On a more serious note, and maybe I hope to get some feeback from the ladies who have been in this longer than I have. It seems that when I am active (with a Dom/Domme) I loose a sense of my self as the "play" intensifies. It's like I am out of my body watching and wondering how I can allow myself to be put through these things. I have had amazing orgasms, done things I never dreamt I would do and love it all. Afterwards I feel totally guilty and question who I am and what am I becoming. That said, I wake up from a sound sleep horney as hell and wet.
Is this normal for women new to this life? I think about sex now all the time.
Am I moving to fast? On a personal note it has even affected my period. It comes and goes...not on schedule...sometimes just a bit of spotting, and others a rageing flow. |