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Ok so i have to vent i am not sure about some of the People on this site , So i get an email form this Guy saying he is a Dom and He mentioned some things i agreed with in the email about devotion of a sub and certain things .
He proceeds to ask to chat private so i am like sure cant hurt .
Well the conversation starts with Him "Telling me i can call Him Sir" Sorry dude that title is earned not just given. He then proceeds to ask me what i think should happen on a first meet or would i leave that up to the Dom?
He says that on a first meet i would be "Inspected and bound " and asked me how i would also feel about being Inspected bound gagged and tied up?
Sooooo i replied on a first meet a Dom/sub get to know each other to see first of there is a chemistry. They talk and again get to know each other NOT meet to fuck have sex be inspected, bound, gagged, or tied up.
So if you wish to email me please read the above to be bound, gagged tied or inspected there has to a little thing called ""TRUST" how the fuck can i trust some stranger i just met ....................... I swear the People on here get better and better and make me realize so many assholes on this fucking site out for games ................................... |
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BDSM Lifestyle
So this lifestyle means different things to different P/people. As this lifestyle is so diverse with so many different kinks and fetishes so many P/people misconceive it by relating it to solely being sexual.
For me personally my idea of this Lifestyle is to serve a Dominant to take care of His needs, His wants , His kinks. Take care of His mind body and soul as i know by submitting to Him that He will guide, protect nurture and above all respect me and my limits , morals and values.
Call me "old school" i come from a time and place where a woman was born to take care of her Man.
Please don't get me wrong sex is an important part of this life but it is just the finishing touch to any life weather it be BDSM or Nilla any relationship purely based on sex will get old and boring.
If and when i do come across the "One worthy" of my submission i do promise to give You my all, my mind, body and soul ( even thought my soul does belong to One things will never allow any thing to come of it ) Just some thoughts |
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Its been a while since i have posted a entry so here goes,
To start off with i have been receiving many emails about meeting Doms, now allow me to start by saying when some One sends me an email and its starts with hey nice tits and can we meet to fuck that is a definite NO.
My idea of this life is to serve a Dominant in every aspect to take care of him NOT only sexually but mentally, physically and emotionally.
The type of Dominant that would be a good choice for me is One that can challenge me mentally show me You have a brain and are not just thinking with Your penis.
Many have a sad misconception of this "life" being solely sexual it is not once You capture the mind the rest follows.......................
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Some times i have to wonder why P/people do what they do then again nothing should surprise me there is so much bull shit games and players on the net i should NEVER get my hopes up. Each lesson learned be it hard or easy is a good thing .... |
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How do i know it's Him perhaps by the way He draws out my submissive tendancies ? By the way i get butterflies in my tummy?
Do i know its Him by the way He may mention "good girl" ( which i have to say i hate that term of endearment) yet when He may mutter it i melt?
Not sure what to think of things at times and perhaps i allow my 6th sence to kick in and say wtf are you thinking but sometims it feels good just to think there may be a worth One...................................
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Players, Wankers and Uber Doms beware i bite and draw blood so if You fit this category PLEASE do not message me troll me tell me how big my bewbies are or "order"me like im Your submissive, it tends to iritate mewhich is usually not a very good thing.
There are submissives here that really are submissives and not a toy or cyber slut so please dont assume i want to fuck you , suck your cock . or any things else i do have high standards and wont settle for any One not worthy of my submission |
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Take me and mold the masterpiece , form me to fit Your desires , lead me to see how i may please You, guide me and teach me how to be my best for You.
Plesse me and i shall flourish, Protect me so i can trust, Show me how i may serve You ...................
The possibilities are endless................... |
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Ever wonder why your heart aches to be owned?
Ever feel so deep down in your soul that you need to be guided by Him?
Ever look in the mirror and see the submissive creature you are whom begs for the feel of His touch ?
Ever wonder how it would feel to be complete at His feet?
Ever truly wish there would be just One only One that could capture your mind body and soul?
Well i wonder these things every day and i also wonder will i ever find Him ?
The One that will look into my eyes and see what lies deep beneath in my soul.
smiles just some thoughts
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This journal goes out to all the players i just have to vent, There are so many liar's fakes and losers that prey on newbees on line , i am not being going distinct gender because there are female and Male players.
Why bother to play games on line especially in referance to this lifestyle?
This life is already a taboo as per today's society why make a mockery of this life to the O.ones really trying to find a partner in this life?
This goes out to all the O.one's who have been played keep faith that one day Y.you will find a true O.one for Y.you .
i know first hand about being played and i am perhaps a bit pissed but i wont allow it t hinder my search for the One i will on day submit to and explore this life...................................
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Well seems like tis the season the "velcro" collars are floating around , and it saddens me in a way to see newbees be taken in by so many "Players" whom are just looking for either a " online cam slut" or somethign just oline and what saddens me more is the subs that fall for this and get hurt shrugs . A little note if it looks like a player and smells liek a player it usually is a player my dear friends..
Aslo on another note why is it so many of the Dominants on here feel They know what i need and want ( meaning they feel i am bi sexual)
For all You out there that even comtemplates saying this to me please read :
I AM NOT INTO FEMALES THE THOUGHT OF MYSELF WITH ANOTHER FEMALE REPULSES ME
So please dont even askkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk if im bi .
smiles sweetly im done venting . |
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Plant Your seed and allow me to flourish
Cherish and guide me so my wings can open
Feed my soul with Your Dominance and allow me feel it,
Push me and give me the opportunity to spread my wings
Allow me to fall so i may learn
Love me and show me You keep me safe and my wings will spread
Watch me soar and fulfill my dreams as i please You and give to You my submission.
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The Dominant for me will guide me, push me, cherish me, pleasure me, teach me, trust me, treasure me, love me, and above all respect me and my submission to Him .
i will serve Him, cherish HIm , respect Him, tend to His needs, pleasure Him, love Him and about all give Him all of me,,
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Just a few thoughts of submission:
giving yourself to the will of Master…delighted in the knowledge that your actions please and in pleasing allowing yourself to experience the ultimate gratification…giving the ultimate gift…you…your body…your mind…your soul…giving yourself…trusting Master with your complete emptiness…the complete emptiness allowing you to be filled with complete pleasure…all of you…your body…your mind…your soul…all of it free…every fiber of your being full and alive…alive beyond your wildest dreams and fantasies…consumed in blinding rapture…
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Happy New Year A/all , best wishes for a happy , healthy and fun filled New Year maybe this year ill get that Dom i need so badly ( lol) |
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i just had to vent here how is it that P/people think they know me and my needs and wants? Some One mentioned i need to get out and explore this wonderful life now yes i would love to explore so many thing with a special Dom and yes i would love to enjoy doing many many things related to this life , but what many seem to not understand is im a natural submissive woman its bred inside me to be submissive to Men i have been this way most of my adult life so whats to explore> Shall i just take the risk of meeting some asshole that would not cherish what i have to offer or shall i wait and keep mystandards and never settle for any thing less then what im worth?? |
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Have you ever just had a day that you wished you could crawl in a hole and never come out , Just stay there forever nothing can touch you , hurt you , or just be away from everyone? Ever get to a point where just when you think its ok to trust and and yet just another dissapointment.sighs big well its one of those days ... |
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Have you ever just known that you belong a certain place? Or with a certain Person? There are times that the burning deep inside tells me i belong here and other times i wonder , im confident enough to know who and what i am but does the burning inside ever fade to belong, will i ever feel what its like to be free to explore all the desires inside sighs softly i have to wonder at times... |
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Well today is 9/11 very sad day it will always be the saddest day for me i lost the person i loved the most in Ny saving lives kudos to all the great people who lost their lives on this day and remember your love will always burn in our hearts being our hero's may god bless |
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each day as i grow more and more i feel a hunger inside me deep down that needs to be released perhaps its to serve , perhaps its to be where i belong , perhaps its just to see if this is just a dream or maybe one day i will be the true submissive i so deeply need to be what ever it is the desire grows stronger each and every day are You out there Sir . Maybe one day ill find You till then the hunger burnssssssssssssss |
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Ok so tell me why these wanker Dom's always assume your a slut , whore or desperate ? I clearly stated in my profile i am not "Desperate" please dont assume You know me and know my needs You dont , also i dont randomly give out my numeber to fone bone i have much better thngs to do with my time and also im on the fone all day what would possess me to call You and fone fuck for Your pleasure i think "NOT" so again please dont assume You know me, and feel because im a submissive i will submit to any One so freely smiles sweetly and how was Your day? |
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you can find me in the unowned subbie room where im a room moderator , its quite funny there was a question asked today if us subs could serve any One who would it be well my reply was my former Sir why because i will always wonder if i am meant to be just a mere sub or a slave He always said i had slave potential its funny even after all the hurt i feel deep down i belong at His feet and know deep down i could give my all to Him i knwo i must get past that and grow yet how can a sub grow when i will always wonder what if?? |
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Well i felt conpelled to blog about this because it so bothered me .Why is it so many of these Uber wanker Dominants cant understand a strong submissive woman? Why is it oh your trying to be Dominant because im a room moderator and im trying to show i have some sort of power . i was hand picked by swts and Hardass Sir to be a room moderator because T/they see my strength and trust me enough to know i make good choices and decisions not for some power trip so to those "Ubar Wanker Dominants " whom feel a woman cant be a strong submissive i say kiss my phat ass .(smiles sweetly) and to Hardass Sir and His lovely slave swts thank Y/you both for the opportuinty to grow , learn and watch real P/people in this life it really is an honor . |
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Submission
Submission is giving of one's self to Another letting them control your desires putting your trust in One and knowing they wont hurt you knowing that they want you to be pleased taken care of mentally, physically, emotionally, The One knows that your desire is to please Him at all times Him knowing you will do what's needed to bring happiness to His life and yours . i give to You my soul my mind my heart my passion my desire me pleasure my pain and most of all my submission to treasure and handle with care and compassion and trust i ask of You only 1 thing give me Your all as i give my self onto You my submission belongs to You the One i call "Master" |
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There are so many that feel this lifestyle is based on sex i feel sex is a small part of this life to me personally this life is about the control a submissive gives her Dom and the control a Dominant takes and molds , guides and protects the control and never harms whats His . |
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Many seem to think im sweet please dont take kindness for weakness i m not weak,desperate nor timid im a strong submissive woman whom feels respect is earned im polite yet only respect those whom have earned it , there are many fakes , liars and wanna b's on this site i think im intelligent enuff to see those which i feel is a good quality please dont message me or email me with jibberish i usually delete those emails , im very easy to talk and chat with and if You feel that You can hold my attention for more then 5 minutes thats a definate plus |
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Gift
my gift to You Master is my mind to mold and teach , my soul to touch and caress , my desire to please You and make sure i will try my best to be all You need , my passion to take care of all Your needs and pleasure , my body to do as You wish weather it be pain or pleasurable, my thought's although i know i am way to opinionated i know You respect my opinions ( sometimes) ,i give to You my all in hopes that You treasure , nurture and mold me into the Masterpiece You seek |
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Master
You consume me at times it makes it hard to think as i have before Your voice stimulates me in a way i cant express Your mind captures mine and makes it grow each day Your thoughts inspire me to do my best to please You Your confidence in me makes me want to push harder and grow with each and every moment we share Your guidance shows me i can be what You desire each day i blossom its by Your teaching each day my mind wanders its because You have put me in this place each time You correct me i learn not to make the mistake again ( although i have done that a few times) Your power Your strength Your wisdom Your knowledge Your support Your concern makes me grow each day all i can say is thank You my Master |
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Submission
Submission is giving of one's self to Another letting them control your desires putting your trust in One and knowing they wont hurt you knowing that they want you to be pleased taken care of mentally, physically, emotionally, The One knows that your desire is to please Him at all times Him knowing you will do what's needed to bring happiness to His life and yours . i give to You my soul my mind my heart my passion my desire me pleasure my pain and most of all my submission to treasure and handle with care and compassion and trust i ask of You only 1 thing give me Your all as i give my self onto You my submission belongs to You the One i call "Master" |
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i was asked today what am i into, welllets see i am into serving my One , im into pleasing my Sir by obeying His wishes , needs, desires, i am into the passion this lifestyle brings , i would love for one day to serve my Sir on my knees looking into His eyes seeing His soul begging to consume my soul , im into seeing the smiles across His face when i have pleased Him , im into feeling Him oull my hair and choke me softyl as He whispers what a good slut i am for Him ( blushes) just a few of my interests |
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As i go through my journeys i meet many wonderful F/friends whom i treasure and appreciate and i see many P/people do things that make me just think to my self are they for real i mean can a person be that desperate ? i know there are many lonely P/people but why allow desperation to show its colors , i dunno maybe its me but when people see desperation its quite easy to take advantage due to maybe low self esteem , sighs i may be a large woman and have a few um extra curves but im extremely confident in whom i am and what i have to offer One , dont presume im desperate nor that i would settle for anything less then i deserve smiles |
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B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself
B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman
B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle 'anything'
B= Beautiful
I= Indivual
T= that
C= causes
H hardons
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Well there was a discussion about collars and i wanted to input my views to me this life is based on devotion, trust , loyality and above all love and i feel that i dont need a piece of material on my neck or a tag on my nick name to show im devoted and loyal to my Sir i think a Dom that has the capability to collar a heart, mind and soul has a gift and with such a relationship devotion, loyality and honor have no limits because to let One in to capture my heart, mind and soul is a hard task , Now to many whom choose o/l relationships that is the choise of the D/s for some its all that can be offered and it fills the void T/they need so i wont judge , but for me i had o/l and He made me need more, He made me crave more , He made me desire more , sighs perhaps one day i shall get the "more " smiles |
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i have been on this site a few months now and i frequent the unowned subbie room i was actually honored by being asked to become a room moderator, i have learned many things these past few months , patience and that this lifestyle is real to so many its nice to see those that live this lifestyle real , and to those that dont and maybe incorporate it in their lives to an extent , THis makes me have hope maybe that one day i can be free to live my life as i choose wether it be the kink, the fettish or just live it free nto being judged because i may be a bit kinky ( smile) There are still so many fakes , liars and players but once you get past those ( which are quite easy to spot)one you can get past those its a journey worth taking smiles |
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He is Master, and i am slave.
He is Owner, and i am owned.
He commands, and i obey.
He is to be pleased, and i am to please
Why is this?
Because He is Master, and i am slave |
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Guidance
Guide me in the proper direction and show me what You seek teach me the ways i can please You and honor You protect me when im in danger and i will know im safe, challenge me when i need growth and allow me to make mistakes correct me when i do make mistakes so i will learn console me when i need it and i will nourish, guide me down this path with You and teach me Your ways and i will be forever Yours |
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Submission
Submission is giving of one's self to Another letting them control your desires putting your trust in One and knowing they wont hurt you knowing that they want you to be pleased taken care of mentally, physically, emotionally, The One knows that your desire is to please Him at all times Him knowing you will do what's needed to bring happiness to His life and yours . i give to You my soul my mind my heart my passion my desire me pleasure my pain and most of all my submission to treasure and handle with care and compassion and trust i ask of You only 1 thing give me Your all as i give my self onto You my submission belongs to You the One i call "Master" |
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As i grow and learn of this life i get more and more consumed with it its not the sex or the kink its the control and power i yearn to give to that One special Dom , it's the devotion i wish to fully explore i have a deep desire to one day kneel before my Sir and lok into Hs eyes and see His soul......... |
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