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This site seems to be the personification of what happens to either side when they interact with the worst kind of each role. Like, a Domme that is bombarded with dick pics and wankers is left bitter and then feels the need to request certain prerequisites be completed before any conversation. A submissive (of either sex) will remained closed off, either afraid to reach out and try something or talk to others because they've been abused.
It's kinda of depressing really. When you think about it in a grand scheme of things, you come to realize that maybe....10% of this site is geniniue. Real people looking for that one. As a male switch that swings more so submissive, it's really disheartening to see the prevalence of the "You're a worthless nobody, give me money, blah blah". And I know the genuine Dominamts of this site are saying "Please, let's get to truly know each other."
Random late night thoughts. |
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I think I'm going to give this whole chastity thing a dead line. Not like in lock up time, but rather "If I'm single by age xxx, then I'll just work towards permanent (or as very few releases as possible) chastity". It's not that I don't enjoy sex, chastity just feels right and it'll make life interesting. At least I think so. |
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Trying to get back into updating this.
For a while now, I've been debating as to whether or not if I really want to start looking for someone again or just abandon the Lifestyle all together. And I'm thinking I do. I guess the idea of what can be had seems to be the driving force and the more I think about it, the more I find myself identifying as a submissive. Currently, I self-proclaim as a switch on the basis that I've done both sides before. But there's this underlying notion of that surrendering that seems so blissful, despite having been so long. And it may sound clich?o say this, but it's tiring to be in control of everything. I can't help but wonder if that's why I am so stressed all the time. By no means am I struggling at this life game. Ladders are being climbed, doors are opening, and I have worked to ensure there is zero drama coming from the outside. I understand my above comment may come across as...umm what the phrase...needy? Maybe? Let me at least try to say that my search for someone wouldn't be for sake of some sexual micro-managing.
BDSM, as Ive come to explore it, is really not a sexual kick for me. Sure, I'm human and there are some arousing elements, but this has all become a journey for that cathartic release; not a sexual one. Which probably explains my love for chastity. I know that the O, while blissful as it may be, can ruin that desire. And I don't like that. Now I have no idea if that is a rarity in this Lifestyle, or I'm just as common as a blade of grass in the valley, but that's me. My desire to...I guess...submit is to be of use and I miss that sense of belonging. Anyways, I'll most likely try to edit my profile here soon to reflect this post. Thank you for your time if you read all this. |
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Man, what a way to kick off my vacation. Friday started with some fishing out on a boat, Saturday was a baseball game down town, tomorrow is binge watching new Game of Thrones, then the next three days afterwards will be filled with camping as well as some hiking by the ocean/mountains. Yay! |
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Oh. Kittens are just too adorable. I miss loving one so much! |
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I'm slowly starting to see that a lot of sum communities within the Lifestyle aren't as...welcoming...as they used to be. You join a group to branch out but people don't seem to want to get to know you even though they invite you. Seems weird but hmm. |
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So hey. My vacation has been nice; hking through Zion and Bryce National Parks. Home in a few days and I do miss my own bed though. Planning on ordering a new device here soon. It's a toss up between Mature Metals Jailbird and their Queens Keep. Decisions, decisions. It seems like the number of findoms has sorta lessened.. |
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It's been a while since I've been on here and posted anything. I guess it's worth a little updating. My profile says I am in chastity and have been for a brief stint. I am actually still locked up, going on five months straight with no keyholder. To explain why, I couldn't really tell you. I've always just found chastity worth it ever since I was first able to dabble in it. I am looking into getting a more secure and higher quality device so if you have suggestions, let me Know! I am back in college, going for my second degree and am about half way done already. Perks of already having one I guess! I am on vacation at the moment which has been nice before school starts back up as well as work. Being full time in both is rough but I know it's worth it. I really want to get back into the lifestyle. Been pondering on it lately. I think I'm going to reenter as a switch and hopefully find (fingers crossed) someone who can help me explore some particular things I've always wanted to try in a relationship we both benefit from. It will be interesting to see where this goes. One side of me really would like to own a pet again, while another part wants me to explore my pet side even more and help see how far with chastity I can go. Time will tell I guess. |
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One of these days, hopefully in the near future, I'm going to be able to start building my puppy suit. I've always been fascinated with the idea of being a pup enclosed in latex/rubber. Full hood and everything. Not undo able, just expensive as heck. The interesting aspects of the enclosure, at least for me, is the more there is, the deeper I dive into subspace. Or at least when it comes to bondage from personal experience. On a side note, I wonder how many geniune interactions happen on here daily. |
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Can't wait for winter. The leaves have already started to change colours and things are ever so slightly starting to cool down as well. Autumn, my favourite season of the year. Comfy sweaters, cozy fireplaces in the evenings, the smell of pine...love it all. I always liked walking around Pike Market more during the Fall as well. Need to go visit a few local shops and start rebuilding my toy collection. |
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Not entirely sure why, but I just feel awful :( I don't know if it's the effects of the lock up or just my body being worn down or that I'm still growing but everything just feels painful. My arms and legs ached all day and I just feel sad...*sigh* |
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It's a shame Collarspace is primilarily filled with findoms and those usually hard-to-tell-if-their-true extreme female slaves. No thank you. Please do not message me with "You want to be my bitch" or "I know you get off on my raping your wallet". Beacuse I don't. Hell, I don't even like spending my money on myself let alone giving anyone else even the hint of ruining my hard work. I don't want to discredit this site for having no geniune lifestyle partners, be them Domme or submissive, because it's not fair to the few I know who are here also hoping to find that one guy that isn't solely here to pump and dump or abuse their trust. I want someone to grow with. To explore not just each other, but what we can be with each other. Someone who can unravel the desires of my submission and me their desire to dominate. Or to nature a darling pet slave/little. There has to be geniune souls here. |
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I am not entirely sure if I'll ever uncover the reason as why I'm so interested in chastity and being locked up. It would more or less be a lie to say it's just a sexual turn on because I'm genuinely happy when locked. It's been a decent duration now regarding my stint in my current device and not once have I regretted purposely losing the keys and genuinely look forward to how long before the lock needs to be cut. Hopefully a couple of months but we (or just myself it's just myself) will see... |
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