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More Updates! So I have my own place now and I don't plan on moving anytime soon. In order to even get me to consider relocating, I would have to trust you. I would have to know, without a doubt, that I can't get kicked out for any reason other then I stop paying my rent. So no you can't convince me to pack up and move just because you are dominant and I am a submissive. Another thing I want to point out is people keep asking me what I want in a dominant. Well, what I want is someone who's understanding and kind and patient and who believes the same things I do in this lifestyle, which is that in a normal setting, a pet is gotten to keep the owner happy. However, it is that owner's responsibility to take care of that pet. The same is true in the lifestyle. The only difference is that the pet in a BDSM relationship is able to take care of him/herself as well or they give up on taking care of themselves to take care of their owner. Another belief that must be shared is the fact that in a healthy BDSM relationship, the submissive has more power. This is only because the submissive has the power to say stop through a safe word or that very word itself. If the dominant does not stop once that safe word is given, then the relationship becomes abusive.
Another update. So I've learned that people don't like how honest I am about my feelings. I've also learned that I push things too fast due to my past. I'm in pain almost constantly and no one wants to deal with me. So I'm going to end up alone and that's how I see it. Thank you for at least reading my profile, but I have a sneaking suspicion that you won't talk to me after about a week.
Time to Update again! No, I am not a money submissive. I have enough trouble scraping by with my own bills and rent without having to pay someone to want to spend time with me. I am looking for long term friends or something deeper in romance. I don't want to be someone's fuck buddy, nor am I going to just out-right submit to you. Submission is a thing of trust and I need to know that you won't abuse that trust. And finally, just because I was born XY doesn't mean I'm not a real woman! The people who consider trans women as not real are the fake ones. They are idiots, bigots and jerks and I will not associate myself with them. I will have my surgery as soon as I am able but you should like me for me, not just my body.
Update! If one more damn person refers to me as anything but a girl, I swear to god, I will change my gender on my profile -_-. I'm sick of being treated like a male or an inbetween freak. I feel that bad enough as it is and I don't need it from some inconsiderate, not understanding ass. Thank you!
A pet is taken in for the owner's happiness and entertainment, but it is the owner's responsibility to take care of and protect and keep that pet happy. In return for all that, the pet gives their owner complete and total trust.
Um there's a lot to say about me I guess. I want friends and to learn more of the lifestyle. I recently read a comic on deviantart and I found out 'wow, i'm the submissive in this comic' and I desperately wish to find something like that somewhere. I don't think I will but I'm willing to try. What would you like to know of me? I'll happily tell you anything you wish to know.
Okay, huge thing I need to point out. If it's in the curious section, then it means I either don't know what it is, or I wish to try it. Ask me about it first to find out which it is. The rest are pretty straight forward but go ahead and ask me about those too.
You want to know a few things about me? Alright. I'm a woman, don't call me male or hint that I may be male in anyway or else this conversation and anything you could've had with me, ends. Next, I'm a video gamer to the extreme. The fastest way to my heart is either through video games or helping with my transition. I'm a writer and have only finished one story. It was a short story but I'm working on several longer books. I also love to sing and write song lyrics. If I had the money, I would build desktop computers as that's another passion of mine.
What am I looking for? I'm not entirely sure. I want to learn more. I want to try and find SOMETHING that feels good and right to me. So far with the few things I've tried, nothing has felt right. A few things have felt good, but they still didn't feel right. I've been called a true submissive before, but I honestly don't know what that means or what that entails. What else do you want to know?
I have a few disabilities. They are mental disabilities and they aren't that bad, but they do take a toll on me and they need to be understood. If you want to know what they are, please ask me. They are not essential to being apart of my life.
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I finished the prologue for my novel. I'm hoping I can actually finish this one. I don't know. I'm not good at keeping a diary and that's what a journal is. I don't care what guys call it, it's a diary. Unless someone can talk to me and tell me the difference between a Diary and a Journal besides gender, I think I'll keep calling them Diaries.
Kinda off topic. What is the topic of purpose of a Diary? I don't know and nor does it matter. There are things I can't type mostly because I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings or my thoughts to be misconstrued. Why do people say it's therapeutic to get your thoughts down on paper? It's only therapeutic for me when I get feed back. I suppose another question could be asked along those lines. Why am I writing this now? I started this just to post that I finished my prologue but then I kept writing.
I wish I had a longer attention span. Maybe then some of my books would be done. Maybe not though. I'm really upset at myself because of my loss of interest in gaming. It's scary when something that I hold so dear suddenly means next to nothing to me. At least I still have my writing. I don't know if this has helped any but...
Oh that's an update. My doctor is taking me off my hormones and I'm super angry about it. My depression is going to get so much worse when I'm off the hormones. It's really stupid. I mean, in order to get my GRS (Gender reassignment Surgery), I need to be on the hormones, but in order to get the hormones, the doctor wants me to have gone through my GRS. It's an endless cycle of stupidity. And the money needed for that damn surgery, if I save up two thousand dollars a month, it would take fourteen years to get what I need. And I'm only save up two hundred twenty a month due to how little I'm getting.
It seems and feels like an impossible goal especially when so many are making it harder. I'm a woman...The only people who need to know that I'm trans ever are my significant other(s) and my family and my Master/Mistress. It pisses me off that so many see me and are all for it, then they learn I'm trans and they ditch as quick as they can...I don't know. That's all I've got tonight. |
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| Age: 27 |
| Dipolog city,
Philippines |
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