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**Contents subject to changeupdate**
Hello, and thank you kindly for the look.
My friends call me Bram. If you arent big on protocol, youre welcome to do so as well. If you enjoy the ality of protocol, you may use Sir or Mlord. Im not your Master, Owner or Daddy (yet, potentially), so those titles wont be appropriate.
To be honest, Im a geek, and I fit many of the stereotypes. Im in a specialized tech support field, Im into video games and Sci-fiFantasy fandom. I play tabletop role-playing games, and used to LARP as well. I was a drama club member in high school, a regular of the goth clubs for years after graduation. I worked seasonally in the haunted house industry and on the Renaissance faire circuit for close to a decade. I went to school to be a funeral director, but ended up leaving about half-way through my college career due to finances.
I smoke (cigarettes and the occasional pipe) and I drink (my preference is rum, but I like to try new pleasures). Im on a very strict diet, meaning that I will only eat things that are A) tasty, and B) pleasant to put in my mouth. Life without some vice isnt worth living, and its too short to suffer through an unworthy meal. I hate to cook but I love to grill (Ill make exceptions I make an epic meatloaf). Im a meat-and-potatoes guy, but I enjoy a fresh chef salad in the summer. I believe pasta serves primarily as a vehicle to transport sauce to my mouth. I believe a proper meal includes bread of some (rolls, table bread, etc.). Ive eaten everywhere from shady barbeque joints and crab shacks to the Michelin star-rated white tablecloth set.
I live in a big old Victorian house with a pair of reasonably-big dogs. Taking care of these elements of my life, along with having to travel for work, gets me out-and-about to an extent, but Im not overly health- conscious. I take a walk to enjoy it with my dogs, to savor a pleasant day (even if my idea of pleasant is overcast and coat-worthy), not specifically for the exercise. I dont mow my lawn as long as I have money to pay others to do it for me, but I dont mind getting dirty and making sure my tomatoes and other garden herbs and vegetables turn out OK.
I dont believe in Zodiac signs, but if it helps you, I am a Taurus, and I do identify with some of their core traits Im extremely stubborn, and I naturally seek out and enjoy comfortable situations, settings, and so on. While Im on the subject, Im not particularly religious, although I am very personally spiritual. I believe in the divinity of nature (non-capitalized, non-personified), though not in a tree-hugging hippie kind of way (nature is big enough and powerful enough to endure anything we as a race may throw at it we just might not be strong enough to handle the consequences of natures response). I believe modern religion evolved as a means to control people, and to serve as a very basic of proto-science, trying to explain how the universe works the way you might tell a child why they have to go to bed or eat their vegetables or not be mean to other people. I might say God damn it when I stub my toe, but thats more a function of upbringing and habit than actual belief. I have more to say on this subject, but this is the sales brochure version of me, not the operating manual.
Socially, Id say Im more introverted than extroverted. Or, more to the point, my history with people has left me quiet and observant, slow to open up to new people. Once I know you better, though, I become more relaxed and engaging. That said, Im prone to needing periods of hermitage after dealing with other people, just to stay sane. While were on the subject of social interaction, Ill mention that Im politically-balanced, leaning towards apolitical (I care about causes, but most of my solutions tend to involve radically changing the nature of government), that I dont believe in the concept of race (its a lie, humans are humans everything else is like species-preference in other animals), and that Im supportive of non-binary sexual identities (Im bisexual myself, and frankly think that being openly involved with BDSM and its offshoots constitutes an alternate sexual identity socially-equivalent to being gaybinon-genderedetc. Dont believe me? Try telling your button-down normie co-workers that just because youre a sadist doesnt mean youre going to try to kidnap and torture them, or explode in a flurry of self- pleasure when they get a papercut.).
Since I mentioned it, Ill clarify it a bit more. I am a sadist, and all that implies. That said, Im not moved by casual injury or suffering, and really not interested in the misery or pain of strangers. Along those lines, any moron can inflict harm, and any half-wit can throw a punch or swing a whip. That doesnt impress me at all. What impresses me is being able to seduce, charm, romance, sway or otherwise cause another person to want to endure pain and humiliation, and indeed to inspire that other person to want to impress and engender pride by taking more and more, even when their mind and body may protest. What thrills me is making a person want to do whatever they can, and several things they didnt think they could, in order to bring pleasure to their partner. Im far more into the psychology of it, the internal struggle with will, desire, and need against degradation, torment and pain than I am seeing bruises and tasting tears. Its not about whether I can hold you down, rip your clothes off and have my way with you its about whether you want to please me so much that youll spend hours doing your hair and makeup, choosing the right outfit, putting on perfume and lotion and all the trappings of luxuriant pampering specifically so that it can be ruined and destroyed, so that you can be brought to tears and sweat and rags, because you feel like you need to do so for me, and because youve found that that gives you life, strength, purpose, and joy.
With that in mind, Ill say that I dont have any particular default existence or pleasure in mind. I prefer the dynamics be fluid Masterslave one moment, Daddydaughter the next. Ownerpet. Mad scientistexperimental subject. Rapistvictim. Inquisitorheretic. Emperorconcubine. Steampunk adventurercharming lady companion. Johnwhore. Photographerfetish model. Elitisttrophy bimbo. Artistbound latex doll sculpture. These are set pieces, individual pleasures to be enjoyed, and the props and roles to be shifted by whim and desire. And these barely scratch the surface. In the right context, I can see the sexualfetishistic appeal of nearly anything. You cant shock or surprise me, and the worst I can say is no. Bearing in mind that my key desire is a companion, someone who compliments and completes me, finding out what that means together sounds exquisite.
Still with me? Grand. If any of this intrigues you and you feel like you might have something to add, if there are things youd like further clarified, or if you just want to talk, youre cordially invited to respond. Id like to see where this can go, and I am quite capable of taking it as far as is possible.
Life begins and ends alone what do you want to do in the meantime?
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Any damn fool can slap a collar and some cuffs on another person and hit them. It takes talent, will, intellect and charm to make them offer to wear such things on their own and need to be hurt.
Nothing worth having is easy.
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Does it make even the least bit of sense to punish someone by rewarding them? For goodness sake, if you like corporal treatment, don't act in a way that's contrary to your training and then expect me to reward you for doing so. Rather, strive to earn the reward you want by doing what you've been trained to do.
My potential companion should know that just because I am a sadist doesn't mean that I want to punish them; it means I enjoy hurting them. I care enough about them to want to reward them with something they enjoy, and I am hurt when they fail me in whatever way. Why would I reward that? I would promise the interested ingenue that I would reward her with what she desires as long as she expresses that desire to me, and that I am a creative enough person to find a way to punish her as, and only as, necessary.
Perhaps I'm just old-fashioned.
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On Interests--
I list a lot of interests and experience on my profile, so I frequently get asked what it is exactly I am looking for. Some people try to embrace every concept or wicked intention on the list, and some balk and run based on one or two elements therein. So perhaps greater clarification is necessary.
Many things in my interest list are genuinely things that I am interested in. But there are some few elements that are listed simply on basis of potential, things that I know that I wouldn't mind doing in the future, or things that I have done in the past and don't mind repeating. A small few are things that I haven't done, but am open to the experience of doing.
I'm a fairly intelligent and imaginative person. I can see the potential appeal of just about any act listed, and several that aren't. That doesn't necessarily mean that I wish to pursue those things with any degree of regularity, if at all. For example, I've a passion for very long hair on women. Now, I can certainly see the appeal of those whose fetish for long-haired women stems from their desire to humiliate and destroy such beauty by shaving those women bald; intellectually, I can absolutely see that as kinky and *theoretically* fun. Personally and aesthetically, though, it's probably never something I would require of my companion, at least not for recreational purposes. I might certainly consider it for punishment...a severe one to boot, given that it hurts my own pleasure and enjoyment of my companion to do so!
Polyamory is another example of this, and one I find regularly either supported or decried in various profiles. Personally, I am neutral with regard to this subject; I believe one person can completely fill and occupy the life of another, AND I believe that two people can find room in their hearts for another or more (consider what happens to a couple when a third person is added to the mix by way of the birth of a child!). I'm not against polyamory, nor am I specifically looking for it. But there are certain circumstances where I could see its appeal.
The list of interests is not a blueprint to the psyche. It has its share of concrete facts, but it is also as ephemeral in scope and direction, of personal inflection and artistic license, as Shakespeare was in his stage directions. My potential companion, ever the consumate courtesan, should be well-equipped to master those rigidly-defined areas of doubt and uncertainty and put forth a performance that I, her intended audience, will applaud.
As a point of advice, then: the interested ingenue would do well to inquire directly during the audition process, rather than presume and thus discount what could be the role of a lifetime. ~NB
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On Tattoos, Piercings, and Other Body Modifications--
Given my personal appearance and my social and aesthetic tastes, it isn't surprising that I encounter a lot of people with ink or piercing work done, in some cases deliberate scarification. What surprises most of my contemporaries is that I tend to find such modifications unattractive.
(Before anyone feels to reflexively reply to me in defense of either their opinions of, or their own personal, tattoos and piercings, let me say that I agree that everyone has the right to express themselves in any way they please, and self-decoration is certainly not the most abhorant way to do so; I don't find them disgusting or immoral, I just don't generally find them attractive.)
In my opinion, such markings are, like naturally-occurring scars, a litany of the deeds of your life. They are what you have written on yourself about the things you have done, the places you have been as a person, the moments you have been a part of and so on. I'm supportive of that viewpoint; I've even considered a few such markings myself, from time to time.
Where that enters this particular facet of my life is that, on a submissive I may consider for myself, I view it kind of like trying to write our story on a sheet of paper that's already been marked up, and that does hamper their potential value to me. I appreciate that everyone has a past before I enter their lives, but like an uncounted number of other elements, that facet of one's past certainly plays a role in who they are today, the sum total of everyone they have ever been yesterday, and naturally like any issues, they must be either accepted and dealt with, or rejected out of hand.
That's not to say that I wouldn't accept a submissive with such markings, nor that I wouldn't potentially encourage/require such things of them in the future. In the first case, a potential candidate would have to ask themselves if those decorations are more important to them, or if they would consider removing them at my behest. In the second, I feel that my things are mine to create, alter, or destroy as I see fit.
In summation, dear potentials, I don't mind if you have them, nor do I mind if you want them. But a companion of mine should consider herself well beforehand, and should be prepared to accept whatever changes to herself that might please me as I am to accept responsibility for making or inspiring those changes in her. ~NB
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I suppose I should clarify a bit with regards to exactly what I am looking for. Perfection is hardly a noble goal; a perfect person is a boring person. I'd like to find someone "perfect for me," which sadly requires more room to describe than I'm allowed here. Certainly a lover, and all the subersive facets of love that implies, but a companion, friend, and partner as well. A love of travel is preferable; among other things, I work at a variety of Renaissance festivals around the country so I'm regularly on the move, and I'd like someone both fun and useful to take with me.
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| Age: 23 |
| Manila,
Philippines |
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