What qualifications are necessary beyond general saftey?

Does it have to be so serious :)

Dominant demenour, mutal interests , chemistry and ending up with a positive experience are most certainly allowed!

What i want to experience by being tied is -

the excitement of feeling the rope on my skin

the riggers hands and attention on me,

the intricate and mysterious ritual being performed

the sexual tension

a removal of accountability

a sense of adventure

fufilling a fantasy

exploration of being Dominanted

its all so exciting i kinda want to squeal like a little piglet ready to be tied tickled and taken or roll over like a good puppy pet and sit up holding my leash in my mouth

but thats all just green horny newbie jitters and while fun

hardly the whole picture of my infatuation with rope

with a real partner in power exchange

someone i felt safe , affection , respect and admiration

what a pleasure to be bound into the shapes that they create

to submit and bring satisfaction to a artist as he paints

slipping into the sweet grace of being his good girl

Rope Mastery as a expression of thier Dominance, knowledge, dedication and artistry

uplifted as i begin to feel graceful , strong , enduring , beautiful and unique

Tied up , completely controlled and cocconed in thier care

i can see rope being both a forceful demanding of respect

and the sweetest way to soothe a lover

I have no expectation on the universe and have no intention of leaping off a cliff no matter how much hand made jute you wrap around me

I only know that if I dont know why Im interested at all or ultimately what I want how can I ever expect to experience it.

When  posed with  the question what sort of Ds influence on my life do I really want, I was having a hard articulating an answer and decided to just imagine it and write. This is what I've come up with .

Groggily and from a distance I hear my alarm ringing and every part of me wants to ignore it and fall back into sweet lazy sleep but having made that mistake before and felt the sting of your punishing belt I dont dare disobey and pull myself out of my bed. Its 6:30 am and you've already been at work for 30 min I remind myself which further motivates me to put on my bikini , I look in the mirror and I can see the improvment you've made in me I look stronger and in better shape than Ive ever been and for the first time in ages I dont feel like Im just floating along but have some direction.

  I put on a pair of white running shorts and a light weight t shirt although why i bother Im not sure as it comes off in the first ten minutes usually. Running shoes and my ipod and Im ready to go. I smile as I think about the first time you told me I was going to be running 3 miles and going for a swim before eating 2 hard boiled eggs and a grapefruit and how I thought I was gonna pass out during the run.

 You've set a date that we are up'ing the mileage and going for a run together and it motivates me to keep my heart rate up as I want to impress you with the progress Ive made. The playlist I put on is of songs you suggested that would make the distance go by all the quicker i like the music although much of it I hadnt heard of before and I like that you picked it out for me. I set off and zone out thinking about the last play session we had and how amazing it felt to know you could take me so completely ,how much you anticipate and how you take me just a bit past my limits. Ive been running for a few minutes im hot and the old me would have stopped long ago but im grateful for the time and effort you put into your directions , if you know Im capable of it then I do too and run right through that wall i thought i was hitting. Once I get to the end of the island I know I've gone 1.5 miles and start to strip .

  I pull off my shorts , t shirt and shoes and go straight into the water, the whole point is to try to keep my heart rate up. The swim feels fantastic as I make my way just past the waves breaking where I can swim at a more continuous rate . The bright yellow house way way down there is 1/8th of a mile from my starting point and is where Im heading . Since I could drown if I totally exhaust myself out in the ocean we've agreed I stop whenever I want but am finding it easier and easier to keep a steady rhythym for most of the way now. My stamina is higher and I know Im a better play pet for it. I reach the house and spend ten min catching my breath soaking in the morning and doing a quick sun salutation to stretch my muscles a bit. I check the watch / heart rate monitor you picked out and Im feeling refreshed and totally back to resting rate so its time to swim back. The return swim I push a little harder towards the end and am totally out of breath by the time I get back to my clothes. I plop down and could lay there for years it feels like but my resolve to make this a perfect morning a 5 out of 5 as we like to call it is still strong . Dressed and starting the run home I think about how beyond any muscle or stamina its my resolve to do what is asked of me and what I ask of myself that you have strengthend .

   I remember how I would be accused of being sort of a flake on plans , never seeming to return things on time and kept terrible track of my finances, none of those things were particularly horrible and while reasonably happy when you put all those things together I was a bit of a crazy flighty mess. Bit by bit question after question you started to unravel what the issues were and the best way for me to fix them the vast majority of which I certainly knew and supplied the details to , simply lacking the desire to be responsible which Im sure seemed terribly immature to you. I love knowing that Ive done it all myself, sitting at the DMV all day is not something you need to spend your time on but making sure that I did do it or face your consequences is something Im truly grateful for and so willing to repay you in my service. BAM !! 1.5 miles down Im heading up my stairs and I feel really good.

  The positive glow of knowing Im being such a good girl and making myself better at the same time is wonderful and I wonder what your up to at that moment. I eat Breakfast with my one cup of coffee for the day slowly sitting out on my deck staring at the ocean and the first of the beach goers to arrive and its time to shower. Washing off all the sweat and sand , using the special salt scrub I save for days I know Im going to be seeing you and taking extra care when shaving I get out of the bath tan , lean, soft and smelling good thinking about you and our play date in the shower has gotten me all worked up and as I sit on my bed I take off my towel and find my hands wandering over my body , I love to tease myself and build that energy knowing your going to make it explode . Pinching my nipples and rubbing my clit gently I feel my breathing get harder and my fingers get faster , I close my eyes and think of you inside me on top of me holding me down , I start to moan softly and know I can only stand it for another moment or Im going to cum and be in big trouble. I relax and let my breathing return to normal before getting up to get dressed. My pussy is so wet that I have to put on panties that I usually would skip .

  I fuss with my hair and put on some light make up , you've picked out the majority of the clothes that Ive bought in the past 3 months so whatever I choose I pretty much know its Master approved and your going to like it but I dont have to bother you with something so trivial as the pink tank top or the blue sundress and lets me be totally still me and how I feel at that moment.

   Its about 9:30 am I know your going to text or sometimes even call me at 11 am . Which gives me plenty of time to start a load of laundry , make my bed up , check my facebook and even watch an episode of awful reality tv on a good day , on a bad day well by 11 am I had better at least have gotten my workout in or the consquences are sharp and leave a lasting impression both literally and mentally on me, not to mention having to withstand your displeasure at being ignored and disappointment that your instructions weren't more important to me. 

   Im glad I can report a 5 out of 5 morning of getting up at 6:30 am , going for the usual workout, eating the proper ratio of protien, carbs and fresh fruit or vegetable, teasing myself and consciously creating new fantasies to message you about so you have a sexy note waiting for you , and cleaning up a bit about my house . I decide to spend the extra time I have today drawing for a little while but get bored and decide to read the newspaper. I never used to keep up with the news and while granted the associated press wire may leave something to be desired in reporting I have found myself to be a much better conversationalist at work, with random people but especially with you when I am more informed on whats going on around me , when I find something that intrigues me I stop to look it up online , compare the two sources and form an opinion. Who knew that such a simple thing as a newspaper subscription could make me feel so much less anxiety about relating to people ? My Master did and didnt tell me a thing about why he wanted me to get one ,which I had thought a sort of strange request at the time.

   As I read and await your call I realize Im calmer , stronger, smarter and happier as a result of your influence but 100 % still me . You are human and we have tried some rules that just didnt work out with the intended result as strongly as you would have liked or some unforseen complication hindered it and then the infamous edit.

   Usually if your unhappy with the result of any given rule its because I have failed to execute to my potential and hence the edit to the rule that either pushes me harder or changes the direction of it substantially but is equally hard. Its not even noon and Ive done a bunch of stuff that makes me so much more confident, and I have a playdate tonight where I get to show him just exactly how much of a good girl I can be and how glad I am t be his.