I need to submit. It's really that simple. But nothing is ever that simple, is it?
I've been drawn to this lifestyle since before I was sexually active. It's been hard for me to reconcile as a strong, independent, feminist woman. I absolutely resent a man who feels that a woman has her place. But there are times when I want nothing more than to feel powerless under his control. I've tried to deny it but it seems to be one of the few constants in my life.
For years, I've been hoping to meet a great man the traditional way who will surprise me behind closed doors and take me over his knee and force me to do things. Alas, it hasn't happened.
So I'm here, looking for a man who will respect my worth as a woman with every ounce of his being while simultaneously using and abusing me in the bedroom. I'm not exactly new to the lifestyle but not all that experienced either.
I realize I've been a bit ambiguous. I'm not interested in the pomp and circumstance that accompanies the "lifestyle." For me, it's very much about sex and my sexual pleasure. Perhaps that means I'm not submissive. But I'm certainly not dominant and vanilla doesn't work for me either.
I'm a very down to earth, confident, open, and honest woman. My spirituality and spiritual growth are important to me, as is a healthy body and mind.
