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denying a true connection with another is like trying to hold your breath; eventually your subconscious takes over and forces you to breath |
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To give yourself to another is one thing.
To have that person claim you as theirs is profoundly different. |
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Communication truly is the key to happiness. |
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I've just embarked on the hardest journey I've ever traveled...yet, no acknowledgment of the courage or strength it took to even open the door let alone step out into unfamiliar territory...I did what I needed to do, how I needed to do it, and though my method was different than Yours, that does NOT make it wrong, just different, the final destination remains the same.
I have to be able to live with myself and my decisions and it is not necessary to cause un do pain to others in the process. |
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A long and cold day, each with our own business to attend to, even though we didn't speak, I know that You are there, supporting me, caring for me and wanting only the best for Your slut,
Thank You Daddy |
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Why are You pushing me away? After a day of good communication, open and honest discussions, I've never felt closer to You. Then, as if on a switch, without warning, the rug gets pulled out from under my feet, and i'm now talking to a completely different person. maybe this is your way of protecting yourself, keeping at a safe distance if I decide to walk away like before. This is exactly the behavior that caused me to forgo my feelings the first time. To tear my own heart in two like ripping off a bandaid; it hurt like hell, but it was quick. And the recovery was arduous and months of uncertainty.
I want to be Yours, without the baggage, without the distance and exceptions. I'm discouraged that I'm doing what I think I should and given mixed messages along the way.
I'm not giving up, please don't give up on me.
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a submissive is not truly complete until she gives herself to that One, that One she fits into like a puzzle piece.
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What a difference a day makes! to be lost and lonely in a world that knows not your true self, your deepest, darkest secrets and desires...there is a place that felt safe. You came back for me, and spoke words i thought were lost forever. Though i denied it, my love for you never died. Thank You for being patient, knowing that i wouldn't run forever. |
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Christmas has come early, have i really been that good, patient of course, but good?
YES! and i will cherish the blessings He shall bestow upon me for i am deserving. |
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Looking forward to making changes into the new year... |
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oh so good to have desires again... |
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*sigh* i had de'javu yesterday, i've been here before, yet NOT! |
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i am real, and i finally met someone from here who is real too...You know who you are! |
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