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Dear Sir or Madam:

I am still in the middle of change and not looking for anything serious just interesting people to talk to. Things that I like to chat about include: Politics, Nature, Parenting, just about anything really.

Beloved

P.S. I am a busy woman these days. I am a college student and I am MOM so if I don't get back to you right away. I am very sorry.

*Update* I am currently looking for people in Alaska (particularly up in the Dutch Harbor area). I am seriously thinking of moving up there after I graduate from college.

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6/22/2009 8:55:24 PM
I Just want to let all you perverted fuckers know that collarme is taking its sweet ass time posting my new pictures up and I am sorry for the delay.

6/22/2009 8:54:02 PM

4/18/2009 9:38:29 PM
OMG!!! I FEEL SO SPECIAL I GOT MY FIRST SCAM LETTER!! MY FIRST EVER ON COLLARME!! _______________________________________________ From Mr.Koffi AfredInternational commercial bank GhanaRing Road Accra Ghana Attn Sir/Madam,It is my pleasure to seek for your assistance, this proposal is real and I want you to consider it very important. This is an opportunity I cannot live to miss...it I am Mr.Koffi Afred, the director in charge of Auditing section of International commercial bank Ghana, and also a Relationship Account Officer to Al Gupta Kassim, a Lebanese. He was a Seasoned Contractor with Ghana Cement Company in Ghana Republic, who unfortunately died in the plane crash of Union Transport Africans Flight Boeing 727 in Benin republic in December25, 2003. You will read more stories about the crash on visiting this website:www.cnn.com/2003/WORLD/africa/12/26/benin.crash.Before his death on the 25th December 2003, Al Gupta Kassim, has a fixed deposit account with the bank and no other person knows about this account or anything concerning it, the account has no other beneficiary and my investigation proved to me that his supposed next of kin died along with him in the crash. Since then I have made several inquiries to locate any of my clients extended relatives, this has also proved unsuccessful. After these several unsuccessful attempts, I decided to contact you. I contacted you to assist in repatriating the money left behind by my client before they get confiscated or declared unserviceable by the bank to the government.Consequently, Since I have been unsuccessful in locating the relatives for over 7 weeks now .I seek your consent to present you as the next of kin of the deceased so that the proceeds of this account valued at US$3.5 million can be paid to you and then you and me can share the money in proportion 60% to me and 40% to you. I sincerely request your honest co-operation to enable us see this deal through. I guarantee that this will be executed under a legitimate arrangement that will protect you and me from any breach of the law. If this proposal is acceptable to you, kindly get back to me immediately.Waiting for your urgent response. Yours Sincerely.Mr.Koffi Afred

3/30/2009 9:03:28 PM
Ahhhhh!! I got an epilator now I rip hair out!! I don't have to worry about hair for a month at a time!! OMG does it hurt!! I rip everything out!! I am back to skirts and button down tops again... bye bye blue jeans!!

12/9/2008 2:55:19 AM

I broke my own rule today. I broke down and purchased 4 brand new pairs of blue jeans. I have gone for 7 years with out pants until this quarter.  I have been so busy that I have not had time to shave my legs this quarter. There is 12 weeks in a quarter just to give you all a hint. 

I have always dressed like a lady always wearing long skirts and dresses. This quarter I found myself wearing sweats and looking frumpy because I didn't want my hairy legs showing. I have always just loved being able to hike up my skirt or dress on a whim. The freedom of just being able to hike it up and squat and go to the bathroom, or simply just being available for the right man.

It is so taxing to now to practically undress to use the restroom or even now the temptation of making myself available sexually is gone. Has my life gotten that lame?


12/5/2008 2:20:30 AM
Question of the Day:

Are you THAT in to anal sex???

No, I only like it during Thanksgiving and Christmas. Since, I feel like I get screwed up the ass every year during the holidays. I felt I might as well make it subconsciously symbolic.


11/30/2008 2:53:51 PM
10 points to the next person who can give me the name of the song with these lyrics..

"There'll be no strings to bind your hands, not if my love can't bind your heart."


11/25/2008 6:07:59 PM
Something about Thanks For Nothing Day and Christmas just makes me hungry for anal sex. I think it's the whole ordeal and ritual of shoving stuffing up a turkey's ass that makes me crazy with lust.

9/2/2008 6:58:49 PM
Forgive me collarme for I have sinned. I went camping over a week ago and came back to discover the lovebirds that lived up above me had broken up and one had moved out. I used to lay in bed and masturbate while they argued and fought. It turned me on when things got violent upstairs and you could hear the thumping and thudding along with horrible yells and screams. I know collarme I am such a sick soul. Now all I have left are the lesbians and their dysfunctional children next door and trust me they are nothing to masturbate about. I am so bored and depressed collarme.

7/26/2008 9:59:22 PM
Forgive me Collarme for I have sinned.. I like to take evening walks in total darkness. When I am out walking, I dream of being kidnapped and forced in to sexual slavery.


6/29/2008 2:52:08 PM
For thoes of you  emailing me telling me that Larry the  cucumber is lucky. This week I am on my rag and I still make Larry the cucumber participate. How many of you think he is lucky now? lol.... 

6/23/2008 12:51:14 AM
Forgive me Collarme for I have sinned...

According to the Steve Wilkos Show, I am considered a "Belly Rubber". I just don't understand the whole concept of "Moron Free Television" I liked him way better when he was a moron working for Jerry Springer. At least then I could lay around naked on my couch eat Twinkies and giggle.





3/1/2008 1:54:21 PM
Forgive me Collarme for I have sinned...

When my daughter is at preschool I like to steal her Veggie Tales stuffed animals and line them up at the foot of my bed and masterbate in front of them. Sometimes, I make Larry the cucumber participate. I like to make him smell my crotch.



2/24/2008 11:39:18 PM

Sir:

As the old saying and song goes: "Anything you can do, I can do better.” “I can do anything better than you." I hope you are not referring to me as being inferior because I have a vagina. Intelligence has nothing to do with sexual organs. The only difference between you and I is you have penis and I have a vagina. Both sexes of the human species have brains.  The degree of intelligence between individuals is based on how a person chooses to use and stimulate their brain.

Now, don't get me wrong I am not one of those bra burning head shaving feminist bitches. Historically, women have been considered to be nurturer in the family and the one who takes care of the family while the men go out and earn a living. I still try to hang on to my traditional roots as a woman. The only difference being that I am an equal partner, friend, companion, and lover to my significant other.

The fact that you addressed me as “sweet cunt” makes me believe that you do not value women or their opinions at all. I have a feeling that I am just cheap entertainment and a vagina. I have too much self-esteem and self-worth to be treated as cum receptacle. Men who view me as such never get the opportunity to penetrate my tight, sweet, succulent cunt.  Instead, they spend a life time keeping up with me, kissing my ass, and tripping over their own testicals as I stroll past them successfully in what ever challenges and endeavors that are put in front of me.

As for my thoughts on the presidential election, the future president must be chosen wisely. We need someone that is going to be able to heal the damage and distrust that has been done. Traditionally, all of our past presidents have been Caucasian. It has only been the last 88 years that the suffrage movement gave women the right to vote, and it has been only 48 years since the end of segregation. America is ready for a change. Personally, I am still undecided as to who I think is qualified to bring about it. My gut says that it won’t matter anyway because it’s just going to be another crooked old white guy in office. My heart of hearts wants someone that is going to bring a great deal of healing power, peace, and integrity, and knowledge to this country. It would be nice if they had a different historic perspective of the United States and lived life out of the traditional realm of past presidents.

 

Anyway, those are my thoughts.

 

Beloved

 

P.S. I can’t believe I spent 444 words on a person who does not have even the kindness to address me as Beloved or Miss. I might be submissive, but I command just as much respect and kindness as any dominant. My name isn’t sweet cunt.


2/19/2008 4:56:12 PM
Sorry I have not updated my blog lately. I have been very busy. I miss everyone.

1/9/2008 12:50:28 AM
Next semester, I am going to sign up for Yoga for Seniors! Its a one credit class. I am afraid of going to the regular class because I don't want to kill myself. If anyones says anything to me I am going to look at them and say HEY!! DO I FUCKING LOOK LIKE GUMBY TO YOU!! I am not 18 years old here!! (I peeked in the class today to see what it was about and it was full of 18, 19 year olds) I can't throw my legs behind my ears! I want to learn how to stretch my back and neck out because I am having a lot of problems with my neck. I think the stretching will be good. Eventually, I will take the regular class. It looks like a lot of fun.

 I hope to be able to swing my legs behind my ears like I did in my lustful youth. I did sign up for the fitness lab this semester. I plan on going 4 days a week. I can usually work up to 10 min on the stair stepper, 10 min on the elliptical, 10 min on the stationary bike and then 30 min of toning my muscles with the machines.

1/8/2008 1:06:41 AM
Ahhhhh... I am back in class!!! Feels good!! 

12/28/2007 8:35:34 PM
Ok.. maybe I have gotten way to sassy. Do you think I need my ass beat? 

12/28/2007 1:41:12 PM
Seems as if I have scared a great deal of the dominant degenerates out there. My mail box is empty for a change. 

12/27/2007 6:14:57 PM
Sir,

I like dysfunctional families.. its the ones who don't have those problems that I worry about.. I am not attracted to younger men especially ones who have not had the opportunity to experience having a gut a bothersome ex wife and 10 children. You and I have nothing in common.

Beloved

12/17/2007 8:44:44 PM
Rob Dog: whats your education in the middle east?
Rob Dog: ZERO
Rob Dog: Damn strait
Rob Dog: Im proud to be an american
Rob Dog: too bad for you
Beloved B: Look I love my country I am just not as crazy as you and I am not pooping it out in excesses like you
Rob Dog: You started the arguement
Beloved B: no I didnt
Rob Dog: if your going to step on the country Im going to speak
Beloved B: lol I am not stepping on any country just the crazy ones who think Armageddon is going to be war.. all I have to say is its going to end by water
Beloved B: I have already started going to Lowes to price out lumber but I am thinking I am going to need something stronger and lighter
Rob Dog: Hmmm when did I say that would be the end?
Rob Dog: I don't make fucking predictions I just prepare for whatever comes my way
Beloved B: well since I know you will survive I will float by your house.. god says take two of everything.. I suppose I can find another crazy gun toting nut to fill your place
Rob Dog: Ive been prepared damn near 10 years,have a plan should I not be on duty at the time and that involves 3 families so far,a hell of a lot of ammo,gear,and other supplies and a "location" in the hills.
Rob Dog: nut?
Rob Dog: LMFAO
Rob Dog: shakes head
Beloved B: are you going to come rescue me?
Rob Dog: Im a nut because I have guns and like to survive?
Rob Dog: Typical liberal sterotype
Rob Dog: stereotype
Beloved B: well are you?
Rob Dog: Only if you want to be I thought you want a muslim
Beloved B: well....in my heart of hearts I would hope you would come looking for me only to find me in bed with the enemy
Beloved B: that way I can get a giggle
Rob Dog: now see
Rob Dog: again yer just trying to make me mad
Beloved B: well I am glad you realize this

12/12/2007 7:10:46 AM
Sir,

LOL.. I am not like most ladies. I have no idea about what typical ladies desire. My tastes run a little on the eccentric side. Your wealth, home, looks it means nothing to me. In fact I turn down very wealthy men, Brad Pitt look a likes, and greedy people. I find happiness in simple things and simple pleasures. In order to get a reply to me one must have some unique quality about them to get me interested and stimulate my mind. That is something very hard to do. Especially, since I spend most of my free time rearing children and reading text books. If your a viking in dented armor, I think of you as being flawed and that there is something wrong with you. I can imagine a lot of women have high hopes and want something perfect. One can hope and dream all they want having that inner self esteem about them and being humble about it says a lot.

Beloved

11/20/2007 12:37:58 AM
The search continues.. I want something deeper.. 

10/19/2007 7:59:00 PM
Dear Sir or Madam,

I am currently under consideration. I think I have found someone. We shall see where this goes...

Beloved

10/4/2007 3:16:37 PM
Forgive me collarme, I have been dreaming again.

I had a dream where I met a gentleman for the first time, and I was having tea with him. In the middle of the tea service he hands me a long beautifully wrapped box. I instantly thought it was jewelry. I slowly open the box up and discover it’s a tube of KY Jelly and an applicator. As soon as I realized what it was, I turned red and closed the box quickly. Before I could even ask what it was for, I was instructed that if I had any good sense about me I would go to the bathroom lube my ass up really well. Terrified because I did not know him, I quietly finished my tea and then excused myself to the bathroom.

This man then paid the tab and took me to his car. He was very polite. He even opened the car door for me. We then drove to the hotel where he was staying. Before he exited the car at the hotel he yanked me by my hair and instructed me that I was to quietly follow him to his room. He got out of the car opened my door let me out and I quietly followed him.

When we got to the door he opened it and then pushed me hard in to the hotel room. He pushed me so hard that I tripped and almost fell flat on my face. He then yanked me up by my hair and forced me to bend over the bed. I dare not move. I was extremely petrified. I had no idea what he was about to do. He loosened up his belt pulled his pants down and lifted up my skirt and violently thrust himself deep in to my ass. OMG did I cry out in pain!! It was the worst pain I ever felt in my entire life. It was so painful I started to cry and only when he saw that there were tears streaming down my face did he finish himself off but not before he thrust himself deeply up in to my ass one last time and deposited his load.

When he was done, he withdrew himself and sat next to me for a min to catch his breath. I kind of just laid there like a limp rag doll. He then went to the drawer and pulled out another beautifully wrapped box. At this point, I didn’t want anything to do with his “presents” but he gently coaxed me to open it up. Inside the box was a bottle of Tylenol, Motrin, hemorrhoid cream, and some stool softeners. In the back of my mind I was sarcastically thinking OH HOW ROMANTIC!!!

I quietly closed the box and said nothing. He then told me he takes care of his ladies. He then said.. you look like you need a hot relaxing bath! He then hands me another gift wrapped box!! I open this one and inside of it was some beautiful smelling lavender bubble bath a silk robe and some candles. He then takes the box out of my lap and disappears in to the Bathroom.

When he filled the tub he took my hand and took me to the bathroom. It was a big beautiful bathtub with jets. He told me to go ahead and soak myself while he makes more tea. I didn’t ask him any questions. I slipped my skirt and top off and slipped in to the hot water.  I soaked in it FOREVER… I was terrified to leave the bathroom. I didn’t want my ass taken anymore that day!! Finally he knocked on the door and said to come out!! It was only after he told me that he was not going to rape my ass anymore that I agreed to get out and dry off.

I came out of the bathroom sat down at the table and he poured me some tea. When we finished our tea he then came over to me gently took my hand and laid me down on the bed. He then gently undid my robe and caressed my body. He then told me that he only took my ass to teach me that he did have it in him to be cruel when its needed and that most times he was very gentle and thoughtful. I was also informed that I now belonged to him! I was his property… He took me one more time but only after he had made sure I was fully satisfied and shuddered under his body several times.

THEN DAMN IT I WOKE UP!!!


10/2/2007 6:56:43 AM
AHHHHHH!!!!! I think I am going crazy!! When you spend weeks reading and writing this stuff on NOTEPAD....

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9/29/2007 8:50:55 PM
Forgive Me Collarme For I have sinned.. I watch Americas Most Wanted every Saturday and masturbate and think of the wanted fugitives on the program. I know I am such a sick soul.

Collarme, I also have dreams that the Ted Kaczynski of my dreams kidnaps me and takes me away to his homeade shack out in the middle of nowhere to do nasty and naughty things.

Collarme, I forgot to mention the Ted Kaczynski of my dreams will at least have shack worth at least $75,00 with a working bathroom. I don't like pooping in bushes...

Collarme, I keep having frequent dreams that I am tied up naked outdoors next to stagnant water and left for the blood thirsty mosquitoes. After being left out there for a few hours being taken back to my shack with huge itchy welts all over my creamy white skin. Collarme I keep having dreams that he denies me any anti itch cream and ignores my tears and cries until I agree to suck him off and give him my ass only when he is done and satisfied with my sexual performance does he get the anti itch cream and then gently rubs the soothing potion on my large swollen welts...

It is only when you make me suffer that I feel safe and secure..


9/20/2007 5:04:29 PM
<sigh> You will have to wait now... I am 4 days in to the new quarter at the college.... sorry!! No kidnapping until after the quarter! 

9/19/2007 10:15:08 PM
Ahhhhhhhhh!!! Someone Kidnap me please!!!! 

9/16/2007 6:14:19 PM
Yes, I am really that pale. I have very delicate soft skin. My skin is the envy of most gothic people. My life pretty much revolves around my skin. Any outdoor activties that I like do to must be done after 3:00 pm. I can not be out in the sun longer than 10 min at a time until after 3:00 pm. I burn very easily. I am also anemic and take iorn, B, and D supplaments. This is a good quality for the right master as my skin turns very pretty shades of red, purple, blue, yellow, and green when I bruise. 

9/11/2007 7:07:27 PM

RIP Luciano Pavarotti!!!


I HATE YOU THEN I LOVE YOU (Celine Dion & Luciano Pavarotti)

I'd like to run away from you
But if I were to leave you I would die
I'd like to break the chains you put around me
And yet I'll never try

No matter what you do you drive me crazy
I'd rather be alone
But then I know my life would be so empty
As soon as you were gone

Impossible to live with you
But I could never live without you
For whatever you do / For whatever you do
I never, never, never
Want to be in love with anyone but you

You make me sad
You make me strong
You make me mad
You make me long for you / You make me long for you

You make me live
You make me die
You make me laugh
You make me cry for you / You make me cry for you

I hate you
Then I love you
Then I love you
Then I hate you
Then I love you more
For whatever you do
I never, never, never
Want to be in love with anyone but you

You treat me wrong
You treat me right
You let me be
You make me fight with you / I could never live without you

You make me high
You bring me down
You set me free
You hold me bound to you

I hate you
Then I love you
Then I love you
Then I hate you
Then I love you more / I love you more
For whatever you do / For whatever you do
I never, never, never
Want to be in love with anyone but you

I never, never, never
I never, never, never
I never, never, never
Want to be in love with anyone but you



8/13/2007 4:50:56 PM
Daily retarded email:
Sir Bruce,

Even though the thought of corrupting a handsome young devil like yourself makes my toes curl in sexual fairy tale delighment. I have to admit I think If I tried to establish a relationship with you that you would fuck this poor, fat old woman, who has already had two kids squeeze out of her poor out dated vagina half to death.

Unfortunately, these days the only men that dare approach a lady like myself are OLDER men. Most of these older men are like soda cans. You shake them up and molest them and you can feel the tension in the can begging to be opened up. Once the can is opened up, it explodes in a mountain of fizz and excitement. Then as fast as it explodes, it goes flat and tastes bland.

Beloved

7/31/2007 10:12:28 AM
Ok, since I am sitting in the Collarme Confessional booth. Forgive me Collarme for I have sinned. I am not really as fiesty in person as I seem online. I love middle eastern men. If I could find one locally I would let him beat me for all the cruel things I have said. 

7/29/2007 7:01:41 PM
Oh BOY! I hope he moves to America! I hope he brings his lamp and his genie with him. Damn he has ha hell of a job ahead of him! LMAO!!!

7/29/2007 6:55:19 PM
Daily retarded email: i wanna be a slave to u but in the chat and what u mean with cobwebs

Sir Mishas,

Well procrastinating and chatting about my open house is what has made me sex deprived. I just need to have one and I don't have a lot of money. Since your offering yourself to me as a slave I thought you would be interested in moving to America and working for Egyptian money. These cobwebs between my legs are awful no American man wants me.

Beloved


7/29/2007 6:43:00 PM
Daily retarded email for the day: hello u are very beautiful,i wish to lick the dust that under ur shoes,i wish to hear ur opinion about that please

Sir Mishas,

Lick the dust under my shoes? Do you really want my opinion? I don't have dust under my shoes. I do have cobwebs growing between my legs though. Can you come and clear that out instead? I was thinking about having an open house. Before I can have an open house, I need to mow the lawn air the hold hairy bitch out and clear the cob webs out and make sure the carpet is nice and clean and fresh smelling. Are you willing to fly all the way from Egypt to perform this service for me? What is your opinion on this?


Beloved



7/14/2007 7:35:24 PM
Daily retarded email for the day: Why yes Sir Milkman34 I have a ton of experience with lactation I am currently breast feeding my two year old daughter. There is no way this "heffer" is going to let you inspect my udders come near me and I will kick you in the head and squirt your damn eyes out!!

7/13/2007 10:03:00 PM
Sir Sky,

LOL Well good I am glad I irritated someone today. My life is just not complete unless I can annoy someone on a daily basis. Maybe I am tired of the same ole men with pathetic little wieners who have no scruples to them and value women for nothing but the shit hole between their legs. I obey only the people who capture and stimulate my mind if you can not do that then your a bore and pathetic just like your ego. So you go ahead and like the mindless fuck holes that obey you like a robot. I have to much class about me to be just a fuck hole.
Beloved

P.S Thanks for the complement.. the closest men like you ever get to me is licking the cum out of my cunt after a smarter man has fucked me. 

7/9/2007 3:38:40 PM
Well, as some of you know,I cut off all my long, pretty, natural blond hair, and I dyed it. Here is my new picture!!! 

4/25/2007 5:33:41 PM
Poor pitiful sex deprived me! I have not done the nasty in MONTHS! I have been so busy I have not even had time to think about diddling myself either! 

3/28/2007 9:20:20 PM
I put a new picture in my collection.  You all are going to have to thumb through to find it.  It's not new persay it was taken this New Years.. I am in the process of getting an updated picture.  I have been extreemly busy! 

3/28/2007 7:29:31 PM
Geeze the time flys and so do my tastes! I am on spring break!!!  Well I didn't get my 4.0 this semester.  That's okay though! After discussing my over achieving perfectionist habits my doctor advised me that maybe this semester it would be humbling to not get a 4.0.  The last 3 semesters I have managed a perfect 4.0.  So I chose to get a B in the Fitness lab.  Every semester I sign up for the Fitness lab and I was 1 visit away from an A.  I try to keep in shape.  I decided to not go the last day because I was tired I had been up and not sleeping well because of finals week.  The doctor really wants me to take things easy and to allow myself to be human instead of a super human.  I work myself sometimes to exaustion.

The thing that stung me the most this semester was the A- I got in Publisher! The minus hurt I have to be either in the Middle of an A or the top of an A I never like to be at the bottom! When taking tests I can not accept anything lower then a 95 it just bugs the crap out of me.  

9/2/2006 9:08:32 AM
Seems I am getting bored with the men these days.. Any hot ladies out there? I am not looking to join couples.. I want someone to spoil... 

8/20/2006 5:08:40 PM
Seems I am moving along well towards the goal of my dreams. I long to be an office slut bent over some hot attorneys desk someday.

Anyway, I passed my finals! I got As in both Excel and Access!

7/22/2006 12:39:38 PM
   Dinner and a Blowjob? Since I am in the collarme confessional booth.. Forgive me master for I have sinned.. I deliberately give crappy blojobs on the first date.

7/2/2006 11:18:40 AM
Poor pitiful sex deprived me... While sitting in class the other day reading, I stumbled upon a picture of Tim Berners-Lee. I thought to myself.. now how does a slut like myself find a brainy geek like that to corrupt. Then I started to wonder maybe he is corrupt already lol...

4/30/2006 3:12:42 PM
 Another confession... the thought of Hannibal Lector makes me wet

4/30/2006 11:49:36 AM
Mmmmmm I have to make a confession.  The Lifetime Channel for women turns me on.  All of thoes movies about men beating their wives! lol

4/26/2006 1:10:51 PM
It's not the size of a mans weiner that turns me on. It's his mind and his hands that I desire.

4/23/2006 5:38:27 PM
I am so mean.. my dad said that he didnt want to live in no nusring home and he said dont bother fighting with your sister over the riches because there wont be any and when I die you need to put my ashes near my favorite lake.. I hauled off and said well just make sure you provide for airfair because if you dont then I will just flush your ass down the toilet old man and you can make your way to the lake that way!

4/21/2006 3:31:30 PM
Finally recovering from my bout with pnuemonia (gawd that was nasty stuff) A little behind in school but chatching up.  Thanks for all of your well wishes..

4/15/2006 6:31:19 PM
Please don't ask me for my yahoo ID I havent been on yahoo to chat lately I am very busy and really I have no time to chat just answer my email hack up my lungs do my homework take care of my munchkin and go to bed. 

4/15/2006 4:12:33 PM
I am very sorry if I do not get back with any of you.. I have been very delerious with fever and I just basically sit up long enough to read and hack my lungs up and then go back to bed..

4/14/2006 12:47:22 PM
I have been so delerious with fever that I went to stay with MY grandparents for the night because I needed help with the baby.  In my grandparents guest room is a life like Dancing Santa that is about 4 and a half feet tall... I woke up in the middle of the night looked over and scared myself shitless.  I thought there was some old pedofile in a red suit watching me lol..

4/14/2006 11:56:03 AM
On a serious note.. sorry if I don't get back to replying.. I just got back from the doctor today I have a bad case of Walking Pnuemonia..

3/29/2006 6:23:00 PM
Hey! At least I didn't sleep with my brother... Only cuz I don't have one lol..

3/29/2006 6:21:09 PM
Sure make me feel like slutty white trash cuz my babys daddy is in prison and my mama and daddy are considered yuppy trailer trash in their 1995 Marlett Double Wide Mobile Home.. should I also mention my babys daddy is a red man? lol My baby is only half white I let a halfbreed suckle at my titty... oh my goodness lol I am such a dirty whore... are you going to spank me?

3/28/2006 9:48:40 AM
YEEEEEHAW!!! I survived finals!!! Got an A+ on my project!!! YIPEEEE!! On another note my brain is soooo tired from all of that thinking!!! Thank god for SPRING BREAK!!!

3/13/2006 1:23:28 PM

MMMM I would rather be a filthy dirty whore and get some.. then to beat off for four years drooling all over the internet at what you can't have. 


3/13/2006 12:56:06 PM

Help!! The Canadian Taliban is after me!!!


3/10/2006 2:19:40 PM

Self Respect.... hmmm some Canadian who has been celebant for 4 years had the audacity and inclination to insult me and say I had no self respect and I was crude.  Well I do have self respect.  I have enough self respect to be an honest individual weather people want to hear the truth or not.  I have enough self respect to actually wait until my wedding night to have my husband.  I might have let half the town sleep with me before I was married but I had enough self respect to want a man to love me for who I was not because I was a fun ride.  I think that says a lot about me.. sure you can beat off for 4 years and be celebant and drool all over the internet and dream about what you want but it actually means nothing if shut the world out and refuse to hear your heart.  All of those years I have been with all of those men I was actually following my heart and letting my vagina lead the way.  I might have been doing it the wrong way but my intentions were always good and honest.  Honesty means a whole hell of a lot to me and respect even self respect always comes with honesty. 


12/17/2005 9:59:12 PM

My depression is deep.  I crave pain to feel real.  I hurt so much on the inside that I just want to feel it out of my body.  It will be a year in January since my husband has left.  I do everything I can to make my life move on yet it seems to stand still.  The loneliness sets in.  In the stillness of the night and underneath the same stars my husband sleeps under I slip off my slippers and in the 15 degree weather in my thin night gown I step outside in to the snow in my bare feet.  I gasp in cold soberness as the snow wraps itself around my ankles and the cold sees itself right through my nightgown down to my bones and right in to my very soul.  I look up at the stars and I want to scream at god.  Yet the coldness of the snow and the burning of my feet prevent me from saying anything.  After a few minuets the reality and pain sets in and I go back in to my warm house and sit quietly in my chair to ponder and reflect.


12/13/2005 1:28:04 PM
If I had a song that could totally decribe how I feel deep down inside it would be Enya's Watermark..

12/13/2005 12:55:37 PM
If you are reading this and you have read Memories of My Melancholy Whores by Gabriel Garcia.. I would love to hear your thoughts on it.  It is about a 90 year old man for his birthday decides to treat himself to a fresh young virgin.  He falls in love with a young girl and discovers life and death..

12/12/2005 9:00:57 PM
I really think that men should have Caveat Emptor stamped on to their foreheads. 

12/9/2005 2:30:59 PM
I don't know what to say except I am depressed and I finally realized who my real friends are. 

11/25/2005 10:32:50 AM
 MY ASS HURTS!!! I FELL THREE TIMES OUTSIDE SHOVELING SNOW!!!

11/18/2005 9:09:43 PM
Today I asked my five month old..  Where is the kitty??? Her big brown eyes perked up and twinkled and then she looked down at my chest!! I then replied I said KITTY not TITTY!!  

11/1/2005 8:58:29 AM
"Keep me in this cage, and feed me sparingly, if you dare.  Anything that brings me closer to illness and the edge of death makes me more faithful.  It is only when you make me suffer that I feel safe and secure.  You should never have agreed to be a god for me if you were afraid to assume the duties of a god, and we all know that they are not as tender as all that. You have already seen me cry.  Now you must learn to relish my tears".

Story of O

10/7/2005 4:37:41 PM
OMG I turn 27 this month and I got out of the shower this morning.. I was drying off Ole Muffy and I looked down and I spotted and plucked out a grey hair!! Figures!! I retire the old bitch and get married and she starts to turn grey from lack of use!!

9/13/2005 12:24:20 PM
I think I have been in the house to much.. Usually the Disney Channel is on in my house 24 hours a day and I got to thinking about taking my daughter to her first Wiggles concert.. I got to thinking that if I wasn't such a cheap slut and I actually wore underwear I would be showing her how to throw her underware up on the stage!

9/8/2005 8:58:13 PM
Who ever said that breastfeeding women don't get periods is full of crap! I finally started my rag today! Yipeee at the store it was pretty obvious that I did... I had purchased Rags, Chocolate, and Tylenol lol.. Funny how nine months can change the packaging for rags and tampons and how they add these new little features to them things like dry weave, cotten like cloth braided strings comfort glide applicators.  I think I stood there for 35 minuets in the Rags isle of the store trying to decide what to buy because it was all so unfamilar to me and they changed the packages on me. 

7/19/2005 12:50:14 AM
My poor kitty cat died he was hit by a car.  The same day the doctor wanted me to have a papsmere and I was like lady my cat just died I don't feel like having a damn papsmere. 

7/5/2005 12:47:38 PM

As I sit here I think about how old fashioned mommies these days are few and far between.  This day and age it is what is convenient for your life and not what is best for your children or your family.  Babies are formula fed because moms don?t have the patience to ride things out and to trust their bodies and because of simple excuses like work and they give up and bottle feed their children.  Children are left alone in their cribs lonely and cold wanting their mommies and to dream about being snuggled and to smell their moms and to have their body heat at night time because its convenient for them to be left in a crib so they can get a decent nights sleep and so they can submit to their husbands sexual needs because they have the mind frame that sex is supposed to happen at night time when everyone is sleeping. The economy forces women to wear the pants in some households and become bread winners. People ask me how I can be submissive and live in the D/S world and have children.  It is very easy I always explain.  I am very old fashioned I believe that men wear the pants literally in the family and it?s the woman?s role to cling and to trust her husband and submit to his needs its her children?s jobs to cling to her and her job to raise them. It is the husband?s job to provide a roof over his wife and his children?s heads.  I don?t wear the pants I do what is convenient for my children and my husband.  Sex dose not happen at night time in my house dresses were made for women for a reason.  They were made for us to hike up and submit to our husbands when he can steal you away for five or 10 minuets while the children are off distracted.  Sex happens any time any where in my house 24 hours a day.  I never say no to my husband?s sexual needs ever.  This leads to many hot encounters in the laundry room the bathroom where ever. I just hike my dress up and submit to him and enjoy his savage wrath.   I believe in Attachment parenting.  My children share my bed and are free to cling to me and to get nourishment from me at their will parenting and having a family is a give and take it should not be what ever is convenient it should be what ever is healthy for your family.  My husband is never frustrated because our children share our bed and he is left in the cold sexually or mentally.  I provide for him when ever he desires me and he is free to steal me at any moment so there is no need for him to have those feelings of abandonment.  I don?t bottle feed my children or leave them in a crib alone ever.  I make all of my own baby food and I don?t even use baby wipes or disposable diapers.  It is too expensive and convenient and the rest of society feels it is necessary to spend the money.  When I need to work out of the home to provide an extra income it?s not at the expense of my family.  I choose occupations that do not interfere with feeding schedules my children or my husband?s schedule. I never pay the bills and I never know how much money we have in the bank I blindly sign my paychecks over to my husband trusting that he will provide everything and pay for everything.  I feel that society is so fixed on what is convenient that we have produced many dysfunctional people and psychopaths in the world. 


6/28/2005 8:34:24 PM
For thoes of you I have not talked to in awhile I finally had my baby June 6th 2005.  Both of us are home now and  healthy and happy  Her name is Faith MorningSong  she weighed 5lbs 1 ounce and 17 1/2 inches long born 36 weeks.  I had her naturally and the whole time I was screaming I HATE YOU LARRY!! THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!! NEXT TIME YOU WANT KIDS I AM GOING TO SLAP YOU SILLY!!!  Now I wan't 10 more of her I miss being pregnant she is so darn cute she was worth all the pain and suffering!!

Anyway If I don't get back to your emails right away it's probably cuz I have a kid glued to my boob!


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 Age: 25
 Melbourne, Florida