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Rant over..... Back to the bubbly, sweet, nutty Luna..... Sorry about that.. |
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What a fucking waste of time!!!!!! I am so sick of this bullshit. Is there a man out there who wants a real woman? Does everyone say they want a woman who knows what her role is and is comfortable in that role? You all say it but can't back it up. I'm sick of this.I don't like being played for a fool........ not at all...... |
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I don't get it...... How can someone sit there and watch you struggle... Watch you live in pain..... Watch you fall. Tell you that they love you.... tell you they want to be with you... but never once ever suggest coming to be with them. Never once think.... hey this submissive needs her daddy..... I'm so tired of this bullshit. I just want to find a man who wants a babygirl and wants her with him..... |
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Kansas is sooooooooooooo boring |
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Oh... btw..... all of the pics are less than 5 months old except the one that says "you know you want me" Decided to post new ones so ppl don't get the impression I am less than real |
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Oh goodness...... Another year older in a few short days. I'm getting old. :( I hope I at least get bday spankings.... |
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I have decided that right now I'm in no position to give myself as a Submissive or Dominant at this time. It is not the kink wearing off..... Oh, by no means am I any less perverted. I just feel like I am not at a point in my life where I have earned what I want. I have a major overhaul in my life and a little more "baggage" to drop off. I am more than open to convo's with men who I could possibly click with. Right now though... strictly platonic. |
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yanno.... i've been seeing kink everywhere in the mainstream lately..
i saw a Harley commercial where everyone was in a metal cage walking around... then a guy peeing in his own face on comedy central whilst wearing a superman t-shirt....
maybe it's just the more i emmerse myself the more i see it in daily life. idk... anyone else noticing things like this? |
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The sadness in my heart is so heavy........
I feel so lost...
Why is life so cruel......
Will i ever find one like him to love me?
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I want my daddy.......
Where are you daddy?
Come find your babygirl......
Protect me, nurture me, show me love and affection......
Beat me, break me, make me cry...
Mold me into the beautiful princess i have potential to be.......
Where are you daddy? |
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So it's been a while since i've written an actual journal entry, but with bad news at every turn i figured why bother... the public need not know my woes.....
Recently things have taken a turn for the better... I begin college online on Monday so my future is looking a little brighter.. I'm going to be visiting texas for a month or so, then, moving to arizona where 99% of the time there is no rain let alone snow....
I'm on my way to a succesful career and better opportunities... not to mention the major boost to my sense of self worth. Yuppers things are looking up in Luna's gypsy existance.
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so i figured i'd put up recent photos........ like 20 mins ago..... maybe i'll get better results... my name scares ppl...... well i guess if you're scared you don't belong.. or maybe you need someone to give you a little fright.... eh idk not too much to update since noone gives a shit...... |
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Fractured my L5 disc and pelvic bone while riding horses Thursday.. Feel so horrible.. Need pampering |
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Gawd........ Still no spankings!!!!!!! I'm going nuts here... Someone help......... |
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Looking for someone to wrestle around with and to give me a good spanking. Not interested in sex.... I just wanna cry |
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Blond moment in progress....Kinky Geek Squad needed!!
Someone help this damsel in distress....
I can't seem to figure out how to start forum topics. there are many things that I want to know about and discuss but on a more public venue. That way it will be easier to keep track of and not clog up the ol' mailbox.
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So i figure it's about time for a new journal entry.. I'm back in WV.
Thank goodness i've still got my loyal submissive. We're going on 2 years.... he is a gem. Tonight he was blessed with something he has talked about for a while... i'm getting more comfortable in my own skin and find it much more fluid when i run needles through his flesh. I've found that as kinky as i am i'm a prude.
I say this because i'm still so standoffish to getting more submissives. This man puts his life in my hands. At times that statement holds more meaning than a few words can describe. The trust it takes for him to give me such an honor is refreshing. Also it's disheartening....
Call me an idealist but if everyone could learn to trust others and understand the responsibility of being trusted by someone we could have a true sense of self and community. i've heard it, believed it, and said it, but i'm truly beginning to feel it...A dominant is nothing without a submissive and a submissive is nothing without a dominant.
I've got my submissive...
Now for the hard part. Finding my Dom. I am not submissive to females. I'm sure there can be exceptions once in a blue moon. But, i seek a long term committed relationship with a dominant. Not just any dominant..... but my other half.. someone who i can be comfortable to share a submissive or two.
Oh.. And since i have no sexual contact with my sub other than my weilding of toys or when he is potty training.... I'm going nuts!! Even vanilla sex is mindblowing when that mental power exchange is there. I cannot even consider a sexual relationship with anyone who is not the Dom i need. Ugh this could be bad... What if he is in Norway or something?
OK.. end of my rant... never claimed to have organized thoughts or proper grammer. :P |
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so i'm off to the woods with my tent.. any girls want to come out with me? Took a vow of celibacy for a year so any truly interested Dom's will decipher this message and any girls that would like to come to the woods with me and my ropes feel free to message me. |
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Actively looking for friends in the lifestyle Dom/me, Sub, Switch, Freek, whatever......
Moving back to the Baltimore area it's been years and dont know anyone..... What better circle of friends to have other than like minded ppl.
So i'm lookin for people to laugh with, watch cheesy horror movies, and just walk in the cemetary with. Not really into the club scene unless it's like drum and bass, breakbeats, or dark trance. Hole in the wall grungy dark alley pubs...live music.... lead the way! |
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Submissives and slaves interested in contacting me please read first.........
Also you will not be the only toy in my box. But do not let that deter you. Those lucky enough to be in my life will not be treated with any less regard than anyone else. You must understand that the qualities that attract me to you there are other equal but different qualities that i derive from others. I do not spread myself too thin as i enjoy being fluffy. :P
If you are confident enough in your own skin and can accept that i enjoy playing with others then you will be blessed and taken to the edge and back by an intuitive and creative Goddess. |
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Alright i guess my last journal entry was either ignored or disregarded so I'll try again.
I am a switch but will not bow down to you if you are a Dom who has not earned it.......
I too have those sadistic urges (and i'm very good at what I do).
He is straight and does not wish to dom males, but that does not keep me from torturing and humilliating you little boys. We both enjoy having girls in our web so dont be shy either ladies.
Also, I will be relocating to Baltimore in a few weeks so things should get very interesting. Any doms who wish to talk with me on a social level are more than welcome to contact me.
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Not looking for doms at this time. New friends are always accepted tho. Subs send me a msg. Not looking for any long term or romantic relationships. If we hit it off I would be happy to have some play time. That does not mean any tom dick and harry can feel my cane either. there has to be similarities in our personalities. or at least mutual interests. I do not have random sessions. i want to have someone i could call a friend. |
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new pics up on . com my sn is lotusbaby. no room for more on here....... |
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YES the poem below is origional. It comes from the deepest parts of my soul. Interpret it how you will. Feel free to give your interpretation and opinion. It will tell me alot about who you are. Dont lie either to try and tell me what i want to hear. True words spoken from your soul will speak out louder. |
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to be loved is too much for me
cut my flesh so the scars remind me of your touch
leave me bloody and sobbing in the afterbirth of our hate
crawl in my skin as it bubbles in the heat of your stare
i'll sit in the corner with my razor sharp rage surpression
buy me roses to cut my fingers on the thorns
the moment of tenderness is upon us as fingers caress my juggular
sweet release in the form of a limp sigh
i open my eyes and i'm alone
pain the only feeling
sorrow the only emotion
sickness fills my heart and i need it
dispair and distress becoming my happy place
now taken................purgatory in my own mind
cut a little deeper baby the nerves are dulled. |
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Note:
This girl is an alpha sub when it comes to submission. Sorry ladies but I cannot serve a woman |
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Leaning on the edge of insanity...... When oh when will I find the one who can engage all of my senses? I need an equal in every sense. Not a replica of myself mind you.... Someone who has what I lack and vice-versa. Looking for the one that will command my submission without a word. Needing to feel the sting of his hand on my bottom. There are many dom men out there but in order for my body to submit my heart must be won. My heart rules everything else seeing as though I am a cancer. Hopefully I will find the one that I can call my lover, friend, confidant, and finally master. Looking for 24/7 evewn tho I understand that there are times when it has to be just a whisper he will know. |
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Happy thanksgiving everyone. 22lb turkey in the oven and loads of misfits about to enter my home. Hope everyone has a wonderful holiday! |
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UPDATE:
Consideration has become the new word for desperation obviously. I am single and i think i'm enjoying it. Only looking for submissives/ slaves. if there are any in my area who know anything about plumbing and would like to help this beautiful goddess before the holidays pls contact me. My sink is backed up and cannot cook for thanksgiving. |
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This question goes out to everyone. can you serve someone you trained to be a dominant? Personally i cant. oh ho hum..................what i thought to be the perfect relationship turned out to be totally opposite. my naturally dominant side sensed the weakness and could not fathom submission ever. so here i search for the one. he was very close but not quite. not saying he is a bad guy. no totally opposite. he's wonderful.....but i could never see him grabbing my throat as he exlpains how i must carry out his bidding and complete tasks given |
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blah fucking blah......... currently onowned and miserable. decided to completely give up the vanilla all together.......the right dom will come............. soon i hope
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golly gee......i found that dom and fucked it up. will i ever redeem myself? i am humbled by the mere sound of his stern soft spoken voice......*kneels down and prays for forgiveness of my idiocy
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I know everyone hates a bitchy journal entry but here goes..............i am fed up with this town i live in and what it has to offer.
i'm suffocating here...................
BLAH.... |
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I guess finding a dom i can be comfortable enough with is harder than i thought. Subs...........i have no problem with. I guess you could say i am more of a domme. Wow this crazy road has led me in some very interesting places. If you are a sub/slave.....man or woman please contact me. Remember you manners. No lewd emails when you contact me. I will let you know when you may think of such things. *bites lip* Doms......I have to start as friends. Submission to me is extremely personal.....as it should be. I am not looking to "play around" the one i submit my life to needs to want the same from life. I want a full time lover, friend, master. Thank you. |
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