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greenheart
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"It was as though, in asking for chains of iron, I had cast off thousands of invisible chains, which had held me from myself. Chains of iron I thought might hold me to my own truths, not permitting me to strive for what, in the heart of me, I did not wish, for what I was not." Slave Girl of Gor
While i'm not a kajira this quote speaks so much to me that i thought it was an excellent start to writing my profile.
Since truly beginning to explore my submissive nature i have become more confident, happy and free. I no longer question how a man could "hurt me" and still love me. In fact i have discovered that the two things need no longer be seperate. As i've been growing up and figuring myself out i have been trying to be who i thought i "should" be. Now that i am exploring what it means to me to be a slave i feel that i am peeling off layer after layer of who i thought i was, and finally discovering who it is that i AM.
I like to laugh, love, share good times, good food and dark twisted desires. For the most part i approach life with a hopeful, positive attitude. I'm also crazy and intense and i overthink everything so i really enjoy people who can engage in long intense conversations as well as go out and have a crazy silly time. I look for people with whom i feel a deep, intimate connection, people with whom i can share most of myself but i recognize that this can be rare to find and until then i like to laugh and joke around. I enjoy dancing and i LOVE the ocean. It makes me feel so small and overwhelmed with awe (much like a good Master hehe).
I am currently seeking nothing more than friendship. I like to hang out on the forums though i don't post a whole lot. If you're Dom/me, sub, switch or what have you i welcome any friendship or discussion that can be had. I spent a long time feeling like i was hiding a big part of myself from everyone and it's nice to have friends i can relate to and learn from.
That's me for now,
Warm wishes,
~charlotte
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Master and I were interviewed on Rude TV last night. Look for the July 11th update of Booby Prize on RudeTV.com!
We'll be at the Lair tonight so see you all there. :)
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Hear Master & me interviewed on talkingsexradio.com tonight!
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Moved! Moved, and moved and moved, and FINALLY in our new place in LA :)
Going to Bondage Ball tonight!!! Come see us :) |
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We're going on a cruise!!! We're going on a cruise!!!!! WE'RE GOING ON A CRUISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just so you all know where I've dissapeared to for the next week....we're on a cruise. :P
We will return on the 16th and be moving to LA by the end of the month!!
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Last night Master used the single tail whip had just bought on me. I had already seen him use it on someone else (and it beautiful sight it was :P ) but last night he told me to present my ass and whipped me for a few minutes. He didn't whip me long and I know he was most likely going gentle. He knows I am afraid of new toys. And I was afraid although also very happy that he wanted to use it on me. I was in need of some of kind of release and had considered asking for a spanking or something to relax me a little.
For such a short, impromptu thing it was a really good experience. I was able to recognize where I was allowing my fear to get in the way. Instead of trying to struggle away I tried to breathe through it. I asked him for time to breathe rather than to stop. In that brief time I realized that I really do want to learn to be able to hold still during a beating. Often I prefer to be bound and helpless because if I am able to struggle than the fear takes over and I try to get way. I want to learn to feel the same helplessness with just a command to stand still. It is when I stop trying to fight away and start reaching toward the pain, recognize that I don't have power over the situation and it will stop when Master wants it to I can finally relax. The whip stinging my flesh did not feel scary when I wasn't afraid of it.
I had actually been whipped just the week before when in a tight suspension. I had never been suspended before and found that the inability to take deep breathes left me no choice but to go in a deeply relaxed and focused state. I barely felt most of the whip marks suggesting that I can take a LOT more than I ever thought when in the right mindset. Now how to find that mindset in less intense situations. :P
Afterward Master whipped me last night I just fell to his feet in gratitude. There is somethign about the whip that is much more psychologically exciting than many other toys and my sore ass felt wonderful. I am very much looking forward to more experiences with the singletail.
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The Kittens are the newest additions to our family. The boy is named The Reverand and the girl is Inara. We got them at the Lair so they are our little dungeon kittens and they are soooo perfect. :D
Will upload some new pics soon.
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For the many folks who've asked, my Master took all but two of the photos on my profile :) |
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Joshua Tree was amazing! Soooo pretty. I had never been to the desert and I loved every bit of it. There was a lovely breeze, the flowers were blooming, the photographer was overjoyed with the shots he got and Master got some great ones himself too. We camped up by this old stone house that's up a road that you can only manuever with a jeep so no one else came up to bother us. there was nothing for as far as the eye could see or hear but land and we set up our tent over looking this small canyon and Master grilled the best chicken ever and played guitar and Jen took the best care of me that any one could have (and only demanded bread and water in return.) ;)
I miss it already and if we had a jeep ourselves I would be begging to go back as soon as possible. :)
Naked desert photos to come! One of them can already be seen as Master's 4 pic. (Stephann)
charlotte, the happy little slave girl
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Ok, so supposedly the desert shoot is back on. I can't wait to be camping in a the desert (i've never been) with two of my favorite people! So.........Stay tuned for more naked photos of yours truly. ;)
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I have been wearing Master's collar for over 6 months now and it feels like he just put it on me yesterday. I realized that it was a year ago that I met the couple that helped me break through so much and truly accept these parts of myself and that feels like just yesterday as well. So much has happened but it has felt like a whirlwind of changes that are making my world new and so much more exciting. I am finally starting to see that I can just live life and stop worrying about answering to everyone else around me. I feel happy and healthy and excited to face all the new opportunities I see ahead of me.
Just felt like sharing a quick update of where I'm at after 6 months of being owned. I've met so many good people here and feel truly lucky to be finding friends I can relate to, that don't judge or place expectations on me that I can't meet.
So I guess just a big thank you to CM for bringing so much good into my life starting a year ago. :D May there be a lot more good to come. ;)
charlotte |
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Camping trip and photoshoot postponed so no desert photos coming soon. :(
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We're going camping in the desert this weekend!!! I can't wait and you all get to see nude desert photos soon I hope. ;)
charlotte
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I am in the process of switching my profile over to this new name. Please bear with me having two profiles for a while until I get it sorted out. Old profile= charlotte12
Here are a few of my older journals.
2/10/2008 11:00:49 PM
The slut (that's me) just got pierced today! She got a horizontal hood piercing and her bellybutton pierced a month ago and we went back tonight and got her tongue and nipples done. :)Master said as we were driving home that he has fantasized for quite a long time about owning a slave that he can pierce like this. His girl hadn't realized it was such a big fantasy for him and was glowing as he said how pleased and proud he was. She cannot talk now (hehe) but at least she can type and say how excited she is. She wasn't sure she would like the nipples but she LOVES the little rings. There's something about being pierced on 5 places on your body that reminds you that your body isn't yours anymore. :)signed, the happy pierced slut.
1/25/2008 6:46:25 PM
Wow, it's pretty hard not to feel like an owned woman when your right to control your purse is taken away.:)
9/25/2007 1:36:54 PM
My old profile because it reflects where i came from.Hello, i'm here on collarme.com to keep exploring and figuring out what it is i want in a relationship. i have come to realize that it is very important to have some idea of what it is i'm looking for before trying to enter into any kind of a relationship. I've gotten a little more clear about the basic human elements and now i'm continuing to explore how bdsm fits into these ideas. It has been an ongoing exploration since i discovered that other people have these thoughts about 3 years ago. I am by no means ready to be clear or articulate about exactly what it is i want and so i would like to let people know that while i am looking for a long-term relationship as the ultimate goal i am not eager to rush into that yet. i am mostly looking for friends and people who are willing to talk about these desires and thoughts with no pressure or expectation of anything beyond friendship for now. i feel it would not be fair to myself or to the other person to try to create a relationship when i am still so confused as to what these thoughts mean to me and how i wish to incorporate them into my life.Besides the fact that i'm still unsure exactly how i fit into all of this here are a few things i DO know about myself...-I am very playful and believe it's essential to approach things with a sense of joy and humor.-at the same time i deeply enjoy delving into the "darker" side of human nature. i believe that pain and suffering are essential parts of what shape us as people and that being able to talk about and feel these things is an important part of truly experiencing our lives.-i pride myself on being able to empathize with others and always attempting to understand where the other person is coming from even if i don't necesarily agree with them. it's crucial to me that someone i open up to and share things with would want to both understand my approach to things and want to help me to understand them.-communication is of course key. while i don't believe that one has to tell EVERYthing to their significant other i do believe that there should be at the core of a relationship a desire to fully understand the other person and to know as much about them as they are able to communicate.-also i am a twin and i believe this has shaped the way i relate to other people alot. it has taken me a little while to realize that not everyone i meet can be relied on totally and completely to always accept you, that not everyone can anticipate what you're going to say and know things about you without you even saying them. i guess i'm trying to say that i look for intensely connected relationships but i do realize that they will not all be same as i am used to and i am working on not expecting the same things out of a partner that i have expected out of my closest friend (my sister).To broach the subject of bdsm just briefly i would like to say that i am still very unclear how to incorporate my thoughts and desires into a working relationship. i realize that some of this knowledge will come with time and experience, trial and error. But i would like to be able to be a little more clear before entering into anything more serious.i know that-at a young age i became excited by thoughts of being punished.-these turned to sexual thoughts as i got older.-main aspects of bdsm that turn me on are the mental aspects of it. it's not just being spanked that i enjoy (although i do enjoy that) but that the spanking is a way for Him to assert his dominance over me. keywords i would use from bdsm that get me excited are*punishment*restraints*humiliation*play rapeOf course there is a lot more but those are some of the original thoughts.wow this is getting long so i'll try to wrap it up. I guess the main point i'm trying to say is that i want to take things slow with anyone i even talk to and that people who are interested in random play or in convincing me that they are meant to Dom me in a matter of a few hours please don't bother contacting me. i try to pride myself on being polite and considerate to everyone but if i feel that someone is taking advantage of the fact that i won't just turn you away without an explanation i get rather upset.I mean...i love being taken advantage of and being used.... *big smile*but only by someone i know caresOk, thanks for taking the time if you actually read all that and good luck in your search."charlotte"
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| Age: 42 |
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