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To the really tall and muscular guy who looks like some kind of weight lifter with evil eyes and an evil smile and look like you have been in prison probably for killing people with your bare hands and eating them...you kind sir...DO NOT scare me. I have two children there is nothing scarier in the entire world than when your darling little angels are completly quiet. That's a whole new level of fear...what are they doing..even worse what are they planning to do.... |
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I've had a few interesting messages...here are a few things I've discovered recently....if your a dom and your wearing a skirt I do not believe we will get along and dom is not something I can call...I'd I did call you dom and your in a skirt I don't think I could keep a straight face. IF your user ID has something referring to death or graveyards and in your photo your in a cemetery and I can see tombstones...that's fucking freaky shit...I do not think we are compatible. IF you see my passion for hunting a character defect do not message me at all do not send me messages for belittling me for my passion in life...the meat I acquire I donate to surrounding families and neighbors...sometimes they depend on it to get through the winter months when work is slow...if you continue insulting me for this your body might be the next food donation I give. IF your boobs are bigger than mine...I don't think we are compatible. IF your prettier than I am...I don't think we're compatable. YOU may have a big dick...you might be a dick head but that does not maker you a dom. IF you think this is all about kinky sex and easy lays your a dork and ppl from the quote unquote sane world want nothing to do n with you so you hoping for easy girls and easy sex...well I'm not going to boost your ego for you. If your ugly that's OKAY there is so much more to a man or woman than their looks a brilliant mind is far more important and it makes you sexier....then again I just don't Luke stupid ppl so I may be partial to you. If your completly loaded and so old you have one foot In the grave...no...your money will not change that..unless of course you need medical help and not just trying to get a young.thing with your money by all means contact me helping ppl is my profession and part of me as a person. IF you a bad ass dom as your user name says you are and your profile pic is of you and all of your cats or maybe even a unicorn...we are probably not compatible. IF your user name implies a creature lIke a werewolf or vampire or demon or freak and you actually look like that creature....I don't think we are compatible. IF I sit on your lap and break your bones or suffocate you because your so skinny..defiantly not comlatable. I work in the medical field and still going to school to further my degrees...it is not a kink or a game to me it's my work and I love it because I love helping ppl...I do not want to play doctor with you I get beaten and bloodied and grabbed bitten hair pulled thrown against walls pinched kicked slapped as well as getting pissed on shit on and puked on and this is a daily thing for me...no I don't want to play when at work at least I do get paid. I'm not an object so don't ask. If you can only refer to me as bitch go away. If you want a four star chef and an extremely clean house I have ocd and add tendancies I suck at cooking and I'll probably burn the food as well as your house most likely because I'm cleaning and the ocd kicks in and it takes me hours but can't stay focused long enough and start on different jobs through the house only to make more of a mess don't worry though if I'm cooking and burn the house down your not going to see the mess I made while trying to clean. |
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So yesterday when the kids came in cut up and bleeding I cleaned them up put bandaids on them kissed away their pain. Somehow during the conversation I was told I couldn't of made thay jump. And there was a little challenge in their voice...I'm to smart to fall for that shit again....so I put my skates on...follow the kids to this pathetic ramp...until I saw it..it was a fucking obstacle course..professional skaters would have trouble...I'm like no..no fucking way I'm not doing that they lost their minds I'm not doing it...so ya know I do it...I made it through amazingly with only getting wobbly a time or two and got some really good air...however I didn't know my husband had pulled up or thst he was watching until I turned around...he wasn't happy or impressed I made that run...was a little or alot red in the face I'm sure it was from the heat raised his voice I'm sure just to make sure I could hear him and was saying some stupid stuff like I've already had enough doctor bills from four wheeler accidents and dirtbike wipe outs we don't need anymore...I think he even said something about upping my life insurance policy...but hey he got mad the last time we roller skated in the house because it was messed up and something of his may have got broken but there is no proof we did it so what was the big deal... |
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You know when your a parent you don't think anything can be more painful and turn you into a detective searching before walking into a room and you do that when your children discover Legos it's a torture you don't know how it happended but they end up in every room of the house and I. Strange places even though you look before you step it's a special kind of pain lol the time comes and they grow out of Legos and your so thankful nothing can be worse than that one....I thought I was walking through the living room cleaning and I hit something really hard like thought I broke my toe my oldest who is 11 has decided he is going to work out and he was sneaking my dumbells and hid them instead of putting them back in the workout room like I would have minded him using them I do mind now though.....and I have to stop the boys and neighborhood friends decided to skate and they stole my skates so more ppl could skate I have a very small foot and they aren't very good yet and decided it was a good idea to ramp off things. Time to play doctor three out of four are bleeding in various places... |
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I took the boys to the lake to swum over the weekend. We were the only ones there before my mom or husband came down and it was beautiful. Very peaceful. I prefer lakes and rivers to pools. My oldest who is almost as tall as me and over a hundred lbs remembered the story of me getting chased out of the water by a snake as a kid. He is also very...women can't do anything guys are better at the stage he doesent need mom except when he thinks nobody can see then he sneaks me a kiss. He is afraid of snakes though. The entire time we were there alone he literally kept his arms around my neck and his feet against the front of my thighs would not touch bottom and of course I loved it because he needed mommy to save him and we'll it's good to feel needed. So it's all quiet and I start whispering about snakes and alligators and man eating fish and bull sharks and he held on tighter trying to pretend I wasn't getting to him and then I realized....I was freaking out because I scared myself with that nonsense. I didn't let him see it and I would never admit it and I wouldn't allow myself to get out of the water but yeah I was pretty sure the lock Ness monster or something with sharp teeth was going to eat me that day...no more trying to scare people |
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I am actually looking forward to this weekend. My sister and I are taking our dirtbikes out and both of our sons are going to rude their dirtbikes as well....I think this will be fun and more than a little interesting |
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We are down to a couple of baseball games left. My 11 year old is playing and he gets a good hard hit in and...it goes foul over the fence hits the other teams coaches back window and it shattered...that guy was furious...but while standing there it did not help one little bit when gage says but mom it's okay...cause ya know..it was a ford...I busted out laughing before I could stop myself the guys face was so red and he tried talking or yelling and the only things that came out was spit |
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A nine year old boy has captured my heart and laughter yet again and I was pretty surprised I mean he had spray painted my red car with a big blue spot when I quickly ran in and grabbed something and ran back outside when he was four and all I could say was why did you do that and he simply respode well mom cause ya know I like blue better than red. And while on a bow hunting trip on the ground he asks me out of nowhere...mama...what's god look like I smiled and responded i didn't know only for silence to follow and then out of nowhere a frustrated boy says kind of not happy and confused...well what's gods momma look like then. We are driving by the large cemetery today that
Has been there forever and simply asks me if I knew how many dead people were in that cemetery and I thought wow he must think I know everything and I said I don't know and he replies...well duh mom they are all dead... |
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When someone tells you that they are bi when they forgot to mention polar |
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To the whiney little bitch who slept most of the shift saying she was sick yet again and I'm staying even longer now because I'm nice like that in a few hours you probably will need to call into work for tonight's shift because while you slept and I knew you were wanting me to cover your shift again I filled your drink full of laxatives and did it with a smile your work is terrible you are lazy and we'll maybe you will do a better job cleaning your own ass than you do the people you should be taking care of and besides my back hurts alot right now since you didn't even bother to help me tonight so I won't feel bad when your belly starts to hurt later |
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Little old 90 something year old tiny tiny tiny ladies can hit harder than a full grown 400 pound body builder...just saying crazy can so over power even the strongest of people and I am going to have a black and blue jaw and eye before very long....will somebody please remind me again why I so love this job |
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Covering midnight shifts is not helping my terrible lack of sleep pattern I'm starting to look old |
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Kinda makes you feel bad when you meet men on here who are prettier than you are... |
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Even though we ain't got money I'm so in love with ya honey and everything will bring a chain of love and in the morning when I rise bring a tear of joy to my eyes and everything's gonna be alright... |
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Can you give me this?? What if I told you it was all meant to be...would you believe me would you agree? It's almost that feeling that we've met before...so tell me that you don't think I'm crazy...When I tell you love has come here and now...A moment like this...some people wait a lifetime...for a moment like this...some people search forever for that one special kiss..Oh I can't believe it's happening to me some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this...Everything changes but beauty remains...something so tender I can't explain...Well I may be dreaming but till I awake..can we make this dream last forever..And I'll cherish all the love we share...A moment like this...some people wait a lifetime...for a moment like this..some people search forever for that one special kiss...some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this...Could this be the greatest love of all...I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall...So let me tell you this...some people wait a lifetime..for a moment like this.. |
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I would rather be someone's shot of whisky than everyone's cup of tea....just saying |
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And even though we ain't got money I'm so in love with ya honey and everything will bring a chain of love. And in the morning when I rise bring a tear of joy to my eyes and tell me everything's gonna be okay |
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Me and the kids all have our own skates. Somehow we ended up roller skating in the house and playing tag and racing and pushing each other over and none of us can stop laughing the dogs are going crazy....God we are in soooooo much trouble if we get caught and I'm a horrible liar but it's making memories right?? |
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So it happended a cpl weeks ago but I can laugh about it now so I'm going to share my story about some really humiliating bad luck even turned out to being a little expensive. I hate cops just saying. But we had a really bad bug or virus going around work. High fevers the shits vomiting coughing sore throat congestion like pretty miserable rough stuff. Bad enough that I even caught it and I have a great immune system and hardly ever get sick by catching something. But everybody was sick and tired and pulling extra hours and we were short handed well it hit me last bedcheck I couldn't stop vomiting and we were already short and everybody else was sick and working so I couldn't leave like really bad stuff we were so pathetic that it hit me when I was trying to clean shit off somebody and I had my gloved hands covered in poop up and away from me heaving in the toilet and my partner who was running fever and going to er after work she felt so bad was leaning against me holding my hair back as I threw up we were all so pathetic even patients didn't want us near them but finally made it through bedcheck and got to go home. I called in the next day but started feeling better so I called to see if they wanted me to come in and give somebody else a break they did and I felt bad but it was ok. Didn't work the next day felt find evening hit I couldn't get my fever down I was hitting 104 I double dosed on Tylenol early crawled upstairs to take a lukewarm bath because I felt like I was going to pass out but knew I had to get the fever under control I just sat in the water and hung my head over the side I as I puked in the floor I had nothing on my stomach and it was just dry heaves so not much to clean up but I was to weak to stand to get to the toilet or trashcan and I didn't want to take a. Chance of passing out while standing in a tub full of water but fever went down and made it through that night felt ok the next day had to go get my son that evening from his grandma's and I was feeling bad again and I thought I was going to puke again and I was in a hurry so I didn't make a complete stop at the stop sign obviously I was in a hurry but the state cop pulled me over anyway and it was dark and the flashing light and that's all it took I tried to tell him to move but I couldn't finish the sentence before I puked all over his shoes. All over his shoes. And then Gabe got excited and un buckled and rolled down the window and was like wow I wanna see my mom puke and we'll if it would have been the regulars that we know they would have been like u look like death go home and go to bed but new this guy was new and he was driving one of those really really shiny brand brand brand new state cop cars and we'll he wrote me a ticket for not stopping at the stop sign and kinda loudly and not very nicely told me to leave it wasn't my fault I tried to tell him to move and I made it to grandma's and I could stop getting sick and finally we were headed home and he was still sitting where we left him and I got home and laid in bed ND my phone rang and it was work and I was like oh god I don't think I can make a shift right now but I thought I'd see when or if they needed sombody because I would try if they needed me and I answered the phone and the nurse was like hi honey how are u feeling r u feeling better and I'm just like yeah yeah I'm feeling better and she's like oh realllyy..so u didn't just puke all over someone's shoes and then I heard everyone of my darling coworkers dying laughing in the background and apparently he said some not so nice things over the scanner and a coworker heard so they called work to tell them and they even called to make fun of me. And he really wrote me a ticket! I did not go in and cover any shifts that night. |
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I hate the world today. Your so good to me I know but I can't change.I tried to tell you but you look at me like maybe I'm angel underneath innocent and sweet. Yesterday I cried you must have been relieved to see the softer side.I can understand how you'd be so confused I don't even you. I'm a little bit of everything all rolled into one I'm a bitch I'm a lover um a child I'm a mother I'm a sinner I'm a saint I do not feel ashamed I'm your hell I'm your dream I'm nothing in between you know you wouldn't want it another way.So take me as I am this may mean you'll have to be a stronger man. Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous and I'm going to extremes yesterday will change and today won't mean a thing. I'm a bitch I'm a lover I'm a chilled I'm a mother I'm a sinner I'm a saint I do not feel ashamed I'm your hell I'm your dream I'm nothing in between you know you wouldn't want it any other way.Just when you think you've got me figured out the seasons already changing I think it's cool you do what you do and don't try to save me I'm a hitch I'm a lover I'm a child I'm a mother I'm a sinner im a saint I do not feel ashamed I'm your hell I'm your dream I'm nothing in between you know you wouldn't want it any other way.I'm a bitch I'm a tease I'm a goddess on my knees when you hurt when you suffer I'm your angel undercover I'm Enough I'm revived can't say I'm not alive you know I wouldn't want it any other way. Describes me so well..... |
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So if I get the money saved up in time and the passport I will get to go on my first missionary trip to Haiti this summer. How exciting I've dreamed of doing missionary work. A plane ride or two a ton of immunizations a ride down the disgusting river on a rickety boat or raft a cpl mile hike up the side of a mountain and there I'll get to work with all kinds of ppl and over four hundred orphans. We have to have personal armed guards at all times but I'm sure I can loose him quickly he will only get in my way I will be the only type of medical help there is how crazy I'm so excited hopefully I'll reach my dream of working with doctors without borders someday |
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Well shotgun season is over I took a small buck the last day. Bow season is back in though so I'm still happy. I'm starting to get tired of this site again. I don't seem to be able to find the right kind of dom that I click with and that brings out my submissive side. Most ppl are really far away. Better yet I get messages saying I'm a 20 year old master and all I can do is laugh...your not a master honey your still a baby no I don't care if you have a big dick your not experienced enough to know how to use it..I know that doesent apply to all. Better yet I get the old guys with wrinkly balls and need viagra just to get it up. Not to mention the really big ugly nasty freaky scary ones. OK rant over I guess. If the above rant doesent apply to you you can message me on kik or skype ridersarah84. However I'm not going to do more than text there and I'm not interested in sexting and getting you off. I can't chat on here or use messenger my phone won't let me. |
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Well it's the first day of second gun season. The deer didn't start moving until kinda late in the morning and I ended up seeing 12 doe. The new cold gear I bought did pretty well. I didn't really want to stop hunting quite yet but I had been out there around six hours before I realized it and I was scared dad would get worried and come looking for me if I was gone much longer so I called it a day |
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Second shotgun season starts tomorrow! Just got some new cold weather compression gear from underarmour I'm hoping they are as warm as I've read they are I posted a pic so if you have this kind of cold gear let me know what you think about it or let me know what you think is the best gear to use. I posted a pic of my new gun I got yesterday that I will use for the first time tomorrow to hunt with. I spent the day shooting and sighting it in she is dead on at 100 yards. I'm pretty excited hopefully the deer are moving. It's kinda difficult adjusting to using a scope when I've always shot open sights but I think I'm going to like it. I love the thumb hole stock! Now that I have a new gun that I love I'm wanting a new bow. I've had my eye on the bowtech eva shockey series and the bowtech carbon rose. I'm leaning toward the carbon rose because it's only 3.5 lbs and they are easier to find than the shockey series and less expensive. What is your bows of choice? Any suggestions on best bows? |
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Just got my new h and r 20 gauge bull barrel laminate stock with thumb hole single shot and scope...now me and dad have almost identical hunting guns I posted a pic I love it can't wait to hunt with it starting thursday!!!!!! |
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I've spent the entire weekend hunting. While I prefer bow hunting I still enjoy shotgun season which started Friday and ended sunday. I went hunting nonstop. I also froze. But Saturday the massive ten pointer that I've spotted three times now came in hard and fast chasing a doe and I had to take my chances and shoot sadly I missed. Sunday I did get a doe. So now I'm ready for second season and maybe I will meet that buck again but I would really like to get him with my bow |
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What a rough night. I normally have a strong stomach. Tonight just wasn't one of those night. I went to clean a person with bm and the smell hit me and I just threw up. So I got my partner to help me and I tried my hardest but I couldn't hold it in and started throwing up again. My partner can't handle vomit or anything to do with it I already had the trashcan so she puked in the floor. All the while in between throwing up I would continue to clean the man. Another nurse came in to see what was going on and I screamed at her to get out because I know she can't handle vomit and I told her I wasn't cleaning up hers to. It was so bad and I couldn't stop throwing up I made a deal with my partner to finish cleaning him and I would clean up her vomit. I puked so hard so much I peed my pants and we were already short handed so I couldn't leave thankfully somebody brought me some clothes. Talk about a rough night. We were a pathetic group tonight😷😷😷😷 |
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I went on a date lastnight something I have not done in a long time. He was so cute and very smart halarious I laughed so much. We went out to dinner and he told me all about his day and he very seriously wanted to know about my day and whay I did. He held my hand and hugged me and told me he loved. He has me completly wrapped around his fingers and holds one of the keys to my heart. He is 9 and I proudly call him my son. |
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So may recent journal entries have become very popular for some weird reason. I really didn't think people read them. I decided to use the journal here to let off steam and it kinda felt like I was able to talk to somebody about things I've kept secret. Lately I've been really stressed the past couple of weeks. It's been one thing after another. You read about some things thay were or are kinda hard for me in life at times. It's life we all go through rough times. There is the dark side of me who is jaded and don't trust ppl. However my life is not bad or unbearable. I have everything I need. I have two kids who are my world. I love my job. My marriage well sometimes you have to keep doing things you don't want to do anymore in order to n make sure your kids are happy and have the kind of life you want them to have. Your only looking at the rough things I vented about on here. Your not seeing an even bigger part of me. The one who smiles often and loves taking care of people who is always looking and finding the positive in every situation the person people have somehow decided to share their secrets and troubles with wanting help and advice and a shoulder to cry on the person they have come to depend on to take charge and straighten things out and how we can manage to work through our shifts being so understaffed the person who is always joking and makimg you smile who gets easily excited over the littlest things. There is always good as well as bad. These post are usually a way for me to vent a typenof n therapy. So if I post one thay seems rough don't read to much into it. |
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I have a secret. I've never told a sole. I live in a small town where everyone knows everyone and ppl are cruel and judgemental and love to gossip and talk down or make ppl lives harder in order to make themselves feel better about there own pathetic lives. So no I could never tell. I would be labeled crazy and judged and become an outcast and they would judge my family. I have so many secrets thay I have to keep. But I'm hunting rigjt now. And it occured to me I can tell it here. Nobody Knows ME Few Will Know Whay I Look Like Where I'm FROM OR Will Ever Know ME OR Meet me. In writing it in my journal it almost feels like I'm having an actual conversation with someone almost. It does not matter if I'm judged here or not believed. I'm not telling an individual this I'm just telling. I'm not asking anyone to believe because I wouldn't believe if someone told me and I'm a realist I think everything has to have a reason an explanation proof. I believe in guardian angels and miracles they have no proof do they ahhh but that's just it in telling ourselves it was god or an angel or a miracle are we not giving ourselves an explanation maybe not a good one to some and one we cannot prove but is it still not giving a reason and explanation to something we cannot explain. So I discovered some time ago that I am an empath. Go ahead and laugh. It's caused me more problems than anything good. I rejected the idea for a long time because there was no proof or reason or explanation for a person to really be this way come on its something you read in a make believe story. After time I just accepted it and kept it secret. Well I started hunting when I was a child andbimmidiately loved it. It's a passion of mine. There is a reason now that I also love it. The first time I experienced it I was in my early teens still hunting with my dad of course. After every hunt at the end of the day all hunters gathered around and told of their success and failure. Of course I was the only female. And young at that but they accepted me and I joined in on the discussions as well. We went out to the stand as usual but something was different that day.i felt it as we were walking to the stand. We got in the stand and it kept getting stronger. I was unbelievably excited and I could feel tension around me and it was all so strong I could almost hear a buzzing sound. I couldn't keep still. My body had become flushed and not from the cold. My body had become extremely sensitive and the clothing just touching my nipples almost hurt. Dad finally got aggravated and told me to keep still what was wrong with me I was a good hunter. I was young and had never felt full arousal before. I was moving so much to cause friction or pressure against my aching pussy teying to find some kind of relief. Unconsciously of course. Why was this trip so different and affecting me this way. The day ended and we all gathered around to discuss our trips. I was so excited and was telling them how I felt I knew what it was I had felt what they called the hunters high. They listened and laughed and thought the girly side of me was starting to come out. I didn't understand didn't they feel it to I'd heard them talk about hunters high. And I had learned thay day thay the deer were in full rut. The empath part of me allowed me to feel it. And it's amazing. Magical. Obviously I didn't figure this out for quite some time. I can't wait for the rut to start now. Someday when I have land of my own I will have the perfect stand and privacy if I'm lucky a partner who accepts me even if he doesent believe me and I can experience it with someone. But I will go to thay stand and undress I won't feel the cold I will be part of nature one with the woods. And I will let it take over and consume me we will experience the rut with them and it will be skin on skin pure raw rough sensual hours of fucking. I will experience it completly. |
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So I agreed to come in and cover another shift and um pulling 16 hr shifts when I'm not in school and I really didn't want to but we are short on help and we are all getting wore out so I agreed to. My partner wouldn't help much. And I was taking care of one patient and they peed all down the side of my pants and I went to the next one and she puked all down the front of my top. I had no spare scrubs on me and smelled really bad and then they tried talkimg me into staying till 3 am. I would have but with my schedule tomorrow I couldn't and I can still say I love whay I do whay is wrong with me |
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Why yes I think I will go hunting today. But I will have to limit my time today on the way to the stand I noticed part of the fence is down so since I don't know dads work schedule or days off and I want him to get plenty of rest when he can so I will just fix the fence before I leave tonight and I'll just keep it my little secret so he doesent feel like he is lacking in responsibilities and he can't complain about me trying to coddle him to much. A win win situation I completly get my way without hearing any complaining |
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And my terrible luck just continues on. Time for some alone time in the woods. No people no phones just me and nature where I belong time to clear my head relax and accept things and go with the flow. I may have been knocked down several times this week but I don't stay down and it time to get back up and push forward. I think now is a good time to resight my bow in. Then start hitting the woods in the morning and evening. I have a massive ten pointer thay has been marking the territory and I literally watched him making scrapes which was the first time I ever saw thay in person and it was really fascinating and cool to watch of course it would have been a whole lot better if he would have came into my shooting range. But I've seen him twice now and with the n cold weather kicking in they are going to be moving nonstop. I love huntimg!! |
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Wow. Someone must have put a curse on me. This has been the most unlucky full of drama back to back 16 hour shifts and one continuous horrible thing after another that was even worse than the one before happended nonstop all this week. Then I finally get to hunt and relax a little and the most unimaginable craziest thing happended to me I knew nobody could see or hear me so I just sat down on the ground and cried like a baby. And didn't even feel bad for crying.how can so many horrible stressful painful scary things can go wrong |
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I did not know a dislocated shoulder could hurt so much. I plan on hunting in the morning but I don't even know if i am capable of pulling my bow back at this point😢 |
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A nice bud light and fiddlers. Would be great if I wasn't in so much pain from a dislocated shoulder. |
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Well I have a minimum of a 13 hour shift tomorrow and it's not as cold as I would like it to be but I'm thinking about hunting in the morning anyway. Maybe thay monster buck is still running the area. Although I've yet to get my first bow kill so I'm not picky over whay I get |
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Hey mister I really like your daughter. When I'm horny like thirst she's a bottle of water hey mister I really like your daughter your daughters a freak your daughters a pro I hope I never have a daughter I hope I never have a daughter it not she's a tramp it's not she's not pure she just likes getting her fuck on and it's a good one of that I'm sure |
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You ain't gotta say to much from the look in your eyes I can tell you wanna fuck and you ain't gotta call me your boo just as bad as you wanna fuck I wanna fuck too. On The Counter IN The Kitchen Come Up By ME With Some Ice Cream Lick FROM Head To Toe bending me over AND 69 Will Be The Next Thing I Wanna Taste Your Body All Night Long FROM Sun Up To Sun Down I Wanna Make YOU mine. And it's all very pleasurable I'll go places he won't go. I'll do my oral exercises right between your thighs and it's all very pleasurable. |
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Watch me whip watch me nae nae watch me whip whip now watch me nae nae. Watch me yule now watch me super man watch me yule now watch me super man. Watch me bop bop bop. Now watch me bop bop bop. Now watch me duff duff duff now watch me duff duff. |
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I was correct about the cold spell. The deer were moving like crazy. I saw massive ten pointer the biggest I have ever seen come through and make scrapes along the way. First time I've ever seen that. The rut has not started there were two other small bucks right in the same area and numerous does. They were coming from all directions almost constantly all morning. My bow malfunctioned with the peep sight and I was in the position to shoot or let it walk.ni decided to shoot off the pin which I should have shot off the arrow and missed. He stayed in the area so I grabbed another arrow but the peep sight would not line out. I was so utterly frustrated. I ended up leaving the stand and was able to fix it and go back but it was already late in the morning and they had stopped moving and I'm sure my movement put a stop to any lucky stragglers I might have come across. I ended up staying in the stand for more than six hours. I need to go have more arrows cut to fit me and get some more broadheads and you know how expensive they are. But it must be done. |
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The temperature has dropped and I can already feel the excitement of hunting in the morning. The deer will really be moving with this cold spell. I can't wait. I even had a man call me a few minutes ago and ask me if I would take him hunting with me in the morning. All I could do was laugh. Like I will let anyone know where my trees and is. And I prefer hunting alone. And I have not got my first kill in with a bow yet and I don't trust someone not to be quiet enough or sit still enough or talk to much or not want to stay and hunt as long as I decide to hunt. Maybe after I get my first deer with a bow I will take those who have been asking to a second tree stand I have but this stand will remain my little secret. My own private little paradise. Well of course my dad knows where I am but nobody else. Can't wait till morning. This time I though ahead though and called my dad and told him I didn't know how long I would be out there. I don't want them sending out another search party. Oh and I had lab today and got to disect. A sheep brain. Next week an eyeball how cool is that!!! |
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How do you accept something that you don't want to be. How do you change your mindset into accepting what you are and embrace it and turn it into a useful tool. I don't want to be submissive and live a very dominate vanilla life because my life requires that from job to school to kids. I hide and deny my submissive side how do I accept it and embrace it and learn to love it instead of constantly fight it. And my career school and kids force me to be dominate and in control which is okay. But my husband is not much into domination and submission. How can I find an acceptable balance like that. |
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No man is worth your tears and the one who is will never make you cry. If that's the case why am I still fighting back tears. |
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Well there was no movement whatsoever I kept telling myself just a few more minutes and the time flew by and I didn't even realize I'd been out there for over four hours. As I was coming out of the woods I ran into dad as they were coming to search for me. I feel terrible for making them worry. I really didn't realize I'd been out there that long. I would think they know I'm perfectly capable of handling myself out there. I would never make them worry on purpose. |
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I got the chance to go hunting again today so I obviously took. I really didn't think it would be a good day to go because it's not cold enough and they aren't moving and so far I have been right. But I can still enjoy some alone time in the woods. Friday morning is when I really need to n go the temp is going to really drop and I say they will be moving then. But I just couldn't pass up the chance to get some hunting time in |
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Well it went away for a little while but the depression is coming back. I'm loosing interest in things I used to enjoy and isolating myself from ppl again so if I don't get on the site for awhile you know why. I went hunting this morning in the rain saw one no shot. Dropped my bow for the second time and one of the dogs ended up following so I gave up and went home only to get to the electric fence go under it and raise up to soon and got the living shit shocked out of me what the hell is he trying to keep in therr a t Rex he doesent need that kind of voltage they are just horses needless to say I said a few choice words under my breath and it was one of my worst hunting trips ever the good news is that the several hundreds of dollars I spent on hunting clothes and gear really are water proof |
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Well I survived the boys birthday slumber party of 13 boys spending the night. I was nervous about it but it turned out to be perfect. We had pizza and ice cream cake and watched scary movies. They were well behaved for the most part and I don't think it could have went any better. My kids are two years apart almost to the day they were born a day apart and both due on halloween. But I survived. Now clean up time and then I believe I will change things up and go hunting this evening so I can clear my head and get some much needed alone time. |
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Well I thought I found a daddy who was perfect in every way for me. I quickly developed feelings for him online. I should have controlled myself better and kept my emotions in check. The feelings are not returned. I let myself get lost in a fantasy world and I knew better. I let hidden childhood dreams come out and started believing in fairy tales but we all know those are myths. Reality set in and I can feel my walls going back up stronger than ever. It is what it is though. Like the rest of my reality world I will put on a brave face and keep moving forward knowing not to let the same mistakes happen twice. Maybe it's time to take a break from this escape world for awhile and force myself to live in reality. What's the point in pretending for a few days that in this make believe world that there is hope and love and compassion and control and dominates and partners only to have to step back into cold reality after all are you not constantly setting yourself up for disappointment everytime you leave here to go back to the real world you live in. Why keep setting yourself up for that disappointment why not end it and just face reality and what life it is you must live. There are no long lost love stories anymore they are a myth that we all secretly hopes might still exist and crushing a piece of us as time after time the ugly truth reveals it's self and it is just a game and there is no such thing as being in love or falling in love or a fairy tale ending. Why not just remain a realist suck it up and deal with the life we have. At least then we can't be let down by childish dreams that don't exist at least then we can conform ourselves to the life we have to live and maybe come to some kind of understanding of something that could give us b pleasure or something to do as each dreary day turns into the next. Sometimes it really sucks being an empath. I need to build stronger walls. |
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Well things have been rather quiet on here the past few days. Kinda boring. I went hunting Saturday morning and within an hour and a half saw eleven. I got to pull back once and didn't have a clear shot and actually got to shoot later even though I missed the shot I thought I nailed it was absolutely amazing. I can't even explain the amount of excitement and adrenaline I felt. Then I went yesterday morning and saw a nice eight pointer but it was to far away and moving to fast. Then before I left I dropped my bow from the top of the stand. Thankfully it was not hurt but I'll have to resight it back in after that. I came out of the woods and dad had a nice hot cup of coffee waiting on me and I helped him tend the horses and we got some much needed time to catch up and just hang out. All in all it turned out to be great. Hopefully we will get hit with another cold spell soon and the deer will be really moving like they were saturday. I can hope. |
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I got a late start but could not sleep so I am in the tree stand rigjt now! Therr is no better feeling in the world. This is where I belong. Good cold frost so the deer should be moving how the hell do I even have service!! |
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The weather is suppose to drop tonigjt and tomorrow morning the deer should be moving so I think I will take the chance and do some bow hunting in the morning. I can't wait for alone time in the woods. I have a few things that I find I need to repeat. I'm 31 I am married and do have kids. Yes he knows I am on this site. I'm looking for conversation and friends and maybe discreet online play. I have no real experience. My career and school and family keeps me in a state of constantly in control. I have never given up control before. My ultimate fantasy is the rape fantasy scenario. Maybe because in that case I truly have no control. I hate my body and all I see is fat and ugly where there used to be young and beautiful. I do have pics that I will occasionally exchange. My kik I'd is ridersarah84. I'm looking for a female play partner for myself or to share with my husband. Oh and I'm on here with my phone so I can't chat on here or load pics on here my phone won't let me. I have to use email or kik. Also I wotk every weekend 8 to 16 hour shifts usually being sixteen hours. I go to school during the week going for my rn first and then further. When not doing that I am a full time mom. I should explain something else since some replys I've gotten. I know it's corny but I want the rape to end in a love story. Yes corny. Yes I know it only happends in fairy tales and I no longer believe in those but it's my fantasy world. Nobody has ever seen my submissive side in real life. I trust none. It is my little secret from the world. With the world I live in and what seems to be a rocky marriage that I have this is my little world to escape in. I can dream and fantasize and have conversations and ease some of my lonliness. |
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Okay there is a big difference in a dom or master and someone who is just an ass...just saying |
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Well I do not feel confident about the exam I took yesterday at all. Hopefully I will do alot better today. Chemistry sucks it is like a foreign language to me and I have met very few ppl who can help me with this subject. Hopefully I will do well today and then a nice four day break from school even though it means very long shifts at work |
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Okay...so I received some hate mail...if you don't like my profile or journals or don't agree with things I like to do like hunting then keep going..I don't judge others by what they like and what they do who are you to judge me...and I'm careful one shot one kill I out them out of their misery as quickly as possible.. if I'm unsure of the shot or have a moments doubt if I will make the kill shot I don't take it. Furthermore the meat is divided up among families and now it can be donated to help feed the poor so nothing goes to waste. I work in a world where I have prepared more dead bodies for the morgue than I can count anymore. I've had people die in my arms because they had no family or nobody to be their for them or care for them some I've even told it was okay that they could go on now and they did. Therr are far worse things in this world than death. |
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Well I have not had time to look at the new horse yet.the sixteen hour shifts on weekends and school through the week are taking its toll. I did take the chance to get outside for awhile today and shoot my bow. It is very calming and you are so focused it is a good way to escape plus it's bow season here and it never hurts to practice. Therr is nothing better than being out in the woods early in the morning and listening to every sound every noise. Watching listening waiting and then out of nowhere or out of the corner of your eye you spot movement and you freeze and watch and listen and your shaking slightly and your heart is pounding and you wonder if the deer can hear it as well the anticipation the adrenaline rush it's amazing you feel so alive...after all that I think I will go this evening and in the morning we do have to make time for fun as well as work don't we...yes I think I've talked myself into it lol just talking about hell it's better than an orgasm |
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Going to go look at a new horse this week how exciting. Bow season has started and I am craving that time alone in the woods to hunt. I belong in the woods. I am off to work now hopefully only eight hour shifts but they often turn into sixteen hour shifts. I work weekends and go to school during the week. |
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Ive been on and off this site for quite a while. It seems however that this place doesent seem to be what it used to be. i'm lonely and looking for someone to talk with and get to know |
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Still looking for a play partner for my husband or for both of us or for just me. |
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I'm bored and lonely and looking for someone who is smart and can carry on a conversation. |
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I think I need to post on here that I am married. I am currently looking for a play partner for just myself or for me and my husband or just for my husband. If you are interested please send me a message. I am always looking for friends and learning more about the life style. So if your yp for friends and chatting send me an email |
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I am currently interested in meeting various types of females. Become friends. Share our kinks and what we are looking for. Maybe even some play time if we hit things off |
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i sat in His office waiting. i wore a simple sundress and a cute pair of lacy panties. something is not quite right...i feel the tension building in my shoulders. finally He comes through the door. i suck in my breath and close my eyes...i sense..disappointment...anger..no not anger...pure hot seething rage..my eyes pop open and i look at Him. i need to help him..calm his emotions ..allow him to focus on His problems not the emotions they provoke. i stand and walk to Him with a small smile i reach out my hand to Him. i see Him hesitate at first..obviously in no mood for games..he takes my hand and follows. He trusts me enough to know i am thinking of Him. we stop at the truck and he raises an eyebrow at me as i climb into the drivers seat. shaking His head he climbs in. i smile to myself already the tension and anger are leaving His body. i drive to a remote location out on the back roads as the rain starts coming down...He has allowed his anger to return..i feel it...i stop the truck...turn up the music..He glares at me and i give Him my best smile to reassure Him. dena carter was playing..and we danced anyway...i began dancing around Him and singing to the music..laughter escaped me as i grabbed His hand and had Him singing and dancing in the rain with me...so unlike Him..i heard his laughter as the song came to an end. we stoppe...starring at each other..i slowly slid my dress from my shoulders letting it fall to the ground...the rain kept coming as i faced the truck..hands on the hood...legs wide..offering myself to him. i felt His breath on my neck as he warned me not to make a sound as He ripped my panties and discarded them. i closed my eyes as i heard Him taking off His belt. i didnt have time to give into the fear building in me as i felt the first strike bite into my skin...i squeezed my eyes close and bit hard into my lip tasting blood...by the 5th strike tears were sliding down my face..but not one sound passed my lips..suddenly i was spun around..pressed into the truck He lifted me prying my legs apart ...without pretense he slammed into...i screamed..my pussy was on fire like he was tearing me in half..i started pushing on His shoulders begging Him to take it out..it hurts..Your hurting me...He held Himself still as He lowered.His mouth to mine..i turned my head but he followed kissing me over and over..until i began responding back..wanting ...needing more of Him. He pulled out slowly and slammed back into me...this time my scream was one of pure pleasure. i held onto him as He fucked me furiously...i was begging...pleading.to cum....please....You growl for me to cum on Your cock. i scream as my pussy clamps down on Your cock..milking You bring You with me as i go...all of Your earlier emotions drain from You as You empty into me. You look down at me. pleased, my eyes are closed and im exhausted. the rain has stopped. You lift me easily and set me in the truck beside You. my head resting in Your lap sound asleep. You kiss me on the head as You cover me with Your jacket. we head for home exhausted happy and content. what were You so upset about? who knows. You would deal with it tomorrow...calm and level headed. |
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