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Hiyas! I'm Alexis - 20, transfeminine, Lifestyle babygirl, pet, slave, sub, sliiiightly switchy, I'm a lotta thingies! :D I'm looking for a casual Mommy or CG to control me locally. Not just a Dominant, but a partner who I enjoy being with. I've done the whole "Our relationship is ONLY D/s and we are most definitely not dating" thing and I absolutely loathed it. I need someone who shares my interests, who doesn't just make me feel submissive, but safe. Someone who I can honestly say that I love, and who I know loves me. Who I can share the bad days with, as well as the good; and the BDSM and little things grow organically from that. This means you're preferably in Campbell River, BC. or at least somewhere close by. I have a lot of hobbies and interests - I like to write, (When the mood strikes me) listen to music, watch movies, and play video games. Lots and lots of video games. :P I'm currently taking a break from school to become more financially independent. When I'm able to return to school, I plan on studying to become a therapist so that I can help youth who may be questioning their gender identity or sexuality. I think it would help a lot of kids to have an openly trans therapist, so that they get a chance to see that they're not alone, and that there's someone who's gone through the same stuff and is willing to listen to them. Aside from that.... Yeah, I like lots of things; I'm queer (In that I am attracted to both cis and trans women and non-binary individuals, as well as the very rare man.). I'm excitable but tend to get serious when I'm gaming, I'm a deep and varied person who has absolutely no idea how to talk about herself. :P As a little, I'm into pretty stereotypical stuff. I like coloring and cartoons and cuddling with my stuffies. (I have three) I like being all giggly and excitable and sometimes I slip into little-talk when I get SUPER excited an then I get reeeeeeeeeeaaaalll little! I can be a real brat sometimes, though, so I need someone who's not afraid to give me "The Look"and use my full name, or grab my arm and hiss, "Little girl, Behave!" in my ear when we're in public. I'm also a regressive little, which means that my little isn't very sexual. She's honestly more likely to giggle and go, "Eeeeeewwww" when sexual topics are brought up. I like Collars, pet play, humiliation, 24/7 Total Power Exchange, Internalized Slavery, hypnosis play, light impact play, orgasm control, and speech limitations, just to name a few. Finally, my absolute biggest fetish..... Behavior modification! :D
For those who don't know, behavior modification is pretty much exactly what it sounds like - Making changes to a submissive's behavior. Whether that's through a punishment/reward system (Which is common in many D/s relationships) or through more.... Extreme methods like classical/operant conditioning, hypnosis, etc. For me, I want to take this to it's extreme logical conclusion - Absolute brainwashing and intense permanent conditioning. Understandably, I know that won't be happening for years and years down the road for my Owner and I - Decades, even! But it is our end goal.
About You! (Hopefully) Age doesn't matter to me, but I'd strongly prefer someone who's at least a couple of years older than me. And most definitely 18+. If your partner doesn't know about me, I'm DEFINITELY not interested. But if you're a married couple who is looking for somebody together then please let me know! I would love to be topped by a couple. Aside from that.... I'm just looking for someone who has that deep, burning need for control.Someone who doesn't just want D/s to happen in the bedroom, but outside of it, all the time; who loves rules and structure and imposing that on others. And if ANY part of this very long-winded message caught your attention, please feel free to message me. I'd love to talk and see if we're compatible ;)
Note - Because I am a trans woman, my proper pronouns are she, her, hers, etc. Female pronouns. I won't tolerate anybody using anything else, even coming from a dominant or in jest. The same goes for words like, "Tranny," "Shemale," "Futa," Etc. Byeee~~~~ :* :3 :D

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5/17/2016 4:23:04 PM

Fetish: an object or bodily part whose real or fantasied presence is psychologically necessary for sexual gratification and that is an object of fixation to the extent that it may interfere with complete sexual expression

Kink: unconventional sexual taste or behavior

Now, I want to say that I don't care if you use the words "Kink" and "fetish" interchangeably. I really don't. I'm not going to police your language. But for the purposes of this writing, I will be using the definitions above.

For a long time, ever since I was a child, I've been fascinated with the idea of mind control - Of being hypnotized or brainwashed, indoctrinated and completely mindless. My past and identity erased; reduced to nothing but a mindless drone with no thoughts but obedience and pleasure.

I know that's a bit unrealistic, but I remember my first fantasies as a child growing up watching cartoons - Jafar and his snake-head staff, Kaa the snake and his entrancing eyes; lulling me to sleep, you see where I'm going with this.

As I grew up and began exploring my sexuality, those fantasies continued. Sometimes they were consensual, but more often not. Sometimes I was a devoted, loving slave, sometimes an empty, broken shell. Sometimes it was hypnosis, sometimes drugs, or good old conditioning. It didn't really matter.

It caused a lot of problems for me with partners - Many weren't interested in hypnosis; others just... Didn't believe it was a thing. It didn't help that I'm incredibly resistant to suggestion, so hypnotic trance is.... A very difficult thing for me to achieve... >.>

I even spent years teaching myself hypnosis, in the hopes of finding a technique that worked on me. (Still searching, BTW.)

And as I spent time learning and searching, I didn't notice how strongly mind control became linked to my sexuality. Eventually, nothing else gave me sexual gratification the way behavior modification did. No other fantasies would get me off. I didn't realize what had happened until it was too late - Now I'm in a position where behavior modification has become a "true" (in the academic sense) fetish.

I'm not really sure where I'm going with this. Just trying to sort out my thoughts, I guess.

I'm working to decouple the fantasies from my sexuality, which is going to take time. And I'm still searching for a hypnotic technique that works for me, as well as someone who wants the kinds of conditioning/training/drugged compliance that I want, but that's going to take a lot of effort, research, and education on my part.


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selfishpleasure
 
 Age: 36
 UK, United Kingdom