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ABOUT ME

Howdy! (Us people who live or lived in the Southwest are allowed to say hi that way.)

Ive been pervy for a very long time, but really only got the opportunity to express it with other people when I moved to the Valley of the Sun, where Ive been a member of some of the local BDSMfetish organizations.

Since Im polyamorous, I believe in strong relationships, but I dont believe that monogamy is for me. No, being poly doesnt make me a liar and a cheat. It just makes me polyamorous. Thats why its ethical nonmonogamy.

Please feel free to say hi back or even flirt of youre so inclined. I wont mind. But please bear in mind, if your message consists of four words or less, Ill consider it to be a meaningless social noise like saying Hi how are ya to a co-worker as you pass by... it just doesnt give me much reason to engage you if youre going to make me do all the work. Sound fair?

I am a hypnotherapist, certified and everything. I have not specialized, because I just havent found the need to turn anyone away yet.

I make latexwear. Ive taught a class or two, but I have a list of resources for DIYers.

FETISHES

Im quite a fan of bondage, the stricter the better.

Ive been doing ponyplay for awhile, and made my own tack set. I make latex garments and leather restraints, and hope to be able to start a business in the foreseeable future. I also make some bondage furniture, but good gawds am I slow.

Beautiful assertive women are my Kryptonite.

Submissive women are my catnip.

If you think I might be able to tickle your fancy, feel free to contact me and we can negotiate.

Please note I am a bit beyond being a keyboard cowboy cyberplayer, and neither of us will be happy with asking me for any kind of monetary servitude. I prefer my play to be very hands-on, and I make great efforts to make sure that it is very satisfactory for everyone involved.

You wont be my dirty little secret, and I wont be yours.

I purchased a steel chastity belt of my very own, and it was inexpensive, and it showed that Id cheaped out. Its gotta be steel for me, not a dinky piece of plastic (My PA5000 experience was a shitshow, culminating in an infection that could have gone very very badly...). I find the idea of holding the keys of a pretty slave of my own absolutely enthralling, if youll pardon the pun.

I have been called a gear whore, and its true. I love collecting and using new BDSM and fetish stuff. I enjoy electrostim, and have made a number of my own e-stim electrodes. And I love to share my toys. Im just generous that way.

I have been told Im a lot of fun to play with, and thats a label I can live with.

I come with references!

TURN OFFS

One True Wayers of any sort. Youve met them before. Theres only one true way to worship! Theres only one true way to practice BDSM! Theres only one true way to do relationships! or whatever.

Unless something is going to get broken by my doing it the way that works for me, kindly step outta my way.

I realize that Im perhaps swimming against the current here, but Im not looking for an LDR or cyber-Domme.

If you think SJW (Social Justice Warrior) is a pejorative, but you have a weekend, work a 40-hour work week, get paid more than a couple of bucks an hour, got help with college tuition, have a vote if youre female or a POC... dont bring your cognitive dissonance to me and expect me to nod and make sympathetic noises when you tell me how awful those busybodies are.

If you try to tell me that the utterly assholeish thing you wrote was a sociological thought experiment, I am going to call you an asshole. Full stop. The only times Ive ever heard someone use that phrase, they were trying to walk back some utterly offensive tripe that was rightly called out.

MRAs or whiny incels. Sorry, I am not handsome or rich or spectacularly funny... but I still get laid. Why? Because I am not a whiny poutypants with some freakish idea that I am entitled to sex-on-demand.

GENERALLY,

I am a switch. Yes, we really truly exist, were not just confused, and we really truly are actual lifestyle people. Please dont bother to try to tell me otherwise. You wont convince me I dont exist, but you will convince me that youre either unlucky, ignorant, or an online-only player. Sorry, its harsh but true.

Since all of my primary relationships are polyamorous, they will not preclude other strong relationships. I certainly wouldnt mind having a submissive of my own to make squeaky noises for me, or meeting another Someone to elicit some squeaky noises of my own.

Yes, it sounds a bit complicated, and sometimes it is. But boiled down, it means that youd be negotiating not just with me, but peripherally with my other significant others. I dont plan to share you with them, but it sure makes things smoother when everyone knows and likes each other. And thatd be my goal.

Given the right woman, Id gleefully bring out my Dom side. The thought of a beautiful willing woman tied down eagerly anticipating the horribly wonderful things Im going to do? Oh yeah. That does it for me.

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2/15/2012 7:35:42 PM

let's be clear: IRL will ALWAYS AND FOREVER trump cyber.


6/6/2011 9:00:12 AM

Goddess helped me with some adjustments to my hypnotherapy site. Hopefully we'll be doing some FAQ videos to bring in a bit more traffic and business!


5/24/2011 1:10:18 PM

So I have two new entries in my FFS Rant pet peeves-

 

A) Twenty-something pro-Dommes who automatically presume that "loser" and /or "worthless" are descriptors for any and all submissives. Yes, I realize that gets some people hot. However, I am not among them. I am intelligent, funny, industrious, well-mannered and have skills that others find value in. So if you feel that despite all that I am still suitably addressed as "worthless loser", well, please don't be surprised and butthurt when I do not respond well.

 

I am worthwhile enough to collar, mmmkay? My Goddess is smart, beautiful, well-to-do... She can have her pick among scores of submissives and slaves. No, I do not exaggerate.

 

So if that's a game you *have* to play or an assumption you are incapable of *not* making, g'wan. I'm not joining in, though.

 

B) Dominants who stare at your cam for 10 minutes, then say something casually and insultingly dismissive about how you're "Not Doing It Right", despite having given zilch in the way of direction or preference.

 

If you managed employees that way, you'd have to accept the fact that shit would not get done, and the business would be in shambles. You'd be constantly doing their jobs and cleaning up after them... and the coronary you'd have would be completely self-administered. No amount of bitching after the fact can cover up the lack of instruction before the fact. If you think that all slaves and submissives should somehow be naturally psychic... maybe you're reading the wrong fiction.


5/13/2011 6:35:06 AM

is there anyone that can do a cell-popping branding sometime in the next couple of months? It might be filmed and show up on a for-pay site.


3/14/2011 4:49:16 PM

I'm part of a panel discussion on polyamory at APEX tonight. Come and watch me being a doofus. Again.


3/9/2011 11:52:17 AM

So February was short and slow and expensive.

In March, I need to do a lot of catching up.

Therefore, I am soliciting the offer of hypnotherapy and custom latexwear (not necessarily at the same time) in order to get a little ahead.

So. I am willing to make custom latexwear (or latex items) for people who want them.

I am also soliciting my services as a hypnotherapist, because hey... that's my main line of work.

Please hit me up. I'm working with the rubbah anyway, because I want some stock before Kinky Kamping in August. But right now would be a good time anyway.


3/3/2011 9:49:42 AM

Next Monday (Mar 7th), I'm doing a demo on predicament bondage at APEX.

You should come see it.


1/29/2011 5:22:59 AM

I am a Certified Clinical Hypnotherapist (entitled to add a CHt after my name when I'm feeling hoity-toity).

I am currently making an effort to do this full-time, so I welcome your inquiries.

I offer in-home appointments for smoking cessation, weight management, pain management, past life regression, forensic hypnosis, recreational hypnosis... essentially soup to nuts.

If you'd like options beyond house-calls, I have them.

You can 
visit my website at www.mesahypnotherapy.com

to schedule an appointment and inquire about rates.

Obviously, I'm not just kink-aware, but positively kink-friendly, so I am comfortable addressing issues that someone less lifestyle-friendly might not
be able to do a good job with.

If you have something you'd like to explore, hit me up.  Most issues can be adequately addressed in 3 sessions, plus or minus, depending on severity and motivation.

I'm here to improve your life :-)
~Pete


1/25/2011 11:23:01 AM

Who's got two thumbs and an AWESOME Goddess?

(And just got registration for Paradise Unbound's 10th Anniversary as a Valentine's Day gift?)

THIS GUY. Seeya in August, Washington.


1/22/2011 2:00:10 PM

The video shoot went well, I think it's been uploaded to Goddess Lycia's sites.

 

However, when I look at myself without my facial hair, it looks *weird*. I look like a stranger that looks like my dad.


1/20/2011 6:39:12 PM

Tomorrow Goddess & I will be shaving off my goatee and bodyhair for the video shoot. Goodbye, facial hair! Goodbye!


1/20/2011 11:28:29 AM

Looks like a weekend of chauffeuring, and a  lipstick fetish video shoot.

 

Fun!


1/19/2011 7:24:08 PM

Off to see Goddess tomorrow! Yay!


1/18/2011 5:35:41 AM

Driveby Domming!

 

Yup, the new trigger works.

 

I need to see if I can get the old DD Machinery belt fixed.

 

And I'm feeling kind of... puffed up.


1/17/2011 12:36:56 PM

With 20-odd (VERY odd!) years of consideration...

Is it as disturbing to you as it is to me that my most mature and well-developed choreographic efforts were themed around mental debilities?


1/17/2011 10:53:22 AM

Took a trip into Tempe today to visit the upholstery store and buy some paracord and size 0 grommets. For a wonder, they had the grommets in stock, and reasonably priced. I was delighted that the paracord was $.25 a yard instead of a foot.

I figured that since I'd driven 20 minutes to get to the store, I might as well look around.

Oh my friends, what a huge mistake.

I saw her, and I fell in love.

She's a queen size bedframe, hand-carved in VietNam from some hardwood, lovingly buffed and polished. You can tell from the minor imperfections that this was a piece lovingly created from the raw materials in a small workshop. Yet it's such a beautiful piece. My siblings would instantly understand what I mean when I say it looks like something Grandpa Milburn would have brought back from the Orient. There's not an ounce of pressboard in it anywhere. I love the perfection of new manufactured furniture, I really do. But there's something about a hand-made piece that just speaks to me.

It matches my concept of my decorating scheme perfectly.

And it's only $270.

Right now, $270 might as well be $2.7 million, since I just don't have it, and the interest rate on my credit card just fell off the 0% rate, and gah.

Heartbreak.

Anyway, I got to thinking "well, that's only 4 sessions, right?". When one session can mean the difference between a ramen month and a healthy food month, that's pretty grisly.

I've heard that kind of thinking referred to as "stripper hours". People (like exotic dancers) who live on a handful of highly-lucrative hours a month get sucked into that kind of thinking. "That pair of shoes is one lap dance! I can just do one extra lap dance and then I can buy 'em!".

And they buy the shoes, and the extra lap dance doesn't materialize. And they're caught short, and bad things cascade from there.

So I'll wistfully wave that Perfect Bed goodbye, unless business takes a sudden sharp leap. And I won't succumb to "stripper hours" financing.

 

**********

 

Stupid chat client dumped me again mid-scene last night.

 

But I got an intriguing assignment complete.


1/16/2011 8:45:19 AM

Twas a very nice weekend with Goddess. I kinda like being Her domestic.

 

Watched Black Swan, and were both duly disturbed. I knew far too many "bunheads" that were that obsessed with perfection, and Goddess knew too many people who went off the deep end.

 

LOVELY movie. But it left us both sort of the opposite of turned on or creative-feeling.


1/14/2011 7:01:25 AM

Yesterday morning, I got an email from Orbitz letting me know that there are round-trip flights from Phoenix to Seattle and back for $222.

 

Then a friend mentioned Paradise.

 

And Goddess & I were discussing future plans, and of course Paradise came up.

 

Yes, I KNOW it's 8 months away. Can't I start getting excited about it now? Especially since we're going to miss KinkFest (again).

 

I want my Paradise fix. I want my Oregonians fix.

 

Wooohooo! Dernit.


1/13/2011 11:09:28 AM

In a short while, I'll be heading to Goddess' house for a couple of days. Video shooting is likely.

Is there a suggestion for a modestly-smutty fetishy subject you'd like to see us film?


1/12/2011 8:04:05 PM

so playtime online was the victim of a wobbly chat client.

 

Tonight's was less so, but still unstable.

 

Discovered that one of my triggers is more effective than I expected it to be, and gave MC a little floor show with another.

 

A bit of CBT for smart-mouthin'.

 

And I'm wearing close chains to bed, and a triggered muteness into tomorrow, hi ho.


1/10/2011 1:18:31 PM

I love it when a session goes well. I also enjoy making a new friend, and getting a new corset underway.

 

This is a good day!


1/9/2011 11:06:31 PM

Looking forward to seeing Goddess now that my cold is finally almost past.

 

************

 

Short chat session with the online Mistress.

 

Checked to see that triggers still work, catheter (yum), and instructions for my day tomorrow.

 

 


1/8/2011 10:32:41 AM
Despite the previous post-

 

 

- I still want a latex maid I can name Fifi.





1/8/2011 10:23:50 AM

So today, I'm doing some major house-cleaning. Not such a big deal, although I'm naked except for  my collar because Goddess likes me to wear it whenever I'm home , the chastity device because that's *always* on, and leg shackles because another Mistress mentioned very strongly that it'd please her.

So I'm hobbling around the apartment, locked at neck, cock, and ankles, and it suddenly struck me... there are people who pay *big bucks* to be in my position. And I am just fortunate enough to have people who do this to me for free.

And so despite the lingering dregs of a cold... I'm kinda chipper.

Just call me Cinderfella.


1/5/2011 6:04:05 PM

LOVELY AND VIVACIOUS ASSISTANTS NEEDED!

 

The job description should also include "brave, with a sense of humor and some endurance".

I've been asked to do a demo on predicament bondage at APEX on March 7th.

I'd *like*  to have at least one model, so it's not a self-bondage demo. I'd love to have more, so I can have a panoply of maidens-in-distress.

I'm debating whether the predicaments should be surprise (after negotiation). But in any case... please throw your bodies at me.

The sooner I know, the better and nicer and more elaborately and fiendishly I can plan. If I have the leisure to construct furniture, that's all to the good. But the more time I have to plan, the better the demo will be, the better the models will be presented and attended to.


1/5/2011 3:22:31 AM

Ugh, Stupid cold.

 

Might need to delay this weekend's trip to see Goddess Lycia due to fug.

 

***

 

In other news, still enjoying cyber-relationship.

 

I've been required to wear ankle shackles whenever I'm home. It's something I've done before for fun, but having someone else *require* it makes it much more serious.

 

More hypno, gleaned from WarpMyMind.com has been incorporated.


1/3/2011 1:58:22 PM

Tonight is the second anniversary of my first date with my Goddess Lycia.

 

It's truly been amazingly wonderful! I might be one of the luckiest hypnoslaves evar.


1/2/2011 9:21:35 PM

Had a lovely weekend with Goddess, although I could have improved upon it. My thoughtlessness brought some discord to what by all rights should have been a wonderful night.

 

Tonight's shenanigans involved the e-stim unit. I *love* the e-stim unit. There was also a bit of pelota-whacking with a ruler for unwarranted cussing.

 

BTW, does anyone have a pair of leg shackles they could part with muy cheapo?


1/1/2011 2:09:47 AM

It's said that a man might not serve two masters. But what about Mistresses? I am still collared real-time by my beloved Goddess Lycia (and don't see that changing), but am under consideration for a virtual relationship by Mistress Cynthia. Yes, I know I said that that wasn't likely to happen. But sometimes things just HAPPEN, right? As long as the hierarchy remains clear and unchallenged (with Goddess Lycia as my priority and me at the bottom), it could be a fun time.

Things in the new situation proceed at the pace of the Internet. Last night involved a long cam session, with ball-slapping meted out for tardiness and disrespect. I was ordered to insert a catheter and inflatable buttplug, and a new hypnotic trigger was installed. I went to bed in close chains, and wore leg shackles as I did house chores the next day.

Let's see where this goes after Goddess' visit for the NYE weekend!


12/29/2010 7:26:42 PM

Met a new friend this evening here on CM.

 

She was fascinated by the fact that I'm in chastity. Since I'm allowed some leeway in playing as long as I don't have an orgasm, we were off to the races.

 

I'm a little woozy after a tiny bit of flogging, an enema, and catheterization. Crawling to get toys was a nice touch!


11/4/2010 3:28:30 PM

The USPS decided that my old Razor was too interesting as an antique to let go of. So now I have a new 3G phone.

If you would like me to have your phone number, either text it to me, call me, or send me a message here.


10/2/2010 10:33:56 AM
So where in my profile does it indicate that I am ISO a Jamaican guy to pee in my face and call me bitch boi while I suck his 8inches?

Ladies, If I have *ever* written any of you a note so completely off-kilter and presumptuous, I ask your forgiveness. I know y'all get inundated with emails from clueless retards, so on behalf of the rougher sex, I apologize.

10/2/2010 10:28:53 AM

PA-5000 Report 


 

So, I've been wearing this thing for about 18 hours so far. And while I don't think I can say I love love it, it's by far the best and most secure chastity device I've worn.

I had some trouble sleeping last night, as I experienced some discomfort in my left groin area. I dunno what was up with that, maybe unrelated. But there ya go. My left testicle seemed to want to snuggle up to the device much more than the right. But Righty doesn't retract anymore, so whatever.

The protruding lock is perversely fun to thunk on things.

And the early-morning pee-boner presented an interesting situation: As my cock swelled in the tube, it squeezed my urethra shut. So I could feel the sensation of letting my bladder go. I could feel as my urethra allowed the passage of urine... but no final tickle as it left, no tinkle-inkle-inkle for a few seconds, until pressure built up enough to force passage through the clamped-down area.

And now here I am, boy-bits neatly boxed up, and I don't have the option of unlocking it when I deem that I'm done. It's not as much of a wrench as one might think, since we've been practicing orgasm control (on mine solely, thanks) for over a year. So the idea that I don't cum when and where I wanna isn't new. But now there's an actual physical impediment reminding me all the time of the fact.


9/20/2010 8:59:18 AM
I am a Certified Clinical Hypnotherapist (entitled to add a CHt after my name when I'm feeling hoity-toity).

I am currently making an effort to do this full-time, so I welcome your inquiries.

I offer in-home appointments for smoking cessation, weight management, pain management, past life regression, forensic hypnosis, recreational hypnosis... essentially soup to nuts.

If you'd like options beyond house-calls, I have them.

You can contact me at
peterboundy_cht@cox.net

, or visit my website at www.mesahypnotherapy.NET to schedule an appointment and inquire about rates.

Obviously, I'm not just kink-aware, but positively kink-friendly, so I am comfortable addressing issues that someone less lifestyle-friendly might not
be able to do a good job with.

If you have something you'd like to explore, hit me up. I'm offering a rate of $75/session . Most issues can be adequately
addressed in 3 sessions, plus or minus, depending on severity and motivation.

I'm here to improve your life :-)
 
IN ADDITION: I'm trying to build this up, so if you give a recommendation to a client who pays for a first appointment, I will kick $10 back to you.

~Pete

8/21/2010 1:58:19 PM
Y'know, I just have to wonder about the ideation some people are going through when they post a profile. The parts that aren't complainy are whiny or bitchy.

Think a second about the impression you give when you write about how disappointed you are with everyone, how much everyone sucks, how no-one comes even close to being worthwhile. It doesn't matter HOW MANY profiles you put up, or what you put in them, if they consist entirely of "Gawd, you all suck! Please don't write to me unless you're Prince Charming, already in love with me, and totally blind to *my* faults! Don't write to me. Write to me. But please don't write to me."

8/10/2010 1:32:21 PM
I am completely incapable of getting my ass under weigh today. It just ain't happenin'. I want to get a bunch of things done, like latex patternmaking. Buuuuttt.. nah.

7/19/2010 12:23:01 PM
Here's the number for my hypnotherapy line: 1-888-MY-ETHER ext. 04309835

Feel free to call, or pass it along to someone who could use some help.

6/24/2010 12:48:42 PM

Oh yeah... and I had a dream a few nights ago that I was interviewing for a job at DOI

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6/7/2010 4:16:28 AM
Gah. I need an organizer now, I swear I do.

Anyway, before I forget (again), I'll be doing a discussion on erotic hypnosis at APEX next Monday the 14th. Show and support!

If you were to attend a discussion on the subject, what would you like to ask, or have discussed?

And due to weirdness with Verizon, I think my text messaging went wonky for the entirety of last week. A brownout killed an IM message from someone a couple of days ago, and I am obsessing over whom it might have been. If it's another friend request from DYNED (my name for some joker that sends me ICQ friend requests in Cyrillic every other day or so), I shall be annoyed. If it was someone else, get back with me, y0.

5/10/2010 8:02:23 AM
*Sigh* Anybody wanna take in a kitty?

My favorite ex has pretty much had it with Tatterdemalion, our youngest cat. There's something in the group dynamic of ex + Bugita + Tatter that brings out the worst in Tatter. (When it's me + the cats or Goddess + the cats, it's all catnip & roses. Polite sniffing, head bumps, and calm. But the normal combo? NOT SO GOOD. Tatter attacks Bug and ex.)

She's also a very good huntress, and brings her kills inside to consume, which doesn't endear her to ex, who gets squicked by the prospect of dealing with the carnage.

I'm wondering if it's some kinda territoriality thing. I dunno. But the current configuration is volatile, and ex is very unhappy.

I would take her in in a heartbeat if I could, but I have a "no pets" clause in my lease. I was planning on taking her when I bought a house, but that's been delayed indefinitely and this situation has come to a head now.

So I'm putting it out to you guys... can any of you take her in? She's sweet (to me), pretty, doesn't make messes in the house, quiet, likes some snuggling. I think she'd be a great single indoor cat. But she might get along with other cats in a different domestic dynamic.

If I could reclaim her someday, that'd be great. If I have to let her go in order to resolve an unhappy situation, that's less great. But it's preferable to sending her to the pound.

4/25/2010 12:21:54 PM
I put in my submission to have my hypnotherapy practice be listed in the NCSF Kink-Aware Professionals directory.

I don't see much problem with it being accepted unless I messed up on the formatting.

And that's another step out toward being a real-life professional person.

3/13/2010 2:03:21 PM
Just did my first professional hypnotherapy session. The nervousness I have harbored about this milestone has switched over to something suspiciously like giddiness.

11/21/2009 1:38:16 PM

Funny thing at work: One of my co-workers had her 10-year anniversary Thursday. I  was doing my Thursday am bookshelving , and the store manager pages me to the break room. She states "You're into that slave thing, so today you're my kitchen slave." I LOLed, despite the protocol issues involved.

I got to spend the bulk of the day preparing food under the tutelage of someone who knows FAR more about cooking than I do.

It was fun, it was instructive, I got to do something outside the usual daily course, and I got yummy food. And I got a little zing from the recognition of my alternative sexuality... in my vanilla life.

5/13/2009 6:11:24 PM
Go Team Me!
     As of today, I can add CHt to my BA. No, this is not a chemical thing, it's an accreditation thing.

     I have my Bachelor of Arts as of sometime circa the fall of Rome, and now I am a Certified Hypnotherapist, with a wall-hanging frameable certificate and everything.

     Kudos are owed to My Darlin' Goddess Lycia, who generously induced me to join her in getting this training. Without her, I'd prolly not have gotten off my ass and DONE it, and I'd be a much more enstressed person today.

Pete B, B.A, CHt

4/26/2009 10:09:09 AM

Protected
I am indeed still alive.

Melissa and I are one disk and a test away from getting our CHt certification. This is a good and useful thing. If you'd like to be a test subject so I can get some practice in, let's schedule it. We've gotten some useful training on smoking cessation, weight reduction, and pain control. When I consider the number of people on my f-list who are afflicted with migraines or are suffering from chronic pain, I can't help but feel that this might be a useful skill...

My birthday is coming up in a couple of months. I think that this year, I might pass on the Big Naughty Party. For one thing, well, there's the divorce. That kinda makes things more uncertain, and frankly, I don't know if I'm up for it. In addition, fewer and fewer people have been attending, so I think that perhaps The Big Naughty Party might be a notion that's outlived it's time.

On the other hand, Melissa and I have got our registration for Paradise ready to go. The idea of the Big Naughty Camping trip is still in burgeoning good health.

2/12/2009 6:27:10 PM
Herakleitos of Ephesus said "The only constant is change."

Sometimes it's a good thing, sometimes less so.

As illustration, I'd like to let our friends know that Natalie and I are dissolving our marriage.

It's not an easy decision, but we think it's best.

We are going to work very hard to maintain a strong and ongoing relationship. She is still a very dear friend to me, and I shall try to be so to her. I'd hate it if people felt they needed to pick sides, because there isn't a conflict. Natalie was unhappy with things as they were, and it wasn't exactly doing me any good to keep her in a postion where she felt stifled.

So earlier this week we got the paperwork started.

I will still be living here, sharing space  with Nat until I can afford a place of my own. (Hence the certification... retail wages aren't conducive to the lifestyle to which I've become accustomed, basic as it is.) It's not overly awkward, in fact, we've been able to talk much more easily in the last few days than we have been able to in the months previously. In the meantime, I'm going to help Nat get the house ready to sell. There are a few things both major and minor that should be done to spiff the place up. I'd love to buy the house from Nat, but... yeah. Money.

Okay, rambling aside. We're parting with a decided fondness, I hope that I can count on your support for the both of us, and please do us both the favor of NOT badmouthing the other. Neither of us wants to hear it, whether it be from family or friends. Go ahead and invite us both to the same party. It'd be fine, really.

12/27/2008 2:44:33 PM
I just realized it's been an age since I posted a journal entry here. Or pretty much anywhere except my LJ.

Anyway.

I've been a bit of a hermit due to financial constraints and just plain hermitishness.

Had a wonderful pervy evening at the Private Holiday X-mas Party That One Has to Attend to Believe. Miss Kitty played with me, along with diverse hands. Enjoyed it very much. However, it was just a tad bittersweet, since I think it might have been the last time. We've been on divergent tracks for awhile, and while we are still immensely fond of each other, I think that she's found other people, and me... well, the hermit thing.

Okay, as far as the hermit thing goes... no, I haven't descended completely into Ted Kuzinzski territory. I do need to get out more. In fact, that's my New Year's resolution.

But I have plans.

There's going to be an animal role-play discussion and a cell-popping demo for TNG.

I am awaiting word on a Vegas Party Play Party Private Flight Party.

There's the co-worker who's *still* flirting with me because we both have an interest in the kink.

There's Paradise next September. I have the time off, I'm making sure the truck is in shape for a road trip, and I'm awaiting funding and registration options.

And there's the Major Crush.

Things with Miss Major Crush are going *really* well. In fact, we're planning on going to see the Lycia show together next weekend, and then doing naughty nasty horrible things with each other. I am anticipating being one tired piece o' poo at work next Sunday, but since I couldn't get the day off, well, them's the breaks.

10/16/2008 6:05:41 PM
So.

Tomorrow night, I'm helping out a friend by being a part of their Gala for their store (Fetish Alive in Phoenix), where I'll basically be wearing a succession of latex outfits and schmoozing.

I will also be busily whoring myself out, hoping I can find a play partner for some much-needed activity Saturday. I'm just sorta praying I can find a play-date for either private naughtiness, or even at the APEX party.

10/11/2008 2:54:32 PM
I've put together my outfit for tonight's Fetish Ball (sorta latex motorcycle cop, complete with regulation belt w/ gloves & cuffs).

Supposedly there's going to be a play area, and there's the after-party. So now I have to plan out a toybag ;-)

9/14/2008 9:05:47 AM
Apparently this is my week to be asked to do stuff for the community.  

I've got a date to be a booth-bunny at the new fetish boutique, essentially just lounging around in my latex or pony gear for a few hours.  ( http://www.fetishalivestore.com/ )

In November, I'll be doing a panel discussion on animal roleplay cuz of, you know... the pony thing.  

And I need to get some equipment, information, and experience in order to try to adequately discuss cell-popping. NOBODY here in Phoenix knows about this stuff.

To be fair, I DID volunteer to do a demo at the Fetish Ball.

9/3/2008 9:53:40 AM
  Okay, here's the lowdown on Paradise Unbound.

    I flew into SeaTac on an early flight, and got picked up by Ms. T (who, by the way, was a very accomodating and gracious hostess). We went to the grocery and picked up a bit of nomnom, went back to her place, and I settled in as she worked on some commissions. She is an inspiration. I had no idea stuff could be put together that fast. Must. Work. On. Speed.

    I read a bunch, watched a tiny bit of tellebizhun, and checked my email a few times. But mostly I lazed like a lump. And I was fine with that.

    And I waited to see if my Box o' Fun would arrive.

    Tuesday, we waited for the mail just in case my Box o' Fun should arrive (which it didn't) and then Ms T.  drove me out to the Longhouse, and I set up camp. I was quite happy to be sorta centrally-located, instead of being peripherally located like in previous years. I was SO GLAD to see people again. Purplegoddess was, of course, eye-catching, due to her hair and tats. But hugging G. and C. and Margaret and Other G. was like coming back to a home that only appears once every other year for me, like Brigadoon.

    I met some other new folks: AJ, J., D. and L. Love them dearly. Meeting L. was an amazing deja vu experience. She looks very much like a good friend of mine, and her demeanor is almost eerily similar  my friend's. I had a hard time separating them in my mind. She was sort of the wonder and amazement of my encampment, a genuine BDSM wunderkind. There doesn't seem to be a technique that she can't pick up like *that*, and she enjoys pretty much everything. (One evening she had about 40 needles stuck in her chest, arms, and back, and little tiny glow sticks inserted in the ends of the needles. She wandered around the camp in the dark, to the oohs and aaahs of all assembled.) Considering her first exposure to the lifestyle was maybe 3 months ago... she's taking off like a rocket.

    The weather was glowering, which I sorta expected. It represented a nice change from Arizona's relentless Sunny, Hot, and Humid... at least for the day. The weather never really did get nice. But other than the fact that it made running around nekkid a matter of strategy, it was no biggie. I'd planned on it being cold.

    I discovered early on in the evening on Tuesday that the roof of my tent leaked. Just a little, and not a steady stream or anything. Just enough to moisten my pillow and make a couple of my books swell up.  (The tent was still very welcome,  roomy and just plain better than my own. A bit of ScotchGard on that top piece, and it'd be right as... rain. ) So the first night, I plopped my rain poncho on top of the tent. The second day, I bought a plastic tablecloth and lashed that to the roof. Third day, I borrowed a blue tarp and lashed that in place. Nice and snug and dry, and it even gave a little bit of insulation.

    I made an acquaintance the second day. She needed a stunt-cock for the CBT portion of a pervertables demo. My fellow stunt-bottoms were a treat, and I'm sorry I didn't get to spend more time with H. and C.. The demo was fun, I got ogled (c'mon, that's where the exhibitionist part of me gets fed), and we made plans for some fire-play later that night.

    Fireplay was fun. I got a bit of flash & burn, flash cotton, and sparkler-sparking. Who knew that kid's sparklers could be so yowchy when held a few inches above bare flesh?

   
    I was exposed to the Fun New Trick of cell-popping, and considered getting a temporary brand. Cuz ya know, ponies need brands. But I couldn't figure out a good design, and I'm a big chicken. I could likely assemble the tools to do a cell-popping pretty easily.

    This year, I actually got a LOT of playtime in. Nothing as complicated as my usual gear-whore scenes, but I did get flogged a couple of times on the second day. The fact that I was *ahem* conspicuously tumescent during the flogging resulted in my receiving a blowjob later from a new admirer...

    Wore my latex corset ensemble to dinner one night, and the strait-jacket the next day.

    The food was good. Better, in fact, than in years previous.

    When Ms T. came out, I got to try out her sleep-sack. YUM. I had my gasmask with the eyes blanked out on, and some sensory dep .mp3 files playing on my iPod. Pretty much all I could do was lie there and wriggle occasionally when I got groped. Once again, conspicuously tumescent. (I'd love to try it again, with some e-stim hookup and maybe some clamps.) Then later in the evening, she gave me a very thumpy caning. I didn't really mark up much, but mah sittin' meats were pretty tender until ummm... yesterday.

    Sunday morning, I got harnessed up and hitched up to a pony cart. I pulled that sucker all over the damn camp. Then we went past the Littles Party, and all the Little Girls came out and petted the pretty pony. Haw! I think if the weather hadn't been so damned cold, there would once again have been conspicuous tumescence.

    Monday was pretty much eaten up with packing. Got to the airport at 1PM, couldn't find an earlier flight that I could go standby on to get home earlier, and got home at 11PM. When I came in the door, I found the wayward Box o' Fun waiting. Apparently, USPS couldn't find the address that day, despite having been able to find it when I used the exact copy of that label on other packages. Silly Box o' Fun.

    Now I'm home, decompressing and taking care of some home maintenance. (The AC died while I was gone, the lawn grew like crazy, the front bushes need to get yanked...)

8/24/2008 10:30:04 PM
Dunno if i've trumpeted this loudly enough for eveyone outside the orbit of Mercury to have heard yet, but this is where i'll be for the next week: http://www.paradiseunbound.com/site/index.php?page=about-paradise

Be nice to Natalie. i'm gonna miss her while i'm gone, but i'll have lots of new and stimulating people to distract me.

8/16/2008 3:11:19 PM
It's strange how we define our mental demarcations.

    Today, i mailed my pony-play and e-stim gear ahead to Seattle in preparation for camping in Paradise, and now, suddenly, it feels real and inevitable that i will be going to Washington, i will be camping in the woods, and i will be doing naughty things with naughty people.

    Registering was an intellectual exercise, getting my airline ticket was a step. But the visceral OOMPH moment was getting the receipt for my package and watching it get put in a cart.

    Now i need to find a box big enough to ship the tent. Or maybe tape the bejeezus out of the box it came in so i can wrap it in packing paper.

7/26/2008 7:24:00 PM
"PET" FOOD-

Raid the freezer for random leftovers- the more random, the better. Especially stuff you'd never consider serving with the other stuff.

Thaw, run through the food processor until it's a glob of goo.

Serve at room temperature a la parquet (on a plate on the floor).

Whatever your "pet" doesn't eat, You could probably feed to your dog or cat.

7/26/2008 6:01:34 PM
In a month less one day, i'll be at an event in Washington State called Paradise (or Paradise Unbound, or WetSpot in Paradise... it seems to change every year!). On the off chance you'll be attending, feel free to find me and say hi.

i'll be staying with the Oregonian contingent, and i have the black patent leather pony harness. Other identifying marks: PA and nipple piercings, with hematite beads in the nipples.

5/6/2008 6:58:30 PM
i was rebuked because my profile says a lot about what *i* want.

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If i knew what YOU wanted, i wouldn't be writing it in a stupid profile somewhere, i'd be making millions running an advertising agency. Whaddami, psychic?

4/30/2008 5:22:31 PM
I've decided that I really want a cute little live-in slave that we can dress in a latex maid's outfit and chains, who'll answer to the name Fifi.

Seriously.

4/28/2008 6:32:09 PM
So i got an email on another networking site. The title was "UGH", and the entire body of the message consisted of "Switches disgust me."

Classy, eh?

While i feel some pity for what is obviously a personal issue for the poor Girl, i'm not going to own Her problem.

4/25/2008 11:25:23 AM
i am thinking that i might add custom silicone sex toys to my line of pervy stuff to make and sell.

Anybody interested?

4/18/2008 9:25:01 PM
*headdesk*


Anyone who knows me knows i have nothing against pro-Dommes. i happen to like some that i've met very much indeed, and i value them as clients. Srsly.


But please. A pro-Domme is not necessarily the same as a lifestyle Domme.


"Pro" means "professional". In other words, that's how they make a living.


"Lifestyle" means they do it because they just like it. Money is not necessarily involved. It might be, when the lifestyle Domme happens to be in the enviable position of doing what they love for a living.


But there are pro-Dommes who are not lifestyle. They do it because it's good money, but when they take off the thigh-boots, that's the last they want to think about kink for the day.


i am a lifestyle kinky person. Much of my time and energy go into being part of the pervy community. Am i a pro? No. Okay, maybe a semi-pro fetishist, in that i make some money making fetishwear.


So i cringe when i read things like "If you contact me, be ready with tribute, because that's how I weed out the fakes."


No, Honeybear. You're weeding out the people who aren't in need of a pro.


There are some of us out here who are really truly lifestyle pervs... and we don't pay monetary tribute to our Mistresses. We provide the yin to Their Yang, the positive pole to their negative, the bottom to Their Top. They're Mistresses because that's Their nature, not their job. Some people are bottoms because that's their nature. We provide something the other person needs that can't be put on a credit card. It's something very real, very necessary... and it ain't money.


Kthnx, thus endeth the lesson.


4/5/2008 6:13:16 PM
When the Real Thing (ie, time with Miss Kitty) isn't an option, i can at least use a couple of hours of hypnosis/self-bondage to serve to take the edge off.

2/26/2008 2:07:01 AM
i'll be hosting the TNG play party this Saturday.

i love doing this. The energy is fantastic, and ummm... it is a wonderful reason to clean the house.

2/17/2008 2:18:05 PM
As a part of my Lifestyle Community Service, Mistress and  I will be a part of a panel discussion at the Arizona Power Exchange tomorrow, discussing "What's Your Fetish (and how do you talk about it?)".

There'll be a lot of goofiness, I'm sure, but we'll also cover some more serious ground, like "How do I discuss these bruises on my bum with my nurse practioner?" and "Is there a good way to come out to my family?".

Hope to see you there!

2/13/2008 4:48:21 PM
So I was wondering... I've sent out a couple of messages recently, and got very curt (dare I say rudely so?) replies saying that the Lady in question will not speak to or deal with switches.

I was wondering: is this a result of actual experience, or did they just hear on a board somewhere that switches are bad news and if You play with one the Terrorists Have Won or something?

Seriously.

I'm trying to figure out a nice polite way of saying that's a bunch of crap, but the euphemisms just aren't popping into my head.

ANYONE who has actually played with me *knows* that I stay in role completely. If the scene starts with me bottoming, that's where it's going to end. If you want me to Top you, then that's what you're going to get, without me suddenly rolling over mid-scene and getting all "Now hit meeeee!".

I've heard a lot of internet crap about switches that's been tired old re-hashing of a bunch of second-hand bulls*** about switches. And to tell Ya the truth, I'm pretty sick of irrational and unfounded prejudices, especially when they're being levelled at me.

Unless you're the kind of person that yells "NIGGER!!!" at black people out of your pick-up truck window or believes in the Zionist Banking Conspiracy (okay, most especially these troglodytes)... GROW UP, open your mind, realize that most of what you hear in AOL chat-rooms is BS, and stop jerking that knee.

You might actually find out that switches are just as good at bottoming as the lowliest slave... they just manage to keep a sense of perspective.

11/4/2007 9:32:51 AM

Went to a play party last night, had fun... discovered that my Mistress and i had somehow been scheduled to do a CBT demo for the big lifestyle organization here , APEX ( http://www.arizonapowerexchange.org ). It was a surprise to me, and i believe She was a trifle surprised too. 

 

Anyhow, it's not like it's something we haven't done demos on before (and enjoyed thoroughly privately and publicly). A bit of electrostim, some sounding, electrifying the sound, electrifying and vibrating the sound... you know, basic stuff ;-) But now we need to know how many activities we have to plan to demo and so we need to know how much time we have to fill .  It's all a bit of  a rush job, even though we have two weeks to plan it all out.

 

 Hm. What to add to the repertory? Cock bondage? Icy Hot? Clamps? No knives or needles, kthnx.

 

Any suggestions?


11/4/2007 9:05:04 AM

Went to a play party last night, had fun... discovered that my Mistress and i had somehow been scheduled to do a CBT demo for the big lifestyle organization here , APEX ( http://www.arizonapowerexchange.org ). It was a surprise to me, and i believe She was a trifle surprised too. 

 

Anyhow, it's not like it's something we haven't done demos on before (and enjoyed thoroughly privately and publicly). A bit of electrostim, some sounding, electrifying the sound, electrifying and vibrating the sound... you know, basic stuff ;-) But now we need to know how many activities we have to plan to demo and so we need to know how much time we have to fill .  It's all a bit of  a rush job, even though we have two weeks to plan it all out.

 

 Hm. What to add to the repertory? Cock bondage? Icy Hot? Clamps? No knives or needles, kthnx.

 

Any suggestions?


10/5/2007 7:38:10 AM
  It's finally here. Butchmann's weekend

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     Starting at 4PM, I am going to be jumping into this deep dark well with Miss Kitty, and emerging late Sunday night. We're not exactly sure what to expect, but by gum, I'm going to do my  grooming , hand over the choices and key to the Iron Underpants to Mistress, open my eyes and heart, and pack my toybag appropriately.

     I decided to take Monday and Tuesday off to decompress and ground myself afterward.

     Today, I need to take care of my neglected depilation tasks, maybe get in an appropriately-themed self-hypnosis session, and pack. Yeah, that's it. Okay, clean the kitchen. But otherwise, I've tried to keep the calendar clear for this weekend for so long, it's almost like this big vacuum that's pulling me in.

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