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All things go through my Daddy first...he is domde from Elmira, NY. Combined profile in the works...:) Thank you. Things that you must know about us that will NOT change. If any of these are an issue with you, please look elsewhere.... My Daddy knows I AM a slut. My Daddy knows I AM bi. My Daddy knows I AM opinionated. My Daddy knows I AM extremely sexual and enjoy sex with others...men and women. My Daddy, however, IS in control. Trying to change or circumvent anything stated above will truly stress us out. Please read and abide by the first sentence in my profile. That said...we are looking for people that
"compliment" our relationship and we HAVE had some great experiences with those that "get it"...if you DO, please contact HIM. Thank you. Things my Daddy and I are looking for…. Someone who knows I am a slut and what being a slut means. Someone who enjoys the fact that I am a slut and who will compliment that "sluttiness". Points I need to bring up...over and over and over...sigh. 1) Absolutely NO blind dates. No pics = no meet. AND....please have CURRENT pics. We don't care what you looked like in highschool or 5 years ago when you were 50 lbs lighter. 2) If you live further than Rochester..i.e..over 1.5 hours away, we will not be interested. Our time is too limited to spend most of it on the road. If still interested...and you haven't found any of the above offensive....please read on. Again, please be aware that the following is from a previous single profile of mine, but that I now DO have the Daddy I've been searching for. Please be respectful of that. ----------------------------------------------- --------------------------------- To say that I am open to all and most forms of sexuality is an understatement. I immerse my whole being into any sexual situation in which I find myself…whether it be alone or in a large group. I have absolutely no sexual hang ups except for the dislike for scat, bestiality, extreme pain or pedophiles. I also choose not to participate in fire, gun or knife play. I am not a jealous person and require the same from another. I participate fully in the swing lifestyle (please ask if you don’t know what that is), but to present, have not been able to “combine” that successfully with my D/s desires. I enjoy both men and women and am fully bi, however, I do not wish to involve women in my D/s experiences at this time. That is primarily because I find myself to be dominant when another woman is involved and that can be confusing to some Doms. I am a strong-willed sub...take that for what it is worth. What am I looking for? That is the complex and hardest part. I am looking for someone that is strong enough to let me be me and not feel that I am challenging their authority. I am looking for someone that knows that they are ultimately “the One” in control and that my total being and devotion lies with them at the end of the day and for a lifetime. A person who is somewhat of a Daddy Dom that will protect, care for and nurture me. I search for a person that realizes I am a true slut at heart and one who recognizes and accepts my need to fulfill that desire. Someone who can watch me be sexually active (or even direct me to be) with another (male or female) and not feel it is a “threat” to our D/s dynamic. I have been told that it would be an impossibility to find someone who could care for me deeply and still be able to let me “be a slut” or even direct me to be so. They also tell me that a most people will say anything to “have sex” with no intention of a commitment… seriously?...I would have never guessed. I’m hoping my maturity and experience allows me to weed through such people and there is “someone out there” mature enough to understand what I am looking for. I have learned that I cannot change who or what I am and remain happy. All I can do is find someone that will attempt to understand my desires…as I will theirs. I am looking for a “life partner” and not for a “playmate” or occasional fling. I do not wish to become involved with anyone that is married or in a current relationship. I am not really looking for a poly situation either. I am not a “drive-thru” restaurant and do not want to meet people that “just happen” to be in town on vacation or business. I also don’t want to spend hours on the road trying to be together. Chances are that if you live more than 2 hours away I will not even respond. I am unable to relocate at this time due to an elderly mother that needs my attention. Although I don’t mind chatting, I would prefer chatting with a purpose. My time is extremely limited due to my job and personal responsibilities. I am into real life, real skin, face-to-face experiences and don’t desire to cam, share pictures or spend countless hours “chatting”. If I don’t respond or say I would prefer not to chat due to distance, the reason would be that I don’t see any possibility of a “real life relationship” developing between us. I am a realist. Some take my directness as being rude, but I feel it necessary so that there are no “grey” areas that may be misconstrued at a later date. The clearer the better. I strive to be completely “drama free”. I am always willing to discuss anything D/s related, but I am ultimately looking for "my One" and my time will be directed towards those that possibly fit that mold....versus...the "just wanting to chat" category.I am looking for a friend, lover AND a Dom all rolled into one....impossible?....maybe, but you can't blame a girl for hoping, right? I apologize for the lengthiness of this profile, but I have found that if you don’t spell it out, people get stupid and I don’t do well with stupid…J I hope all this makes sense so far and that I don’t come across as a bitch. It is a work in progress. Please ask if you have any questions. Thank you.

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1/1/2015 9:06:16 PM
Looking forward to another fantastic and productive year with my Daddy...:)

11/16/2014 9:41:05 PM
I haven't been posted here in a while (since April...wow) and there is a reason for that....it's called contentment. Thank you Daddy...yours forever...silly rabbit...:)

4/27/2014 10:30:57 PM

I'm so excited to see my Daddy today. I saw him this past Friday, but it seems like forrreeever....


4/17/2014 10:56:48 PM

Although my life and responsibilities are chaotic at this moment, I couldn't be happier...thanks to my Daddy. I am one hell of a lucky baby girl...:)


4/7/2014 11:29:52 PM

There is absolutely no doubt in my mind that because of my Daddy, I am still here today. He guides me, and loves me unconditionally. I am so thankful to have Him in my life. He has helped me to develop (naturally) into a true baby girl. He has set me on the right path and I owe everything to Him.


4/4/2014 9:36:51 PM

A true D/s relationship involves trust, faith and a mutual respect. I am proud, honored and humbled to say that I AM involved in that type of a relationship.


3/14/2014 10:09:38 PM

Still moving forward hand in hand with my Daddy...:)


2/25/2014 10:55:55 PM

Tons accomplished and more to do, but it is getting done with Daddy's guidance. The power of two with a common goal is a wonderful thing...:)


2/10/2014 10:24:32 PM

Making an exciting step forward. House closing on 7 Mar. Closer to my and Daddy's goal. I couldn't have done it without him...:)


1/10/2014 3:13:36 PM

I could never, EVER have found a better Daddy than the one that has chosen me to be his baby girl.


1/7/2014 9:57:50 PM

I've been down and out with a sprained back and per usual, am so grateful for all my Daddy does for me.


12/31/2013 9:54:31 PM

Thankful that I am entering a New Year with my Daddy...:)


12/29/2013 5:52:39 PM

I am one hell of a lucky baby girl...


12/17/2013 10:16:26 PM

My Daddy is my knight in shining armor. He "saves" me every time.


12/12/2013 10:48:57 PM

A tribute to my Daddy:

A baby girl craves stability. She needs a Daddy that loves her, cares for her and stands by her side even when it seems that she isn’t living up to HIS standards…at  that moment in time. We truly DESIRE to make our Daddy happy, but we are weak and sometimes have a hard time dealing with daily pressures. I am so thankful to have a Daddy that understands me, guides me, and who doesn’t turn his back on me. He is my life, my world and I trust him in all things. Thank  you Daddy.


12/10/2013 11:40:17 PM

Silly Rabbit here, letting Daddy know that she is very content and happy...lol.


12/2/2013 10:55:18 PM

Thank you Daddy for making my family feel comfortable in your home. Glad you liked the "duckies"...wink.


11/28/2013 6:40:35 AM

I am thankful for having the BEST Daddy ever this day...:)


11/27/2013 11:26:49 PM

We have all gone through relationships that don't work out. This causes sadness, but there is a reason in the end. The reason is that you will eventually meet the person that is right for you. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. My trials and experiences have led me to the person (Daddy) that I am with now and I am so grateful for that. He is my life and my life is His.


11/20/2013 10:02:34 PM

My Daddy knows I can be a bad and fussy baby girl, but he loves me anyways...:)


11/15/2013 11:00:24 PM

I am so thankful that I have a Daddy that loves me unconditionally and who accepts my strengths and weaknesses. 


11/9/2013 10:40:42 PM

Just me...doing what I do...VENTING...:)

There are those on here that "play games" with submissives and slaves...i.e...I am a Dominant when I am not with my wife, or as the mood strikes me, or online only, or in my fantasies, or until I get my shit together, or behind closed doors, or only in my mind, and the list goes on and on...you get my drift....:) If you are unable to give a submissive or a slave your FULL attention or support, then PLEASE do them a HUGE favor, do NOT contact them and describe yourself as a Dom...because you are NOT. Thank you...:) That being said...I am sooooo thankful for MY DADDY.

 


11/5/2013 10:37:38 PM

My Daddy is my "constant". He is constantly there offering guidance, reassurance, praise, and support. Thank you Daddy...your baby girl loves you.


10/29/2013 6:52:00 PM

Yes Daddy, you are still my #1...:)


10/26/2013 11:07:28 PM

On a positive note....   

My Daddy IS the reason that I can deal with the everyday BS of life. He is strong, he is supportive, he is loving, he is understanding and giving. He allows me to be what I am, but also offers guidance and direction. He is not selfish by any means, but DOES want to maintain control. He is my best friend, teacher, advisor, lover, and my whole life. There are not enough words to express my gratitude to him.  

Thank you Daddy...:) I love you so much.

 

 


10/25/2013 10:55:08 PM

There are those of us that take this lifestyle very seriously and those that do not.  To some it is only a "part-time" thing or something you fantasize about. If you are not serious about it, please keep your comments to yourself, stay in your "safe" world and do not contact me or criticize. Thank you.


10/18/2013 11:17:46 AM

It doesn't matter to me if you are a Dom, sub, Domme or switch. If your heart isn't into this lifestyle and it is only a matter of play-time, part-time or something you do behind your "significant others" back, do NOT talk to me.


10/16/2013 11:06:03 AM

Having a Daddy that lets me be a "bad" little girl is soooooo good...:) Thank you Daddy...


10/9/2013 9:58:21 PM

What is important to this baby girl sub is love, security, stability, consistency, and kindness. Thanks to my Daddy, I have all of these. I am grateful...


10/3/2013 10:10:17 PM

I miss my Daddy soooo much and can't wait to see him this weekend! Tioga Downs Casino on Sat and the Cohocton Fall Foliage Festival on Sun. It is going to be a fantastic weekend for this little girl...:)


9/24/2013 12:24:23 AM

I am so thankful to have met my perfect partner on here. I couldn't be happier. Thank you Daddy for providing me focus and for accepting me as I am...


9/15/2013 10:08:05 PM

Thanks again Daddy... I owe you big time...:)


9/11/2013 12:11:54 AM

There is someone in my corner....it is my Daddy. I would NOT have been able to survive to this point without his support. He knows that. It is the reason he hasn't given up on me. He knows I rely on him. He sees the value in me. If you find someone that has faith in you...even though you have numerous "issues"...hold on to them with an iron grip. They truly mean the difference between life and death. Yes Daddy, I am content also... wink...:)


8/27/2013 10:25:33 PM

Again, I find that I'm not venting in this journal very often. This can only mean that I am content with things as they are. I would like to make it understood that this is because of "domde", who I still consider to be my Daddy...:) Thank you.


8/8/2013 11:57:51 PM

Thanks to all that offer advice. It IS appreciated...


8/7/2013 11:01:57 PM

I am having an extremely hard time finding "my place" or where I "fit in".


8/3/2013 10:29:13 PM

I have found that sometimes my hardest times are not when I'm going absolutely insane trying to keep up with the daily hamster wheel of life, but when I'm alone at night and know everyone else is sleeping....


7/23/2013 1:31:54 PM

Numerous people have asked me if it actually me in the pictures on my profile. Who the hell else would it be? Are there so many others on this site that have "fake" or "borrowed" pictures that you feel the need to ask that question? Just wondering....


7/15/2013 11:37:10 PM

Is there such a thing as a bad girl being good or a good girl being bad? I guess it depends on who you ask.


7/10/2013 11:40:51 PM

When you hold a living being in your arms (whether animal or human) and know that YOU are ultimately responsible for it having a good (or crappy)  life experience…it weighs heavily on your soul.


7/7/2013 11:12:18 PM

You accept me as I am. You allow me to sit in silence and be happy. You simply....let me be me. Thank you for allowing me to do that..:)


6/26/2013 11:49:36 PM

At this point, I can't imagine my life without Daddy. He is my perfect match...:) Thank you...


6/23/2013 11:10:03 PM

Because of you.... I laugh a little harder, cry a little less, and smile a little more...:)

 


6/19/2013 10:20:02 PM

Sometimes it takes a lifetime to meet your perfect match.


6/17/2013 11:13:25 PM

My Dom is my Hero.


6/10/2013 7:21:48 AM

I have been given a wonderful gift.

Someone that truly understands me.

Someone who accepts me for what I am and doesn't judge me.

Someone who doesn't have to "fit me in" due to an existing wife/lover/relationship or because they are held back due to their job and are afraid of what "others" may think.  

Someone that doesn't have to keep me as their deep dark secret. 

When this same person can also be your Dom, Daddy, best friend, lover and confidant...the possibilities that you both can share are truly endless.

Thank you Daddy....I am so grateful.

 


6/7/2013 11:56:45 PM

No doubt....this is the most "complete" and "connected" that I've felt in years... Thank you Daddy...


5/30/2013 11:05:22 PM

I'm sure this is going to become redundant, but once again I feel the need to express how HAPPY and CONTENT I am to have finally found my true match...my Daddy. As he states, it has been truly effortless and natural. It is like a HUGE weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I don't feel the need to search anymore. I have my Daddy and he makes the decisions....it is the way it should be...I am so lucky....huge grin. 


5/26/2013 10:10:05 PM

Speaking from a submissive's perspective.....there is a heart wrenching need to fulfill a purpose or to know that you are needed. When someone allows you to do that, and truly appreciates you for it....it is like fuel for your soul, your reason to breath, and can only be compared to winning the lottery. Thank you Daddy...I owe you one...huge grin.


5/25/2013 10:29:48 PM

I have felt the need to be here less often...venting on this journal. It is because my Daddy meets all my needs and everything else has become secondary. My only thoughts are to make him happy. That is my purpose. Thank you Daddy for guiding me in the right direction...:)


5/14/2013 11:08:41 PM

This is one happy girl...:)


5/7/2013 10:43:03 PM

After years of being on this site, I think I have finally found my true match. I am overjoyed, happy and extremely grateful to him for choosing me to be his...:)


5/3/2013 11:43:15 PM

It is a true curse that my brain is more active at this time in the morning than it was all night at work...damn it. My dilemma is what to do with the active brain at THIS hour. Worse yet is that I am no where near "sleep mode" and have a full day coming up. Does anyone out there have the same problem and get it?


4/26/2013 8:43:53 AM

Thank you Daddy...grin...:)


4/23/2013 9:10:03 PM

There are Doms that have no clue how intense their ability IS to control....until they LOSE that control....and by then, it is too late...but, of course, it is all the subs fault....go figure.  


4/23/2013 7:16:52 PM

Badd Kitty has never ceased to amaze me, and I can say the same about this past weekend. I had an absolute blast...:)


4/17/2013 10:52:42 PM

It is looking like another Badd Kitty weekend coming up...woohoo. See you there if you happen to be going...:)


4/12/2013 9:32:45 AM

Thank you to a VERY special "friend", who has met my needs in more ways than you can ever imagine. I am so grateful to you. You know who you are...


4/7/2013 12:41:19 PM

I had an absolutely fantastic weekend at the Rochester Erotics Art Festival! It was soooo nice to meet many old and new friends....:)


4/3/2013 10:01:17 PM

I would hope that I am not being shallow in my following remarks. Those that truly know me would agree, it isn't in my nature. Blunt yes, callous no. A piece of advice.... If you are NOT over a past relationship, marriage or death of a spouse, please do not attempt to engage others into a relationship until you ARE ready to move on. It isn't fair to "draw someone in" and then explain that you have existing issues/baggage that you haven't dealt with yet. Even worse when you make that person feel like they are shit because they don't want to put up with the existing issues/baggage. Thank you.


3/25/2013 11:10:24 AM

Ok, so if YOU had a friend that could only be around you when they weren't with their OTHER friends, would you still consider them a friend and want to spend time with them? Chances are that you would say no. So when I have to work my schedule around a wife, girlfriend or significant other, I feel the same way. Get it? I'm sorry, but I can't do it anymore.


3/21/2013 10:24:11 AM

Taking the time to focus on my needs for a change.


3/21/2013 12:52:06 AM

I have had to block a longtime friend on here due to the necessity to move forward. It saddens me greatly, but I have no choice. I take people at face value and sometimes it bites me in the ass. In this case it did. I will miss him.


3/14/2013 11:13:49 AM

Still searching....


3/10/2013 9:03:35 AM

OMG....I am all discoed out, but I had an absolute blast...:)


3/6/2013 9:59:04 PM

Is anyone going to the Ugly Disco in Rochester on Saturday night?


3/4/2013 11:21:50 AM

I am in full realization that many Doms on this site do not realize that they "dissolve" a sub/slave to tears when they say "hurtful" things.


3/4/2013 9:25:28 AM

I am going to post something only because I am sooooo exasperated with this whole process of finding someone that I can truly connect with...

Message I received as follows....

"Hi melaine (name spelled wrong) 

I'll answer your question 1st. The top from bottom comes more from your journals. You tend to lay it on pretty thick. It's the way your journals are when domeone's don't do as you expect. Not sure if it's because your not with a Dom or not. Time tells all."

MY RESPONSE: If expressing my opinion and only desiring to meet with "real" people on this site makes me appear to top from the bottom than so be it. I don't do well with stupidity or for those that appear to be obvious assholes. Now if I further choose to express that...then YES...I guess that means I am topping from the bottom....:) I am not 20, inexperienced or immature. I have had my experiences and have learned from those. If someone wants a "blank canvas" they need to look elsewhere. I would prefer to say that I am an opinionated and mature sub who is real and prefers not to put up with a "weak" Dom...or one that has no clue of what "being a Dom" really means. I am a strong sub that needs an even stronger Dom. Opinionated, intelligent and knowing what you want does not to me mean you are a sub "topping from the bottom." Does that make sense to you or only irritate you further?


3/2/2013 11:28:44 PM

Ok, Ok...so here we go. Many people contact me because they are new and don't have ANY experience, but they want to try something and figure out "where they belong in all of this" (whether it be sub, Dom, Domme, or switch). I am me (open, straight forward, nothing to hide) and say how I feel....i.e...."Hey, I am the perfect person to experiment with because I'm like Mikey in those old cereal commercials....I try anything." BUT, then they feel I am TOO experienced and a smartass and they feel intimidated....sigh. I just don't get it.


3/1/2013 10:27:05 PM

Ok...here we go....venting...

Do you ever have those people that ONLY contact you when they are in dire straits? They contact you when the person they thought was "the one" ends up being "the psycho"...or the young girl they thought really wanted them for their charismatic personality and charm suddenly vanishes to be with a younger guy with more stamina. AND...not only do they contact you, they then proceed to make you feel guilty because you don't want to "re-establish" a connection, as if YOU are the one with the problem? Just wondering if I am the only one with this problem...?


2/26/2013 9:07:00 AM
Saw this somewhere and liked it.....Fake friends are a vital piece of life. They keep you on your toes and teach you to never take the real ones for granted.

2/24/2013 4:34:10 PM

Once again....another absolutely fantastic weekend spent in Rochester....HUGE grin....BUT....I am attaching a message that I sent to a potential Dom when he said I wasn't a "true" slut because I wouldn't meet him at a mall and give him a blowjob in a dressing room...sigh. 

"Again...I'm not saying this in a bad, disrespectful or offensive way and I'm sorry if it comes across as such. I have to sugarcoat everything at work and with my family, but I refuse to do it here. I am totally about real and have to say that until YOUR situation is on a more "stable level"..i.e..you are not living with your mother and have a decent job....I will not engage with you. Just because YOU don't have a place to "play" does not mean I need to rise up to your challenge of being a "true slut" by giving you a blow job in a dressing room at a mall. That by no means defines me as a slut. What defines me as a slut is that I fucked 8 people non stop throughout Sat night...to meet someone else the next morning (in the hotel room) and fuck them, to further meet someone else in Rochester (and fuck them) to come home and guess what?....fuck them too. Perhaps our definition of a slut is totally different....hmmmm....you think?"

 


2/23/2013 12:39:18 AM

There are the "doers" (the ones that actually get out, make contact, meet people and play) and then there are "watchers" (sitting in front of their computer and talking a lot of shit about what they will or can do once they get their shit together)...like NEVER....enough said.


2/22/2013 11:54:29 PM

Seriously....please tell me that I am not the ONLY one extremely irritated by the naiveness of some on this (and other D/s) sites. Although I feel that I am "as clear as a bell" as to what I want, I STILL have single males asking me to Dom them. Exasperated here to the ninth degree...you have noooo idea.


2/13/2013 10:43:35 PM

Happy Valentines Day everybody!...hugs, kisses and more...:)


2/10/2013 9:01:44 PM

Seriously...if you have never been to Badd Kitty...you NEED to go there....:) I had an absolutely fantastic evening last night and have memories for a lifetime...mmmm...mmmm...mmmm. Whew...still makes me hot just thinking about it...huge grin.


2/8/2013 11:33:30 PM

This much fun has GOT to be illegal...right?


2/7/2013 11:12:54 PM

Looks like another Badd Kitty weekend in Fredonia....meeeoooowwww....lol.


2/6/2013 3:41:22 PM

If you are "technically challenged" and can't send a pic in any way, shape or form...whether it be IM, email, phone text or through this site....we are definitely not a match.


2/5/2013 4:44:24 AM

Sooooo excited... I'm ordering my very first official latex dress and jacket from VenusPrototypeLatex based out of CA. I'm hoping it is just the right thing for the REAF function in April....:)


2/3/2013 12:16:05 AM

A man that requires a woman to chase him, may look back and find himself running alone. 


1/27/2013 2:37:11 PM

OMG...these weekends off are going to be the death of me....but what a way to go...:)


1/26/2013 11:04:36 AM

Woohoo!!! Saturday!!! I'll be getting into lots of trouble up in Rochester...huge evil grin...:P  P.S. If I call you to bail me out of jail, pleeeease respond...lmao.


1/21/2013 11:50:09 AM

Blunt per usual....

My luck is this..... I have met some really great, attentive "vanilla" guys...BUT...to tell them I swing or participate in BDSM would blow them out of the water. On the other hand....I've met potential Doms from this site and most just want good head, don't have any clue on the needs of a "true" slut...or are married posing as single. How does a REAL slut sub find someone on this site? Is it even possible?


1/15/2013 11:49:31 PM

Just when I think this lifestyle can't possibly get more fascinating or complicated, it does...lmao. Tell me it isn't so. The worst (or best) part of all of this is, I feel right at home....:)


1/11/2013 6:50:32 AM

Aaaahhhhh....finally....the weekend is here (not that I need it to be a weekend to get into some trouble)....evil grin.


1/10/2013 11:18:38 PM

I had someone tell me I was beautiful the other day. He told me that my womanly curves were the biggest turn on imaginable. He told me that he couldn't imagine being with anyone else but me. For that moment he truly held my heart in his hand. I can't remember the last time someone had told me that, and truly meant it. I think men forget to do that. They forget how important that is. Men....and women...if you truly appreciate your partner...please let them know. It might make the difference between them being with you or someone else in your very near future.


1/6/2013 11:16:57 AM

Most people don't frequent BDSM sites because they think we are different, strange, or bizarrre. Let me tell you something.... we ain't got shit when it comes to the people on Match.com....oh my.


1/1/2013 6:28:22 AM

Now THAT was the way to bring in a New Year...woohoo.


12/30/2012 9:25:22 PM

I'll start letting my guard down when people stop giving me reasons to keep it up.


12/28/2012 8:46:23 AM

New years Eve?..choices...choices. Badd Kitty Club in Fredonia? Enchantments hotel party in Rochester? House party with some great swinger friends, also in Rochester?  Hmmmm.....


12/27/2012 11:45:09 AM

I've finally come to the conclusion that if I'm too busy to be on here (this site), because I'm actually participating, experiencing and not just TALKING about it....that is a very, very good thing for me...HUGE evil grin.


12/25/2012 5:50:29 AM

I know this may seem trivial to some, but my holiday is overshadowed by a dying cat under my couch...:( Damn animals...they give you so much joy, but so much sorrow when it is time for them to go....sigh.


12/20/2012 7:48:24 AM

Please, please, PLEASE SANTA....bring me someone with at LEAST half of a brain left....:P


12/17/2012 11:27:24 PM

If you ask for my opinion, and then don't agree with it, don't belittle me about it. Just don't ask next time...


12/16/2012 9:49:56 PM

Photo op.... A good friend of mine in Canandaigua, NY would like to hone in on his photography skills and needs patient, willing, and enthusiastic participants for modeling or prep work (i.e...hair, makeup, etc) If anyone is interested, contact me and I'll lead you in the right direction. First meet will be on the 29th of this month. Be aware that this is NOT a play party or a paid modeling gig. Your payment will be in the form of meeting others and possibly having some good pics to share.


12/15/2012 5:37:25 PM

WTF was I thinking?...*slapping forehead*.  To think that anyone primarily attached to the "vanilla" world could ever, ever provide me with what I truly need, desire and require on my "kink side" was a serious misjudgement on my part. I am so back and sooooo ready to get my "kink" on.....:)   Psssst....not that I every stopped anyways...lmao.


12/7/2012 10:16:28 AM

The old adage is true..."when you stop looking, someone will find you." I think I may have found my life partner and he isn't even on this site or any fetish site. He had absolutely no idea what the D/s lifestyle entailed or even what a Dom was, which I find both amazing and hilarious. He is a "natural" Dom, the best kind. I feel so utterly fortunate that he has chosen me to spend his time with....:)


12/4/2012 10:58:30 AM

Hmmmm...perhaps the One I have been searching for all this time has been in front of my eyes all along? Idioms = as plain as day, as clear as a bell...etc. etc. He seems to think so and time will tell....


12/3/2012 10:23:45 PM

Finding a true match on this site is just about as painful as pulling my nose hairs out one by one...:)


12/3/2012 6:14:26 AM

Time to get up, shake the dust off and move on....:)


12/2/2012 1:29:20 PM

I have truly given up on the concept that I'll find my "One" on this site. I'm officially throwing my white flag in the ring. I'm returning to the "vanilla" world. Maybe I'll get lucky and meet a "natural" Dom that will think I'm his perfect match. 


11/28/2012 12:08:16 AM

"If your love does not work with that person, it just means that someone else loves you more."


11/22/2012 4:40:56 PM

“If you always make the right decision, the safe decision,
the one most people make, you will be the same as everyone else.”
― Paul Arden


11/19/2012 7:13:57 AM

Reality sucks and I've learned to hate the phrase..."when all the stars align".


11/15/2012 11:41:32 PM

OMG...have I finally found my One?...:)


11/4/2012 11:03:03 AM

Note to self...  Next party...smaller bottle of wine...:)  Sooooo much fun though.


11/3/2012 7:03:09 AM

Today is going to be an extremely interesting day/eve. I can feel it, can you?....:)


10/27/2012 10:20:50 PM

I would rather be true to myself and piss off a few people, than to stay safe and be bored shitless. Someday all you will have is your memories....make them good ones.


10/25/2012 9:00:35 PM

Ahhhh...it's all about having fun...right? Life is way too short....:P


10/19/2012 10:44:27 PM

Look out weekend...here I come...ready or not...:)


10/19/2012 8:24:18 AM

Again...just venting...and this is seriously a "dead horse" in so many past relationships....

Why it is MY fault that you are upset because I have already made plans for the weekend (that don't include you) ONLY because you failed to approach me with any plans of your own?

Is it me? Is there something missing here? I seriously just don't get it....


10/16/2012 10:59:30 PM

Hooray, woohoo, yippee, woot woot...let's get this party started...:D


10/15/2012 4:59:05 PM

As hard as I may, I try to be positive on this site. I've come to the conclusion that I am far too much of an optomist and need to gear it down.....like below sea level....


10/15/2012 4:04:40 PM

Yet another note to self: 

Never, ever, ever, EVER trust anyone. They may try tell you otherwise, but it IS,  all about THEIR needs...not yours.

 

 


10/11/2012 6:13:28 PM

Note to self:  

1)  If someone’s idea of a houseplant revolves around cacti, chances are they expect everything else in their life to require just as much maintenance...none.

2) If you spend the time to try to  make yourself pleasing…i.e…doing your toenails the color they want, shaving your pussy, and all those things that women do…and they appear indifferent or take no notice at all…run fast, very fast.

Lessons learned....


10/10/2012 11:19:38 AM

Keep the hate mail coming...it breaks up the monotony...wink.


10/9/2012 10:20:17 AM

The more I try to "actively" NOT be negative or despondent on this site...the more people just keep on pushing my buttons....some things never change...


10/8/2012 8:20:59 AM

Just so you know....

Yes, I WILL admit that I am an extremely independent submissive (and blunt to a fault sometimes....really...who knew?), BUT let it be known that  I DO require slightly more attention than ....uhmmmm....say a cat, dog or a chicken?....

Seriously? Enough is enough....please get a clue....huge sigh.


10/6/2012 3:34:19 PM

I like this and it still holds true.... 

"Don't make someone a priority who only makes you an option"

 


10/5/2012 11:16:37 PM

Please tell me there is a true Dom (of any age) out there that can appreciate what a “mature” sub has to offer? I am a sub that doesn’t have an excessive amount of baggage and will only look to you for mental and physical support (not financial).  Easy to find a match?  No way.  It appears to me that most Doms need or want a “damsel in distress” that they can rescue. They need someone that is either emotionally or financially needy/unstable…so they can “fix” it. I’m sorry that I don’t have 5 children,  that I don’t need someone to pay my cellphone bill for the month or that I don’t need you to pay my student loan.  This whole process of trying to find a match is so frustrating to me. The younger Doms are just out for fun, the Doms my age are looking for the twentysomethings, and the older Doms are looking for someone to take care of them in the nursing home.  I feel that I am no further ahead than I was 10 years ago….WTF?....sigh.


10/5/2012 9:31:34 PM

Grrrrr...


10/2/2012 9:28:46 AM

I know I've vented about this before, and I apologize ahead of time, BUT....I just don't get the whole "online only" thing. Is it just me or does it have "I'm married and can't let my spouse find out what I'm doing" written all over it? Also...what the hell do you get out of it besides masturbating to a computer? WTF?


10/1/2012 7:20:21 PM

A couple of my opinions are as follows:

1) Some say that I express too much on my journal, but OMG....I'm sooooo tired of seeing profiles that have the saaaaaame thing as their primary header or journal for over a year or more...holy crap! If it's been THAT long since you've felt the need or desire to say or change something (ANYTHING) you need to delete your profile. Seriously...just give up and go back to the "vanilla" world.

2) The old adage remains true....i.e....if it looks like shit and smells like shit, it probably IS shit. If it appears too good to be true, it probably is and yada yada yada. Please don't try to bullshit a bullshitter....it only irritates the bullshitter further....AND...even more important...you won't get any pussy....crass but so true....:)


9/30/2012 10:38:41 PM

"Giddy-up"


9/30/2012 12:43:37 AM

I will say this and then will never mention it again....but everytime I get into a relationship on here and it doesn't work out....I feel as if my heart is ripped right out of my chest, slammed on the ground and stomped on. So, please forgive me if I'm not ready to "get back on the horse" anytime soon. K...done...


9/28/2012 11:50:38 PM

 

Ok, Ok....I think I've FINALLLY come to a small plateau of revelation tonight....(after being on this site on and off for 10 plus years)

Every Dom out there that is coming out of a bad marriage, no sex relationship...etc, seems to think that I am the "next best thing to sliced bread" because I listen to their tales of woe and attempt to soothe their egos....

I, in the meantime, in my attempt to comfort them, totally overlook MY needs and in turn become the Dom/Domme in the relationship....i.e...in control.  The problem is that I am already TOTALLY in control of my day to day responsibilites (and am very good at it btw...thank you very much), so when a Dom expects me to "fix" THEIR problems as well, it then becomes one MORE thing that I need to take responsibility for....not a good thing. I am the sub, you are the Dom....if I am stronger than you (mentally, physically, or intellectually) we are going to have some major issues....meaning...it is dead in the water.

I guess the bottom line is that I'm looking for a Dom stronger than myself. One who, like myself doesn't have a bunch of baggage, wants to truly "own" his girl and will let her LEAN ON HIM, which would be so nice for a change. It is a tall order, but I know he is out there somewhere. If you are...please, PLEASE contact me. I would love to correspond with you and discuss possibilities. Hey, a girls got to have a glimmer of hope, right?


9/27/2012 8:23:00 PM

Until I find my "One and Only",  I have absolutely no exception to having a few "playthings" to keep me occupied....evil grin. Hmmmm...maybe I need to reconsider myself as being a switch? I do SO much LOVE spanking an ass...oh my. Those that know me...opinions?


9/27/2012 8:51:10 AM

Ok, here we go again....venting....

1) If you send me a message and I have absolutely NO idea what you are trying to say (due to gross grammar and misspelling errors), my thoughts are as follows...a) you typed it so fast because you were afraid of being caught by your wife, gf, coworker, etc...or...b) you aren't quite up to par on the intelligence meter...or... c) you think subs on here are so desperate that they aren't concerned with the intelligence of who they meet.

2) If you want to set up a meet, but then require me to send you an address so that you can google it on google maps to find me (because you don't have a cell phone or GPS capabilities) I will probably meet someone else who DOES have those capabilities. I came out of the stone age kicking and screaming and desire someone else who has shared my pain...lol. If you are younger than me and still don't have those capabilties...shame on you. I'm not all about the financial stability in a partner, but I'm way past the "babysitting stage" and waiting until you get your "shit together".

Once again, I apologize for my bluntness....but please, please, PLEASE...answer me this....Aren't there any intelligent, financially stable,  open-minded, non-married/non-obligated (i.e....sneaking around) Doms on this site that are truly looking for their "sub", "baby",  "slut", etc? I've been on this site for 10 plus years...I am still searching to no avail....sigh.


9/25/2012 10:50:41 PM

New latex mask on it's way...evil grin. Think kitty. Think pink...:)


9/25/2012 7:57:20 AM

Please proofread your profiles before posting them. The very first thing I do when someone contacts me is look up their profile. If there are numerous misspelled words and it looks like it was written by someone straight out of kindergarten, I will NOT be interested...just saying.


9/23/2012 11:42:30 AM

I think everyone should go to the Badd Kitty Club in Fredonia, NY at least once. I for one find it amazingly fun and entertaining. Besides that, it beats any gym workout hands down...whew...:)


9/21/2012 11:37:34 PM

“There are two types of people in this world…’Doers’ and ‘watchers’…”


9/20/2012 9:15:33 AM

It's a "pull up your bootstraps" and "put on your big girl panties"...kind of day.

I DO realize that (as a sub), you are often required to become the "sounding board" for others and provide service. You try your best to soothe, cojole and make everyone else feel better when they are in "a bad place"...BUT...when a sub needs that same support, where does she turn? 

Just a thought...


9/19/2012 11:03:07 PM

Ok, so I'm in the mood for quotes tonight...:)

two I love are....

"I'll sleep when I'm dead" - Warren Zevon

and...

"Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former." - Albert Einstein


9/18/2012 11:44:11 AM

Saw this on another profile and totally agree with it... 

"Don't spend your life trying to convince anyone of your worth. If they can't see it for themselves, then you are not in their line of vision."

 


9/14/2012 11:51:02 PM

Sometimes what you have been looking for has been there all along...:)


9/11/2012 10:38:20 AM

It would appear that those I care about the most have no clue...sigh.


9/1/2012 10:43:37 PM

As much as I attempt to keep "life" as uncomplicated as possible, it seems to become yet more complicated. I begin to wonder if it is me, or those that I  associate with. As a submissive, I appear to be making all the decisions, which further confuses me. I am not expecting a response from anyone...just venting.


8/29/2012 9:05:18 AM

In case you don't think it's obvious. Did you even ATTEMPT to read (or skim) my profile before you sent me a message? This is the question I ask myself after reading half of the messages that I receive....sigh. My guy brain says no...i.e...surf around, view pictures, get a boner, send message...rolling eyes...:) 


8/28/2012 10:30:47 AM

It is amazing to me how much better your outlook on life can be when you surround yourself with positive (versus negative) people...it's a no brainer...:)


8/22/2012 8:44:28 AM

I feel the need to post something today... I am extremely lucky to have met some of the best people on this site. Sure there are the wackos...but the majority have been sane, safe, honest and real. I am thankful for that.


8/20/2012 4:20:16 PM

You ever feel like you just can't do anything right?


8/18/2012 11:09:29 PM

Let me stress some points just to simplify things.... 

1) If you are married, do not contact me.

2) If you are in a relationship with someone who has no clue what you are up to, do not contact me.

3) If you live more than an hour and a half away, do not contact me.

4) If you are looking for just a "play partner", do not contact me.
5) If you are looking for someone to "take care of you" in your old age, do not contact me. (unless you are a millionaire, with one foot in the grave and want to sign everything over to me....lol)

6) If you think you can dazzle me with bullshit...don't....you won't. 

more to come.....:)

 

 

 


8/15/2012 10:08:21 PM

You can't fuck with someones head if you aren't allowed in it.


8/13/2012 9:39:10 AM

The difference between 'involvement' and 'commitment' is like an eggs-and-ham breakfast:

the chicken was 'involved' - the pig was 'committed'. -Anon 


8/12/2012 10:02:50 PM

We must live for the few who know and appreciate us, who judge and absolve us, and for whom we have the same affection and indulgence. The rest I look upon as a mere crowd...from whom there is nothing to be expected but fleeting emotions. - Sarah Bernhardt


7/30/2012 11:11:38 PM

Do I lean more towards being a slave if I want someone to be in absolute control of me (mind, body, and actions) when I am in their presence? Outwardly...extremely independent... but in THEIR presence...whatever THEY need, require or demand me to be? a toy?

Could I possibly be a submissive to some, but a slave to others?


7/29/2012 10:42:29 PM

If my gazebo could talk, what stories it would tell...mmmm...mmmm...wink...:)


7/29/2012 9:43:16 AM

Note to self:  Waxing should only be done by professionals. Holy shit!


7/27/2012 8:41:42 AM

Why is it that when a sub is truly “submissive” she is labeled a slut, but when she isn’t submissive enough, she is labeled bitch. I am in a no win situation here.


7/25/2012 11:44:06 PM

"Separate the wheat from the chaff".


7/25/2012 10:43:58 AM

My body will follow my mind...wink.


7/23/2012 10:07:16 PM

Thank you T....evil grin.


7/17/2012 10:50:18 AM

Pet peeves....just a couple (among a few)

1) Vague profiles that say absolutely nothing and not a pic in sight. This would also include profiles that DO have pics, but are of your.....uhmmmm....shoe, cat, eyeball, blade of grass in your frontyard (yawn)...you get the idea...:)

2) Someone wanting "online only" BDSM encounters. WTF is that anyways?


7/16/2012 10:29:45 PM

Venting....  

Many will claim they are a Dom on this site, when in all actuality they are just selfish men (wolves in sheep's clothing) that want their way. There is a HUGE difference between the two. Thank God I have learned the difference. I am looking for someone that cares for my welfare, as much as they care about their own. Someone who takes pride in their property and is proud to show it off. One who would take care of me like they would wax a new car or motorcycle...:) In return, I would be honored to perform(and attempt to be what you desire me to be) for many years to come....


7/15/2012 11:12:53 AM

Spell check is a wonderful feature.... 

I will be the first one to raise my hand and  state that I am far from perfect, BUT when I read a profile or receive a message and a high percentage of the words are misspelled...it just bugs the hell right out of me.

One...if you ARE intelligent (or claim to be) and you can't take the time to make sure what you write is spelled correctly then you won't have the time (or attention to detail) that I need or require.

Two...no matter how intelligent you are (or claim to be), misspelled words make you look like a dumbass...

Don't get me wrong, we all have our bad days...and it appears, some more than others...:)


7/5/2012 5:40:34 PM

Sometimes you have to be your own hero, because sometimes the people you can't live without, can live without you.


7/3/2012 7:26:22 AM

I have found the need to take a break from "this lifestyle" and everything  it "supposedly" encompasses...:(


7/1/2012 7:46:49 PM

Coasting...


6/18/2012 6:53:56 AM

Comparing a Canadian strip club to an American one is like comparing hamburger to filet mignon.  

Once you've gone to a Canadian strip club, all others fade into the background...lol. Eye candy for sure....yummy....Tongue Out

 


6/9/2012 11:21:44 PM

Just a word of advice….if your mental well-being relies solely on you being able to contact someone else 24/7….you may want to buy a ticket to the show “Welcome to reality”.  I have some spare tickets if you need them…


5/28/2012 6:30:35 PM

Au contraire....rudeness on CM?....never...:)

It doesn't take long to realize why so many submissivess and slaves run screaming from this site. Just a note....for all you "fantastical", "better than sliced bread" Doms out there....if you DO choose to be rude, at least use proper spelling and grammar.  That way you don't look quite as much like a complete idiotic asshole.

Once again, I consider myself extremely lucky to have met someone from this site that I truly connect with. Brains are soooooo important when it comes to the "D/s" realm.

Final statement for now...if you ARE stupid, you WILL attract stupid. It is a fact of life...realy...lol. For some of you out there, you probably don't even realize it.


5/25/2012 8:15:25 AM

My opinion only…. I believe that no matter how strong a person is, if another person (a sub) relies on them solely for their emotional well-being, it can become overwhelming and stifling to the Dom.  They (the Dom) may feel the need to look for alternative ways that THEY can ultimately relax, let go or recharge. Although they (the Dom) say they want someone to rely/depend on them completely, they may tire of it quickly when they realize the full potential of what that entails. In turn, the one seeking the emotional support (because the Dom has required nothing less) becomes lost as soon as that support appears to be unavailable because they have become accustomed to that requirement.  I apologize for the many words, but I found the need to vent…it’s what I do....


5/20/2012 6:36:48 PM

I just spent another wonderful weekend with my favorite person in the whole world...my Dom. What else could a girl possibly ask for?....:)


5/16/2012 10:05:45 PM

I have found that a true D/s relationship transcends far beyond the physical. The physical aspect (although extremely important) actually becomes secondary and  a bi-product of the "real" turn on...the mental aspect. Again...just my opinion...:)


5/3/2012 10:20:11 AM

Considering all that occurs (and is said) on this site, I would like to make it known….again….how sincerely grateful I am to have met my One.  He is the lifeboat that appears when I'm drowning and the hand extended when I’m just about to teeter off the cliff. He is everything to me. 


4/27/2012 11:28:19 AM

I just want to make it common knowledge that yes, I am owned, and yes, my Dom reads everything that I put on my journal. If He didn't approve, it wouldn't be posted....enough said.  


4/26/2012 9:17:26 PM

It appears that some of us on here have forgotten the importance of common courtesy, etiquette and manners. Occasionally I become invisible for the soul purpose of getting away from the mindless, seemingly non-educated and rude assholes on this site. Really?....some of you guys need to be given the Doms "Pick-up Line Hall of Shame" award. I can't believe the shit some of you guys throw out and expect a "real" submissive (with a brain) to respond to..rolling eyes. Venting....


4/23/2012 10:14:35 AM

I was asked a question as follows…. Do you think that a sub could change their “preference” and become a slave or a Domme? My answer is yes. I believe we all can change our “preference” based on our needs.  

 

As a sub, if you have a “weak or indecisive” Dom/Domme, feel that you are not getting enough “guidance/attention”, or worse yet, that YOU are always in control, you are going to seek out others in order to fulfill that deep down need “of relinquishing control”. This may require that you become “Dommish” in some form or fashion to fulfill that goal or need. Harder, but still possible is a sub going totally in the slave direction. If a Dom/Domme is extremely strong, I believe a sub would be able to do that and give up all decision making, but in my opinion, that would be very rare.

 

A sub walks a fine line. If they are too submissive, they risk the possibility of not getting what THEY need out of the relationship….focusing entirely on the Dom/Dommes needs…i.e….a slave. However, if they sometimes become “Dommish” and state their needs, there is a chance that they will be viewed as a difficult and opinionated sub…..one to be avoided.

 

 I believe that the very reason people choose to be “switches” is so that they aren’t “key-holed” into one category or another. This allows them to change their preference based on their needs.  Again, all of this is just my opinion.  


4/20/2012 10:14:04 AM

While I'm at it... 

 

Why the hell would I receive a message from a submissive male asking the following (i.e....5 minutes after I make my profile visible...btw) 

"Hi, Is Master bi and does he like sub males around too?"
Regards,
Matt 
 

ARRRRRGHHHHHHHH!!!!!! Just shoot me and get it over with...PLEASE!


4/20/2012 9:43:46 AM

It is a real shame that a submissive girl into this lifestyle has to "hide" their profile on several occasions just to take a breather from the assholes and "players" who constantly barrage you with bullshit on this site....sigh.


4/10/2012 10:22:13 PM

Where you find true friendship, you find true love...and I've found both. I'm a lucky girl....:)


4/5/2012 11:42:16 AM

I just don't get it....read a profile which states the following>>>>> 

"I TAKE MY ONLINE OWNERSHIP VERY SERIOUSLY NO GAMES. I expect alot of my slaves. As we bond ONLINE, I expect real life experiences such as: rewards, pictures, and punishments. 

seriously? real life? sigh....

 


3/11/2012 10:22:35 PM

Another great weekend with my fantastic Dom. What else could a girl possibly ask for?...Thank you Sir  {#}


3/8/2012 11:03:40 AM

I have said this and will say it again. Technology today  is sooooo fantastic! Without it, I would have never met the my true Dom, friend and love of my life.  I consider myself one of the luckiest and most fortunate subs on this site.  Yes, we have our ups and downs, but we find our way back to eachother each and every time. Thank you Sir, for choosing me. I am so grateful...:){#}


2/13/2012 10:45:24 AM

I have been guilty of "wearing my heart on my sleeve' in this journal. I do this more than most. It is what I am and I can be no other way. On that note, I would like to say that I feel anyone that thinks there is NOT a particular amount of turmoil in any relationship (that truly matters) is delusional. There will be disagreements and mistakes made, but the question that always surfaces is this...can we live without eachother? The answer to that is yes, however, do we WANT to live without eachother?....the answer is obvious.


2/7/2012 9:42:28 PM

The changes in this profile reflect OUR decision to move in a positive direction and decrease potential distractions. If you have any questions about the changes, please refer them to guynupstateny714.

Please respect OUR decision. If you DO have a comment, please keep it positive. All negative comments or attempts to meet will be ignored.


2/3/2012 9:04:16 PM

I am not searching or meeting with anyone at this time. Life has become increasingly hectic and I need to focus on myself for a while. Thanks.


2/2/2012 8:43:39 AM

I feel the need to stress these points in my profile…

I am not a jealous person and require the same from another.  I participate fully in the swing lifestyle (please ask if you don’t know what that is), but to present, have not been able to “combine” that successfully with my D/s desires.

I search for a person that realizes I am a true slut at heart and one who recognizes and accepts my need to fulfill that desire.  Someone who can watch me be sexually active (or even direct me to be) with another (male or female) and not feel it is a “threat” to our D/s dynamic.

I am looking for someone that is strong enough to let me be me and not feel that I am challenging their authority. I am looking for someone that knows that they are ultimately “the One” in control and that my total being and devotion lies with them at the end of the day and for a lifetime.

……For whatever reason, people are under the impression that they can change my way of thinking or who I am. They think that if I could change in order to fit within “their mold” I would be perfect for them. I DO wish to “fit” into someone else’s mold, but their needs must correspond with my needs in order for me to be remotely happy. I am willing to “compliment” their mold and attempt to make them happier than they have ever dreamed. I can only wish for the same in return.

Please accept me for what I am and not for what you think I need to be in order to make you happy. It needs to be what makes “US” happy….


1/29/2012 9:29:09 PM

Marks on the body pale in comparison to marks on the heart.


1/27/2012 10:29:50 PM

Do people proofread their profiles? Are we in that much of a hurry that we throw correct spelling and grammar out the window? I am far from being an "English wizard", but I'm amazed at what I see on this site. You can have the most amazing pictures, but if you can't spell dog....it's a no-go....at least in my book. It can be a total turn off.{#}


1/26/2012 11:13:27 AM

Venting…..

I think that there are those that don’t realize just how “exhausting” it can be to be a “true” submissive. You, as a submissive, “give” so much in your everyday life….trying to be the perfect wife, mother, significant other, daughter, employee …etc…but you are also required to be the perfect submissive….and willing to give even more.  Sometimes you feel that you can’t possibly “give” another inch without breaking. That, in my opinion, is where the Dom should step in and pick you up. HE should be the one to take you in his arms, tell you everything will be ok and let you know that he genuinely appreciates what you are to him. HE should be telling you what he can do for YOU. He should not be whining and reminding you of all your shortcomings, to include letting you know what else you need to do in order to make HIM happy. HE should be taking care of YOU.  As a submissive, I am offering myself as a gift. I would hope that someone would appreciate that gift. I also believe that someone out there understands me. To think that there isn’t makes me overwhelmingly sad.   

Done venting….


1/23/2012 8:21:47 PM

Some things need repeating....

....if you are over 2 hours away, chances are I will not respond.

....even less of a chance if your first message to me is rude, vulgar and lacks taste.


1/19/2012 10:21:15 AM

The insecurities of a Dom should never limit the potential of a sub. Being a "strong" sub and maintaining your identity can sometimes feel like an insurmountable task....but IS possible. I have to believe that. {#} 


1/13/2012 8:37:02 AM

Uhhhhmmm....here is a new concept. BEFORE you send someone a message, you may want to actually READ their profile. Some of us DO spend the time to be as specific as possible so that others don't have to draw their own conclusions.  Just sayin....{#}


1/7/2012 11:28:43 AM

Fall seven times, stand up eight    - Japanese Proverb  {#}


1/7/2012 12:38:19 AM

HE has won and part of my spirit has died. Either I will be "reborn" or succumb to my fate.....arrrrgggghhhh {#}


1/3/2012 7:58:09 AM

I am using this forum to apologize to my previous Dom. Much has been said and lessons have been learned, but the fact remains that we have an extremely different viewpoint when it comes to sexuality. Thus the reason my profile must change dramatically. The furthermost thing that I want to do is confuse someone at to "what I am all about". I will rebuild this profile after some serious contemplation and it may be in bits and pieces. It is a learning process and I thank anyone who reads this for your understanding....{#}


1/1/2012 7:54:32 PM

If you are required to change something about yourself in order for someone to love you, it isn't love.


12/31/2011 11:54:32 PM

HE told me tonight that I am a worthless piece of shit and have been nothing but a waste of time for for him for 2+ years....Happy New Year to me....sigh.


12/15/2011 9:46:39 AM

Situation: I get a request from someone asking me to add them to my circle of friends. I have never spoken with this person and don't know them from Adam. I need to make a decision to add them or not. Really? Get a clue. 


12/12/2011 10:37:41 PM

The ongoing battle of an "inner" submissive who has an "outer" dominant shell is trying to find a balance that works. The "inner" needs a strong Dom, the "outer" needs a "superhuman" one. I am finding it increasingly difficult to fulfill the needs and expectations of all those around me, while stifling my own. Although I try, I will never be a perfect mother, daughter, nurse, or submissive. I am exhausted.


11/24/2011 3:19:08 PM

It is time for something positive on this journal....and with that...I will say, Thank you Sir.{#}


10/30/2011 6:34:43 AM

I have become painfully aware that we are truly a "use and throw away"... i.e. disposable society.


10/13/2011 11:53:43 PM

If there is one thing I've learned...it has been to rely on myself and to be my own best friend.  


10/7/2011 7:29:24 AM

I recently read a profile that made me disturbed/perturbed enough to become "visible" and write in my journal....just venting...per usual....of course...{#}

A Dom wanting a sub/slave to give up "everything" emotionally and physically so that HE could mold them into what HE needed them to be with absolutely no limits. I believe that he used the term "fuckmeat" very often. There is nothing wrong with that scenerio from a sub or slave perspective, right?....BUT THEN.....he continues to explain how he is in a sexless marriage and that he has a new baby and how THAT/THEY will always have priority in his life.

I am having really hard time wrapping my mind around the concept that someone can expect another person to give up all and full control/trust...mentally or physically...when they have "other obligations".  They are obviously in a "sexless marriage" for a reason and the first thought that comes to my mind is "lack of control", however, they want someone else to give up "all" and "trust THEM" in order for them to be happy? Speaking from a sub (and single female perspective)...is it me or is something wrong with this concept? To me it is just another case of a married man looking for something on the side and justifying it in HIS mind by covering it all over with the "the D/s blanket".  Just sayin....

I also feel the need to add that I am soooooooo thankful that I am involved with a Dom that TOTALLY gets me and and who I trust and respect with my emotions, my life and my soul. There is no doubt in my mind that I am his first priority...not second, not third...as he is mine.....the way it should be in a true D/s relationship.


9/30/2011 8:53:52 AM

What I am not, have not been and will never be  >>>  Definition....Perfect...a : being entirely without fault or defect : flawless


9/18/2011 10:28:40 AM

"Don't wait for the one you can live with, wait for the one you can't live without."   - Unknown


9/15/2011 6:10:01 PM

This lifestyle is obviously not meant for me. I am more confused today than ten years ago, when I first recognized my "tendencies" and desires. I KNOW I am naturally a sub at heart, but I have no idea of what that truly means because I have not been shown or taught in the way that makes sense to me.  It may just be time to recognize failure, throw in the towel and call it quits. Vanilla world here I come....{#}


9/14/2011 11:54:36 PM

Lesson learned... Don't rely on someone else to make you happy...ever.


9/13/2011 12:27:49 AM

Hindsight has a tendency to come around and fuck you right in the ass....


7/24/2011 10:33:40 PM

I have not felt the need to write in my journal for a long time and there is a reason for that.....feeling content and moving in a positive direction is one HUGE reason...Thank you Sir....{#}


7/7/2011 9:24:16 AM

Crazy?...a little. Happy?...yes. {#}


6/21/2011 11:20:51 PM

The greatest sadness is the inability of a sub to make her Master happy....


6/19/2011 4:54:39 PM

Is it just me or is there anyone else out there who could care less about pics that someone has on their profile from 20 years ago? {#}


6/16/2011 7:42:45 PM

I removed the "taking photos" comment off my profile. It was drawing too many comments and suggestions. Bottom line is that I'm still only chatting at this time. Thanks.


6/13/2011 8:02:51 AM

Just venting AND those that know me won't be offended...

BUT...why is it that men ALWAYS expect a woman to "dress up" for them(sometimes even on the first meet) when they themselves feel it is perfectly ok to show up in some old jeans and a T-shirt? All I'm saying is...don't expect me to go through the extra motions of "getting ready" if you don't give a shit about what YOU look like....unless of course I can meet you at the door with old jeans and a T-shirt...hee hee.


6/10/2011 6:13:11 AM

Boundtoplease50 <<<<< sometimes longs for a good old-fashioned dinner and movie date...sigh.


6/9/2011 4:39:26 PM

Ok, here we go....and I apologize ahead of time to those that prefer cyber to real time...BUT...if you tell someone to do something...i.e....wear this color of panties tomorrow, refrain from masturbating, stand on your head and whistle dixie...do you REALLY think they are going to do it or just TELL you that they did it? OMG...where oh where has all the common sense gone...:) Seriously? K, blast away...


6/8/2011 12:23:34 AM

Have you ever had a best friend, brother/sister, or cousin that you could totally be yourself in front of and never feel like they would disown you if you acted stupid or goofy? If you are in a relationship and you DON'T feel that way, you are in the wrong relationship.


4/13/2011 11:17:52 AM

The more time I spend on this site, the more I realize how thankful I am to be in a relationship with a Dom that understands what safe and SANE really means... among so many other things. Thank you Sir.


4/5/2011 9:39:04 PM

My survival is linked directly to His happiness....as it should be.  


4/4/2011 9:48:26 PM

"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly."

-Sam Keen-

 


3/28/2011 11:04:43 PM

Please do not give me advice on what a meaningful D/s relationship requires to succeed, if you are in a marriage or in a relationship that you yourself have to "work around" in order to live this lifestyle. This only shows me that you are unwilling to follow your true desire, unable to control your own situation, and expect others to work around your "baggage" in order for YOU to be happy. Enough said and good luck....


3/24/2011 10:22:26 AM

Venting here....

Tribute? I am trying to understand this concept. I've seen it requested by many Dommes and even a few Doms. Let me get this straight. You want someone pay you or give you something of value for your services..correct? Somehow the word prostitution comes to mind. On the flip side, there will always be some desperate wrench to pay for something that they couldn't get otherwise...touche'. 


3/23/2011 10:29:28 AM

To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved.

- George MacDonald

 

 


3/22/2011 7:17:14 AM

If you are in a relationship where you base every decision on how your partner may react to it, you are probably in the right relationship.


3/16/2011 7:47:27 AM

Life is good!!!!....woohoo....{#}


3/10/2011 8:06:07 AM

If you don't get along with someone as a friend, how could you possibly think you would get along as a Dom, Domme, sub or slave? Is it me or am I looking at this from a skewed point of view?


3/9/2011 7:38:14 PM

For anyone that may be offended, find fault or adversly comment on what I write in my journal I have three things to say...1) Do not read my journal 2) Do not comment on another journal if you rarely/if ever write on your own and 3) Go f*** yourself. Come to think of it, that is probably ALL you have been able to do....f*** yourself....thus the comments...:) You guys just bring out the best/worst in me...{#}


3/9/2011 3:04:02 PM

The best birthday present of all is spending time with the one you love...Thank you Sir.  {#}{#}


3/4/2011 10:50:53 PM

When things are "right" it is a wonderful thing. I am truly happy, focused and content. Thank you Sir.


2/20/2011 7:58:05 AM

A vent.... 

People do a lot of complaining on this site because they claim that no one really meets and no one is "for real". There are complaints of endless emails, scammers, bots, people wanting money and game players. 

However, these are the same people that when you DO take a chance and meet them, have such high expectations that Jesus himself couldn't live up to them.   Point being is this....there ARE real people (with faults) that DO meet on here and I am one of them. (think about it...out of all the people you contact on here...how many have you ACTUALLY met) BUT...if you expect perfection,  you will be disappointed. We are just human after all. Yes, even you.


2/18/2011 10:53:52 PM

So let me understand this concept.... If you have pictures on this site that include another person...you are being trashy, BUT if you have pictures of yourself in a compromising position...i.e...tied up, that is ok. Problem is...who the hell took the picture of you tied up? The phantom camera man?...rolling eyes...


2/18/2011 7:56:46 AM

Those that jump to conclusions and attempt to lead without compassion or guidance....lead alone. Withdrawal of ones self at the beginning of a relationship is a sure sign of possible abandonment later, when you will need them the most. Tell me again, why I shouldn't fly solo?


2/16/2011 11:05:03 PM

C'est la vie!....or simply said....Shit happens...sigh.


1/30/2011 6:15:10 PM
~ Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending. ~    
 
Maria Robinson





1/26/2011 12:12:34 PM

If you have seen someone naked, you have seen them vulnerable...if you have seen them cry, you have seen their soul.


1/22/2011 10:16:37 PM

Inaction is an action.


1/17/2011 11:00:33 PM

I asked permission to echo two phrases that a friend has used because they are sooooo true:

"Never allow someone to be your priority if they see you only as an option."

                     and 

 "Inaction is indeed an action."

Thanks and hugs to "L" for understanding and letting me use these...:)

 

 

 

 

 


1/17/2011 8:07:10 AM

When a Dom forgets the art of seduction, he loses the interest of 75% of submissives on this site. If you are looking for a slave, so be it, but I am not a slave. Just saying....


1/16/2011 10:41:40 PM

Remember, people will judge you by your actions, not your intentions.  You may have a heart of gold - but so does a hard-boiled egg.  ~Author Unknown


1/15/2011 9:15:22 PM

It is no surprise to me why many give up on the lifestyle. One can be "in your face honest" and still not be understood. Is it really THAT complicated?


1/15/2011 6:25:27 AM

Once again, I am left wondering if there are any Doms that believe in "dating and seduction" anymore. It appears that most expect a submissive to be happy with a "fuck and run" attitude....sigh. Am I showing my age? Does this mean I am not a true submissive? Does it ALL have to be "doom and gloom"? There are times that I wish I could be a "Dom for a Day" because I'd blow you all out of the water...:)


1/11/2011 10:15:57 PM

Fear the ones that you trust the most, for they are the ones that will let you down the hardest. Another brick in the wall....

 

To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead....Bertrand Russell



 


1/9/2011 9:57:34 AM

I am withdrawing for a period of time (time length unknown). I am placing a message here for those that I normally converse with. I apologize to those that I've set up meets with in the near future, but am unable to do so at this time. I do not wish and will not discuss why I am taking a break. Stay safe.


1/6/2011 6:18:35 AM

I've been chastised for showing and sharing my emotions on this site. How sad is that? I guess some Doms prefer the "bots" they so often complain about after all. Good luck with that....


1/4/2011 8:13:19 AM

The phrase "true love never dies." is sooooo corny, but so true....no matter how much you attempt to hold the pillow over it's face....:)


1/2/2011 8:46:46 PM

The problem with love is that once you let someone climb into your heart, you have to be prepared that they may damage it when they climb back out. {#}


12/30/2010 11:52:26 PM

I am an excellent chameleon, but everytime I change colors...some of it is lost in the wash.  It won't be long before you can see straight through me, like half the other "numb" and "translucent" subs on this site. Is this what it's all about? I desperately need someone to show me the difference.....


12/30/2010 10:05:07 PM

Please tell me that this New Year will be far less complicated than the last....sigh. Happy New Year everyone!{#}


12/29/2010 10:55:27 PM

There is something to be said about the test of time....


12/27/2010 12:37:17 PM

Hmmm...New Year resolutions..any ideas?


12/23/2010 7:39:54 AM
An indecisive Dom is comparable to a blind surgeon...need I say more?                       

12/20/2010 8:23:44 AM
I'm tired of being thrown a bone. At this point, I need a whole skeleton...

12/18/2010 2:45:05 PM

I am by far no expert, but I've had my share of first meets and thought I'd jot down a couple tips for Doms meeting subs for the first time: 

1) Do not suggest that she drives to you and meets you at YOUR location. Hidden meaning for this is....a) you don't own a car b) you don't care enough to go the distance to meet her c) you are cheap or d) you have someone else lined up at your location just in case it doesn't work out.  

2) Do not expect her to allow you to Dom her on the first meet...AND more important...do not expect sex.  

3) Do not forget that she is a woman. If you don't forget that one fact, you may interest her in another meet.  

4) Do not think that you are all that and a bag of chips. You aren't. If you were, you wouldn't still be looking. (goes both ways and believe me I'm not...what you see is what you get) 

5) If a sub is bi, do not talk about a possible threesome on the first meet. HUGE turn off. Build your own harem...and good luck on that.  

6) Appear to be interested and find out a little about HER. This does not include, what size butt plug she is able to withstand, if she is happy spending time in a closet for hours on end, or wants to get fucked by a dog.  

Be aware that I am a bit tongue-in-cheek and those that know me, know that. However, I probably have experienced all of the above...and no...I either didn't meet them in the first place or at any rate, ever again. 

Happy holidays everyone! 

 


12/13/2010 6:20:30 AM

Saw this somewhere. Liked it.

 

The power of submission

lies not in the ability

to kneel before another,

to give over one's body

or in the wearing of a collar.

 

The power of submission

can be found only in the heart

of one who gives her love

to another freely

knowing what joy and pain

will come of it.

 

 


12/11/2010 10:21:44 PM
The day you quit crying is the day you quit caring. I haven't stopped crying yet....

12/9/2010 6:58:57 PM
quandary [ˈkwɒndrɪ -dərɪ]
n pl -ries
a situation or circumstance that presents problems which are difficult to solve; a predicament; a dilemma; a state of doubt or uncertainty, especially with regard to the choice of alternatives; a state of uncertainty; a situation in which it is difficult to decide what to do.

12/8/2010 11:44:00 PM

OK...I PROMISE this is the last of the sappy/crappy lovesick shit....just have to get it out...you know? 

"I would have followed him to hell if he asked me to and with all he put me through, maybe I did." 

"I've convinced everyone else that I don't love you anymore. Now all I need to do is convince myself."

 "The day you finally decide to love me will be the day after the day I have given up on chasing you."

and finally...... 

"Just let me ask you something...if I happen to walk out of this room right now and never come back, and just forget everything and leave it all behind would you be okay with that? Because I have 5 steps til I close this door and you have 5 seconds to make up your mind...starting now..."

God, I hope someone can relate to this so I don't feel like a TOTAL asshole....sigh

 

 


12/7/2010 8:53:04 AM

Ok, so I am getting over a broken heart and need to vent. The only way I can cope is with sappy/crappy quotes....please be patient with me.... 

"I am not afraid of heights, I am afraid of falling. I am not scared of the dark, I am scared of what's in it. I am not afraid of love, I am afraid of not being loved back." 

"It is really painful to say goodbye to someone that you don't want to let go, but its even more painful to ask someone to stay if they don’t want to." 

"You know you love someone when you want them to be happy even if their happiness means that you're not part of it." 

Ok...done...until next time....


12/7/2010 12:17:22 AM
It has to be a bad thing when (more often than not) you find yourself talking to your ex at 3AM in the morning? I mean, you couldn't stand them for a reason, right? But you find yourself unloading all your pent up garbage just because they will listen.  Is this what it's all about?...sigh.

12/5/2010 7:11:38 AM
Don't ever, EVER let your guard down. There are those that will try to get under your skin and eat their way out from the inside....leaving an empty shell.

12/4/2010 8:07:18 PM

Don't mind me....I'll be the one in the corner "eating crow".... {#}


12/4/2010 2:53:35 PM

Aaaahhhh....there is nothing better than friends who are willing to help you lick your wounds and offer support (via message or phone call) after an angry journal tirade...

With his permission, I quote one of my trusted friends... 

"I can hear the marbles rolling around that cigar box from here! Like I've said before; you're too damn smart and too damn good for most of the apes here." 
 
...thanks for the good laugh GWP...:)...hugs

12/3/2010 10:59:50 PM

Heaven forbid if you have an actual life, deal with real issues or have down-to-earth feelings on this site. If you do, you will be chewed up and spit out by the "so-called superiors" that apparently have life all figured out. Wow, that must be nice.   

Hey, does anyone have a pair of rose-colored glasses I can borrow? Better yet...a few million so I can hand them out to the rest of the people that DO NOT have perfect lives?  

Shit happens...life happens...it is not a flawless world. Everything will not always fit into that perfect box of yours and all heartbeats will not synchronize to your own.  


11/27/2010 12:27:20 AM

Two things today....unrelated....

1) If you are not somewhat HWP (height and weight proportionate) chances are, I will not be attracted to you.  If you wonder what I consider to be HWP...ask....but here are some subtle hints....you cannot see your shoes when they are on your feet, you "feel for" instead of actually SEE your dick, or you worry about what you look like naked....or maybe just do not give a damn.  Again, I am in no way perfect and far from a "spring chicken", but I DO try to maintain some sort of proper proportions. I figure if I don't like my body, neither will you.   

2) Newsflash:  I am in the process of trying to develop a "no worry" and "casual" attitude. I am doing this because (although I AM a sub) I have found myself trying to "control" and "guide" situations and relationships. By me doing so, the Dom get pissed because they feel I am trying to top from the bottom and I am become frustrated because I feel like I am the one in control. (I have absolutely no desire to be a switch) So far, this has not led to a positive outcome. So, bottom line, tell me when you want to see me, make a plan, and (for Gods sake) take control....


11/25/2010 12:51:54 AM

If the Olympics offered an event called "fence sitting", I'd win the Gold medal. While I'm at it, I could probably name the Silver and Bronze winners too.

Really...there ARE two choices...something or nothing? 
                                                           sex or celibacy?         
                                                           life or death?
                                                           challenge or boredom?
                                                           action or stagnancy?

Feel free to add to the list, because it is a miiiiiiiile long......rolling eyes....
                                                           
                                                                                                 


11/23/2010 9:50:14 PM

I've forgotten the last time I've felt a cane or a flogger. I guess that pretty much says it all...sigh.


11/22/2010 11:22:32 PM

It appears that some view me to be weak, unstable and indecisive on this site because I share my feelings (i.e. "spill my guts", "bare my soul", etc. ) 

To that I would say....fuck you...but then again, I'm unstable, right?....:)

Seriously, I would much rather "put myself out there" than to hide behind a false facade (as many do) hoping someone will NOT notice my insecurities. If you accept my incecurities, you accept me, right?  How much more real can it get?


11/21/2010 10:44:49 PM

This may sound "sappy" to some, and perhaps not appropriate for this site, but being that I work with the geriatric population, I'm going to say it anyways. Would you think otherwise?...:)

With the holidays fast approaching, remember there are those that don't have families to share it with. It can be an extremely depressing time of year for them. Give a smile, hold a hand, pat a back...that might be all it takes to get them through.


11/19/2010 10:54:21 PM

Call me old fashioned, but have we gotten to the point where no one believes in a real date anymore? It appears to me that the majority of Doms on this site consider it routine for a sub to be content with (and expect) being tied up and fucked on the first (and subsequent) meets without any effort on the Doms part....no questions asked.  Ok, so I get the whole submissive thing, but I am still a woman after all and a little thought goes a long way. You must keep in mind that I (the sub) make the final decision on who I will and will not meet again based on my (yes my) first impression, desires and needs....


11/16/2010 2:51:13 PM

Do you ever feel like you are the "layover" on someone's flight to their final destination?


11/16/2010 5:42:42 AM

This required repeating....

How could I possibly think that there would be a connection or relationship that would survive any hardship? Just call me naive, stupid and a dreamer....

add on....

It appears that if you are "bad" (unable to settle on "One")  you are a challenge, once you are "good" (and focus on "One") their interest fades....

WTF?

Ok...ready to move on now...


11/11/2010 9:21:53 PM

How could I possibly think that there would be a connection or relationship that would survive any hardship? Just call me naive, stupid and a dreamer.....


11/9/2010 11:17:43 PM

I am going to blow a gasket...{#}


11/2/2010 11:11:03 AM

Why is it that I can withstand a fair amount of physical pain, but emotional pain leaves me totally debilitated, crushed and exhausted?


10/31/2010 10:48:12 PM

Found....


10/29/2010 9:45:13 PM

Lost....


10/26/2010 6:28:57 AM

Just recently a friend (fellow sub) of mine mentioned their quandry (dislike?) for Dommes who ask for or require financial domination. I agree with her and decided to post my response to her on my journal as well.....fire away....

I've often wondered that myself. I'm referring to your last journal entry. Most female Dommes are asking for money or services (i.e. electrical, carpentry, handyman skills). Most Doms are just looking for control, however, there are a few out there that are asking for "domestic" services (i.e. cleaning, cooking, washing)...oh...and let's not forget the sex...lol.  Hmmmm....do you ever feel like we are going about this all wrong? Become a Domme and find a guy to sign over his bank account AND clean our house? Just kidding of course because this leopard could never change its spots, but makes you wonder, right? As in anything, there are the ones out there that have no clue what a true D/s relationship is and use the facade of being a Dom or Domme to reap their own financial or personal benefits...sigh.


10/19/2010 12:12:07 PM

I'm discovering that a D/s relationship without love is comparable to eating broken glass.{#}


10/15/2010 11:13:37 AM
Saw this on someone elses profile. Liked it. Changed it a little, not much.

"Water, water everywhere, but none is fit to drink."
 
You get it or you don't....

10/13/2010 10:48:16 AM

I wasn't a huge fan of the movie Forrest Gump...but that phrase "Stupid is as stupid does" has a certain ring to it.


10/12/2010 9:49:00 PM

Sorry to say there are some young Doms out there ruining it for the rest. Extremely inexperienced and rude. It amazes me to think that there are ones that automatically assume you are a man (impersonating a woman) if you don't accept cash, webcam, or yahoo. Get real already. Get some time under your belt and come back with some manners.


10/7/2010 9:54:57 PM
It all boils down to an age old question...

If you had to be stranded on an island with one person for the rest of your life...could you come up with a name?

10/6/2010 9:47:31 PM

Ok, it's time to roll up my sleeves, pull myself up by the boot straps and drive on....all of which are cliche phrases used during life and my time spent in the military. For those that don't know, my Mom suffered a stroke. I'm trying to deal with it.


10/5/2010 4:41:14 PM
At this moment in time, the lack of control in multiple areas appear overwhelming and insurmountable.......sigh

10/3/2010 6:44:44 AM

I hate hormones...


10/1/2010 6:02:52 AM
I want to thank the honorable people on this site. Someone contacted me and informed me that my picture was being used on another profile. They didn't have to, but they did. I may have never seen it.  Thanks again....:)

9/29/2010 8:17:27 AM
The physical side of D/s can be very tempting, but without the mental aspect, it will always be lacking. I am extremely addicted and attracted to a strong/true mind....

9/27/2010 11:26:26 AM
Would someone pleeeeeease guide me in the right direction....preferably by the hair...

9/24/2010 11:10:48 PM

This is probably irrelevant to this site and perhaps not appropriate, but I need to say something. I could no more drop an injured and helpless animal in the woods to "let nature take its course" than I could do the same thing to my own mother. If I am viewed as over sensitive because of that, so be it. A living being is a living being. If you aren't capable of showing compassion for simple things and can't do the "right" thing as needed, how could I ever think you would show compassion towards me? My only request would be to shoot me in the head before letting me suffer a slow agonizing death.  


9/23/2010 10:24:16 PM
Is it possible to have a successful D/s AND "vanilla" relationship...or does it have to be one way or the other? And if it IS possible...who makes the rules?

9/19/2010 11:30:10 PM
Although the thought of manipulating time, distance or space sounds like a fantastic idea...it is just that...a thought. Furthermore, that thought is unrealistic, fictional, and impossible. Some things just can not be changed.

9/18/2010 11:59:00 PM

Arrrrrghhhh!!!!!.....another late and restless night....


9/17/2010 11:31:12 PM

Collarme101.....READ a profile BEFORE contacting someone. Unless of course you want to appear to be as dumb as a box of rocks...then don't....:)  There is a whole lot of stupid out there...sigh.


9/14/2010 10:41:23 PM
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."

~ Unknown

9/12/2010 2:53:29 PM

It is a peculiar phenomenon....when something readily available suddenly becomes unavailable....it will either be replaced or forgotten.


9/11/2010 8:41:43 PM

Delay is a bitter tonic, but it increases appetite.

AUSTIN O'MALLEY, Keystones of Thought


9/10/2010 11:07:05 PM
Just when I leave, I come back for more....

9/9/2010 6:35:14 AM

Finding "your place" as a sub can be extremely stressful and confusing. Mixed messages from Doms only increase that anxiety. 

Who is waiting for who to take control of the situation?
 
Sometimes I wonder....


9/8/2010 6:26:19 AM
Looking for quality and not quantity...wink.

9/6/2010 4:58:21 PM

There is a difference between "attempting  to own someone" and "claiming ownership".

One requires more communication than the other...


9/6/2010 11:32:55 AM

There was a time that I looked forward to days off...what happened?


9/4/2010 9:51:55 PM
Remind me why I do this again? It seems like once someone gets your FULL attention and know you are ready to go "there" with them, THEY no longer feel the need to be attentive. It becomes a situation where THEY will contact you when THEY are available...and oh, btw be thankful when they do. A friend told me that they thought I am being tested by my Dom (as a sub) to see how I well react to aloofness and my reply was...."You know?....I never did very well with tests. I tend to go for the "multilple" choice."

9/3/2010 11:08:24 PM

Depression is not a weakness, it is a sign that you have been trying to be strong for too long.


9/3/2010 7:09:47 AM
Aaaaahhhh....back home again....:)

9/1/2010 6:42:05 AM

Taking a much needed break...


8/31/2010 9:25:55 AM
Trusting a menopausal woman to control her emotions is like trusting a tornado to mow your lawn....

8/30/2010 9:52:40 PM
I feel a time-out coming on....

8/30/2010 1:02:14 AM
I'm soooooo tired. Why can't I sleep? If only I  could find that on/off switch to my brain. Hmmmm...now where did I put that remote?

8/27/2010 11:19:10 PM

Am I the only one that feels it is sooooo OBVIOUS when someone DOES NOT read your profile?

Does it say I am not interested in long distance?

Does it say I do not want a 24/7?

Does it say this is only a sexual preference? 

OR....

Am I the one in La La Land and just write shit for the hell of it? Ignorant people annoy me. No...let me rephrase that...people that think I am ignorant  annoy me.

If you can not take the time to read a profile, it only shows that you will not take the time to make sure "both" in a relationship/session/scene are satisfied. 

Reminder....I AM NOT a slave. So when the first thing you say to me in a message is Hello Slave....you have just proven my point.

Ok, rant over....

Oh...sorry...one more thing....PLEASE USE SPELLCHECK!!!!  It is bad enough when someone obviously has not bothered to read your profile, but then you have to decipher what they wrote to figure that fact out....omg....lol.


8/24/2010 8:03:29 AM
It was requested, "nicely" I might add, that I remove my last post. I, however, feel that it expressed my feelings very well at the time I wrote it, so am leaving it. Did I mention that I'm bitchy lately? Those who know me would expect nothing less...:)

8/23/2010 11:33:13 PM
Ok...it is settled....

You have finally got what you wanted...

You no longer have to worry about making a "decision"...

I give up the fight, so that you do not have to...

I throw in the towel, so that you do not have to...

I surrender, so that you do not have to...

This way you can tell others that you were in control of the situation...

Blame me...it is easier...

Just say I am a stupid bitch that never understood what a "real" sub is all about...

It is what it is....right?




8/22/2010 9:38:39 AM
I have been through multiple divorces, had a baby, lost 100 lbs, quit smoking twice, and spent 20 years in the military...soooo will someone pleeeeeease tell me why the hell is it so DAMN hard to give up on a relationship that is driving us (both the Dom and myself) insane? WTF?

8/21/2010 11:31:41 PM
Rambling.....

This proposed lifestyle becomes more complicated by the day....

You can be totally clear about what it is you want, but there will always be someone else to read into it.

I think some problems today are caused by a lack of simplicity. For instance...at one time I am sure there was ONE kind of toothpaste, but now we have over 50 brands (and types..whitening, cavity fighting, sensitive) to choose from. More choices leads to complications.

Now apply that to BDSM...

Spanking   -   bare bottomed?, with panties on?, over the knee?, hard?, soft?...  

Restraints  -  rope?...leather?...hogtie?...spreadeagle? suspend?

Sometimes I just want to say....pleeeeeeease just hold me down, grab my hair and fuck the living shit right out of me. AFTER that, you can figure out if you want to tie me up with with quarter inch white rope or the half inch black one...OR....use the over the head gag harness or the bit gag....lol.  BUT, by all means, NEVER ask me what I want because if you do, you have just given me the control and that bores me. 

Sometimes a "simple" hard fuck can be great foreplay...hee..hee. Ok, enough venting for this go around...:)

8/15/2010 9:12:54 PM

I visited two different friends this weekend. Both had new puppies. It reminded me the importance of discipline. "Pets" without guidance and training become unruly. Without proper control, they will piss and shit all over your territory. If you leave them alone for extended periods of time, they may even bite the hand that feeds them.  Does anyone else see the correlation here? Woof..woof...hint...hint


8/14/2010 12:13:35 AM
I know there is the man/woman Dom/sub thing going on, but is it really so difficult to understand what another person desires?
 
If two people truly want to spend time together, wouldn't they try to do it at every available opportunity?
 
Is it possible to second guess yourself right out of a relationship?

I recently read this on a Doms profile describing the type of sub he is looking for. I hope he doesn't mind me using it here and if he does, I will delete it. I totally agree with his outlook:

"BDSM works best for me in terms of contrast: You're not really a powerless, helpless woman in real life. We both understand this. You make all your life-choices, earn your own money, and live exactly as you wish.  Yet deep down, you need a safe place to set the burden of choosing aside.  Weary of the day's constant decisions, you are ready, eager to let go...you feel more sexually alive when you don't have to decide at all.  You find your joy in just surrendering to my desire."

Well said....

8/13/2010 10:26:52 AM
Woohoo....weekend...feeling wicked...:)

8/12/2010 11:48:27 PM
Is the phrase "absence makes the heart grow fonder" true....or is it really that the cat wonders what the mouse is doing while they are away?

8/11/2010 9:31:23 PM
Don't ever put all your eggs in one basket...that way you won't be disappointed when you find the basket has a hole in it...

8/7/2010 10:05:44 PM
One step forward and two steps back....stepping back for awhile....

8/3/2010 12:08:58 AM
"If the only place where I could see you was in my dreams, I'd sleep forever." 



8/2/2010 6:37:16 AM
Aahhhhh....weekends can be sooooo cleansing....but....I really, REALLY need to feel the sting of a flogger on my ass (among other things). Hint...hint...wink.

8/1/2010 12:12:28 PM
How does one drop off the face of the earth (with no explanation) and then think it will not cause distress to someone that cares? 

7/31/2010 6:43:16 AM

They say women are hard to understand?

I say we don't hold a candle to some of the Doms on this site....rolling eyes....

The word drama comes to mind....


7/30/2010 10:51:02 PM
With todays technology, wouldn't you think you could get in touch with someone via email, text, or IM? And if you can't, what does that mean?

And....why am I trying to contact a Dom in the first place? Isn't he supposed to be contacting me?....hmmmm. 

Just my inner "subvoice" talking....

7/29/2010 11:39:01 PM

We will call this "more of the same"....or..."the same old bullshit"....or...."what the hell am I doing here at this time in the morning writing this when I should be sleeping again shit"....

Fuck...I am so frustrated and tired that I don't even want to deal with writing about what is bothering me. Not like me at all....

Just a thought:

Why is it that when I act in a way that is normal for me...and people KNOW it is my normal...they still insist on wanting me to change so that THEY can feel normal?!?!? I never did well with boxes....

Some say I speak Melanese. I would tend to agree at times...lol.



7/24/2010 11:09:06 PM
It is the late night....drank too much...needing to talk/be with someone mode that will be my ultimate end. I AM my own worst enemy.  And then the ex comes online and wants to talk....just fuckin perfect...NOT.

7/23/2010 10:23:52 PM
It takes such a small effort to let someone know that you truly care about them....amazing how many just don't get it. Does the D/s world really have to be so structured, so bleak?

7/21/2010 11:06:18 PM
I can't remember the last time I drooled uncontrollably...

7/20/2010 11:08:32 PM
Distance...hate it...

7/15/2010 6:30:08 AM
The possibility that "One" person can fill the empty spaces in your mind, heart and soul is very much a reality.

7/14/2010 10:57:19 PM
I've been in turmoil so long....feeling "right" seems like a dream. The combination of peace of mind and a sense of direction can be a wonderful thing....ty Sir...:) (before 2AM btw...wink)

7/11/2010 10:49:03 PM

.....a sigh of relief

.....a feeling of contentment

.....a place of belonging

.....a restful sleep

.....all is good


7/8/2010 12:16:55 AM
Thoughts:

Sleepless again....agonizing over choices.

Can I get off this fuckin Merry-Go-Round?

Definition of trust :  a firm belief in the honesty and reliability of another. Also...to believe, to hope  and to expect.

"True love cannot be found where it truly does not exist, Nor can it be hidden where it truly does." - anonymous quote

"My advice to you is not to inquire why or whether, but just enjoy your ice cream while it is on your plate." - Thornton Wilder


7/7/2010 11:53:43 AM
Multiple choice....

What does a submissive feel like the most?

a) a possession
b) a pawn
c) a fucktoy
d) all of the above

7/6/2010 11:52:41 PM
New horizons...new day...new direction...more to come....:)

7/6/2010 9:26:32 AM
Today is a good day....

I have talked to those that I love.

Happy tears, not sad tears....

7/5/2010 6:14:09 PM
When you are exposed to so many negatives, how do you remain positive?

7/5/2010 10:39:47 AM

Ok...silly, but funny....

Things that make you go hmmmm....

Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I think I'll squeeze these dangly things here and drink whatever comes out?"


 


7/4/2010 10:20:34 PM
Terrible funk today...

6/30/2010 11:45:41 PM
As stated...when it's good it's VERY good...when it's bad it's VERY bad. It is what it is, right?...wink.

6/30/2010 12:17:12 AM
Can't sleep...restless mind...thinking of you....

6/28/2010 8:49:33 PM
Drawn like a moth to a flame...

6/20/2010 8:43:54 PM

Back after a much needed respite.

Thoughts:

What can appear simple, is in fact quite complicated. 

flip of the coin....

If you keep things simple, they become less complicated.

A "controlled slut" is an oxymoron.

If all things are "kept on the table" expect some dirt with your food.
 


 




6/1/2010 8:21:51 AM
I've heard several submissives rave about what their Doms do for them...

I, on the other hand, want to know what I can do for my Dom...

5/26/2010 1:14:27 AM
One more thing....

If someone "allows" you into their life or space, view it as a true gift.

5/26/2010 12:47:58 AM
Not sure what I want to write here...

I need to go to bed, but have to unload some thoughts....most cliches, some not....

.....this coming from a nurse that works on an Alzheimer/Dementia nursing home unit...

enjoy what you have when you have it...

don't ever take things for granted....

take the extra time to understand and show you care...

don't sweat the small stuff....

have fun while you can...

appreciate good health....

love those that love you....and let them know you love them...before they are gone

don't be afraid to show your feelings or to cry...

you may not be able to control others, but you can control yourself...

if you laugh more than you cry, then shit ain't that bad...

so much more...and could go on...but tired...mentally and physically...sigh













5/24/2010 6:39:44 AM

I lost an extrordinary friend and lover yesterday. They say that time heals all wounds. I  hope that is true....


5/18/2010 7:10:05 PM

I'm posting at a normal hour...I must be  slipping...:)

Written by an unknown author (submissive):

"My mind is His, to expand, to explore, to know only as He can.
I have no secrets from Him… for secrets are a thing that would
keep me from being more perfectly His."


(my body may be elsewhere, but my mind is always on One)


5/18/2010 12:17:23 AM
Again...more random and unconnected thoughts...

1) I wish my arms were longer so I could spank myself....

2) I wish I could speak "Dominese" because I don't know what the fuck half of them are talking about. Psssst...don't think they do either...:)

3) Question....If you change yourself to the point of being what someone else wants you to be....why were they attracted to you in the first place?

4) I'm bi... Does that mean I have a million gfs on the side to fulfill your fantasy of a threesome?...hell no. Do your own legwork damn it. 

5) Why is my brain even functioning at this hour?

6) Sometimes I feel like it's the "blind leading the blind" on this site... If you don't trust own thoughts, feelings, desires (meaning not knowing WTF you want), don't expect me to.  The last time I checked, I'm not psychic...not to be confused with psycho...:P

7) Life is too short to be so serious. If you feel otherwise...move on...



5/16/2010 12:22:55 AM
Why do I always find myself sitting up at this hour, unable to sleep and trying to figure out what is expected of me? Is this what all subs do?...and if it is....do I want to be one?

5/14/2010 11:14:53 AM
Taking a break to figure out life. Yea, I know...fat chance.

5/12/2010 10:13:58 AM
No matter how bad it may seem...if you can still smile, laugh and communicate with someone you truly love...life is good. It helps when you can't keep your hands off them either......lol.

5/12/2010 12:00:43 AM
A true Dominant knows that if he is to take control of a submissives soul, mind, and body....he must first take a detour through her brain.

4/30/2010 10:32:58 AM
Ok...here we go again...rolling eyes...

I got called on the carpet by a Dom recently for meeting someone face to face from this site. Let me get this straight....or am I missing something here....isn't that the whole idea? He was repulsed at the thought that I met an "online" Dom. Saying that I "turned his stomach" and he was "repulsed" by my behavior. Even went as far to say he was looking for someone with class, education and common sense...meaning I lacked all those things. I wrote back, obviously, asking how he expected to meet any potential subs if he thought that meets were "repulsive"...oh, and surprise!!!...blocked...lol. Some of the people on here never cease to amaze me. I hope he has fun whacking his pud in the bathroom for the rest of his life....   Oops...I guess I am showing my lack of class and education by saying that...lmao.

4/27/2010 8:11:51 AM
Two things today.....maybe three....ok four

1) Do you REALLY think someone is going to let you tie them up or restrain them on the first meet if they have a brain cell left in their head? If you DO think that...move on...WTF?

2) I can't categorize myself as a cum slut or a pain slut...although I like a lot or a little of both. However, I CAN categorize myself as a plain good old fashioned slut. What does that mean? If you don't know, ask me.

3) I hate this saying, but it is so true... "You  catch more bees with honey"...blah, blah, blah. My interpretation...I don't respond to dickheads....

4) If you get me, you get me...meaning...if you want someone "for real"  here I am. Those that REALLY know me, know I don't do well with stupid....and they accept me as I am....

4/25/2010 4:54:03 PM
Ok, so you had a nice wedding or a nice prom. You may even have a big dick. And...I've seen every side of your face that I can possibly imagine....BUT...can you please show pictures of what you are actually into?

4/24/2010 10:03:13 PM
Going through a transition at this time. Bumpy road. Hoping to be back to my old self shortly. Healing in progress. Thanks for the kind words.

4/16/2010 10:49:53 PM
A sub without guidance or control is like a Dom without a sub to control....neither is content...

4/13/2010 11:06:56 PM
Can a true and controlled D/s relationship succeed if there is distance involved? I sincerely want to believe that it can....

4/6/2010 1:11:10 PM
Question....

If you have a whole profile stating that you are looking for a slave or a sub (with nothing up front at the beginning of the profile stating otherwise) and then at the END of the profile you say...."currently involved in a relationship"....what exactly does that mean? And if you are IN a relationship...why are you LOOKING for a slave or a sub?.... Just curious..

4/5/2010 9:33:36 PM
If you spend the time to send snide remarks to someones profile, at least have the guts to receive feedback and not block that person from responding....childish...especially from a so-called Dom.

4/3/2010 12:26:55 AM
Just another sleepless night battling with my own mind...

4/2/2010 10:34:57 AM
Speedbumps and potholes... Waiting to move forward... Waiting patiently on my knees for His guidance...

3/31/2010 12:37:20 PM
What an absolutely gorgeous day today...:) Finally got outside, pulled some weeds, placed some glazing globes and sat on the gazebo. Just what I needed....simple things to revive the mind, soul, and spirit....

3/31/2010 10:28:13 AM
Ok, if anyone cares, I addressed this same topic in Oct of last year....

People ask me..."How could I get more responses to my profile?"

My #1 answer to that question is.....PICTURES!!!!!

I don't care if it is a picture of your cat taking a shit in the litter box....PUT IT ON!!!!!

I totally ignore 75% of profiles without pics. Hellooooo...profiles with pics are the ones that catch your eye, right?

Hmmmmmm....choices....Do I look at the profile with the boring stats and no pics.....OR....at the one that shows someone with a dildo shoved up their ass, in a cage, dressed to the hilt in latex? Hmmmmm...let me think about this...rolling eyes...lmao

You want someone to be attracted to you. You want someone to get an idea of where you are coming from.
You want someone to know what YOU want or how you want to used.

The old saying goes....a picture speaks a thousand words....so true...

Put some pics on and show what you are into damn it....geesh....

3/29/2010 9:44:49 AM
Some will relate and some won't...

Misunderstood


Others see me

But, they don’t see

The heavy heart

Disjointed thoughts

Endless crying

They only see the

Self control 

Confidence
Independence and

Strength of mind

Feelings of

Helplessness

Uncontrollable anger

Hatred for oneself and

Worthlessness

Hurting those you love

Hurting yourself

Wanting to love

Without limits

Unconditionally

 

Restless mind

Restless spirit

Restless body

Restless soul

Misunderstood


3/23/2010 9:24:59 PM
Thoughts....

1) It hurts like hell when you lose someone because they have died, but I think it hurts more when you lose someone and they are still living.

2) If someone tells you that a relationship can work from a distance, don't believe them.

3) It's easier to cry in the dark.

4) It amazes me how old wounds can be reopened so easily.

So many more thoughts, but the "feeling well" has been depleted today...sigh

3/23/2010 1:14:10 PM
Two things today...

I broke a mirror, thus begins my 7 years of bad luck....

and

If the world looks bleak....drink more Old Crow.

3/22/2010 12:25:50 AM
True, unquestioned and unconditional love will  determine whether a relationship lasts a lifetime...or not. It also helps if you just feel the urge to fuck the hell out of someone whenever you are around them...woohoo.

3/18/2010 11:06:32 PM
Random thoughts and ramblings in the AM (i.e. another sleepless night).....

*YES, I have the utmost respect for and crave the "mental aspects" of the BDSM and D/s lifestyle.....

BUT...how do you deal with the random gritty, down and dirty, just "fuck me" horniness levels....:) 

*Someone needs to tell this 50 something body that it isn't 20 anymore...good luck on that one....hee...hee.

*Balance, balance....Lord help me focus on the balance of it all...

3/9/2010 7:40:53 PM
Ok, I said this back on 9/9/09 and it's worth repeating:

An asshole is an asshole...even in a designer silk suit...:)

and may I add.....

in jeans, in swimtrunks, or even naked when they are outright RUDE, disrespectful and presumptuous....

Forgive me if I don't respond (or DO respond, but not in the way YOU expect) when you open with one liners such as....CUM HERE LIL CUNT....arrrrgh....   

3/4/2010 9:32:48 AM
Questions...  
 
Is it be possible to have a lifetime commitment to someone without a legal paper trail?
 
One would think that it would make the relationship even stronger knowing that you are together because you WANT to be and not because "by law" you are required to be...right?

And....if you DON'T choose the legal route....how do you express your desire or commitment to form THAT bond and include all the true feelings that a lifetime "paperless marriage" encompasses? 

Finally....How do you truly let someone know that you feel the way you do...without just saying it? And, is just saying it enough?

2/22/2010 9:37:07 AM

What did I do to get so lucky?!?! I"m lucky enough to have met an extremely loyal friend, an out-of-this-world lover, and a truly wonderful human being. AND, as if that isn’t enough, they just so happen to be the best Dom that any sub could ever hope for. It still blows my mind to think how fortunate I am….:)


2/17/2010 5:29:56 PM
For those that are asking....   I have no limits with my Dom and trust him completely....

2/8/2010 8:11:50 PM
The realization that you love someone totally, and with your complete heart and soul comes when you miss them so much it hurts...when you reach out for them in your sleep hoping they are there...when you can smell them after they are gone...when you can't wait to be in their arms again...when you can't imagine your life without them in it...and when your deepest desire is to see them happy. I harbor those feelings and am fortunate enough to have a Dom that understands me.  I am truly a fortunate submissive.  

2/4/2010 8:03:31 AM
Mmmmmm...isn't it magical when you meet the person that enjoys all the same things that you do?...whew....sigh. Is it hot in here, or is it just me?...lol.

2/2/2010 10:49:00 AM
There is probably a one in a million chance that you will meet the "One" on here that truly goes beyond any expectations you've ever dreamed of. I've been fortunate enough to meet that "One".

First and foremost, we are best friends and can talk about anything. Secondly, we connect on so many levels...both in our personal lives and on a mental level.
 
I trust him completely. I want to please him in any way possible. He has become a part of my life that cannot and will not be removed. I need my Sir as much as I need to breath. My ultimate goal is to make him feel and understand my deep longing for him and to let him know that I will do whatever it takes to accomplish that, mind and body. He  desires me to be wet and wanting and with him, I can be no other way. I am content and forever yours....thank you Sir.  

1/8/2010 6:49:24 AM
I"ve discovered that there are feelings much deeper than love. Unexplainable emotions and sensations that until now have not been explored or brought forth. They must be coaxed to the surface by the guidance, mind and experience of a TRUE Dom. You ARE that true Dom and I will forever be your clay to mold as you wish, your submissive. Thank you Sir.

12/2/2009 1:05:26 AM
Words: Hunger.....Insatiable need.....Animal lust.....Unconditional love.....Journey..... Exploration....Surrender....Trust....Longing....Wanting to please so bad it hurts....Giving up control...mental connection....sleepless nights...Bite...Lick...Suck...Fuck...Ache...Thank you Sir....:)

11/16/2009 9:03:10 PM
In todays world of spellcheck and the good old fashioned dictionary, it still amazes me that people manage to use........badd gramer and mispel comon wurds........arrrrgghhh......damn that was hard even doing it on purpose...lol. Come on people, get an education....

11/12/2009 11:50:25 PM
Disjointed Ramblings, Babblings and Thoughts:  Sleep deprivation. Uncontrollable thoughts. Overpowering urges. The need to bite, touch, scratch, resist, surrender, absorb, probe, squirt and taste. Curious if it is truly possible for "one" to handle all the energy and survive the outcome. Those who truly know me understand exactly what I'm talking about.

11/5/2009 2:14:09 PM
Sigh....simplifications = complications. Who knew?

11/1/2009 10:40:40 PM

I’ve been spending more time with the “thinking cap” on lately. Trying to figure out what it is that I’m REALLY looking for. I’ve been meeting people “willy nilly” …some good, some bad…..some really, really bad…lol. A good and wise friend advised me to focus on what I have NOW to see if it will work, BEFORE I meet anyone new. It makes total sense and I’m taking their advice. Quality versus quantity is the deciding factor here. Soooooo….with that said, I won’t be setting up any new encounters at this time. I have no problem chatting whatsoever, but will only meet with those that I’ve currently been talking to or have made arrangements to meet with. If you have any questions as to who falls in that category, just ask. Thanks so much for your understanding and patience….M  


10/29/2009 12:08:46 AM
Is it really THAT difficult to say what you need and get it? Seems so....

10/17/2009 11:18:42 PM

NEWSFLASH: If you are dying of cancer...I'm sorry, but I'm not doing a pity fuck...AND....if you have 8 children and need help to feed them....you should have quit fucking a looooong time ago. Does it never end?


10/15/2009 5:51:51 PM
A formal apology:            

I just discovered the "BULK" button on the read mail page and little did I know that ALL mail received by someone that DOESN'T fall within your mail preferences, goes into a bulk mail folder! I was clueless. Well, let me tell you...being the type of person I am (feeling the need to answer ALL "decent" messages (emphasis on decent), I was horrified to find 11 pages of messages where someone had written and I didn't respond. Sooooo...I guess what I'm saying is this...if you have written me and you were sincere, and I didn't respond, I'm sorry. I have since changed my mail preferences and it should no longer be a problem.   Oh....and for those of you that have no clue....messages stating that you want to "use my carcass as the peice of meat" or "you want to make me your fuck cow" are NOT considered decent messages. Hey you've got to get to know me first before you can say those things...lmao...you guys kill me.....

10/14/2009 10:47:41 PM

BRAVO to those that put pics of their true desires/experiences on here....no matter how much it may go against the grain of what someone else may think.  In fact, BRAVO to those that put pics on here period. So what if someone is grossed out by a 6'5" man in a maid outfit or a woman thats drinking a glass of cum....at least they are REAL people, doing what turns them on. There are a ton of things I would NOT or don't desire to do...like see how many guys I could fuck in an hour...but hey...if that is your thing and nobody gets hurt...go for it. Oh yea...and the "I don't want to put pics on here because someone may recognize me thing". Hello? There are ways to put pics on here without showing who you are if you are totally concerned with that. Uhmmmm....like if you are a Dr it might not be the smartest thing to put a pic of you fucking someone in your office with your nameplate in full view. Oh...but even if there is no nameplate....someone might recognize that mole on your left butt cheek .....right?...lol.


10/13/2009 10:36:44 PM
Ok...here we go and I know I'm going to piss a few people off on this one. I REALLY don't understand the "Dom by webcam/cyber" thing. Can someone enlighten me on this? The way I see it, you have a Dom on one end (say in California) and a sub on the other end (New York?)....AND via webcam....you are going to have a meaningful, D/s relationship? You are totally going to control the actions of another human being through computer contact only, right? Now I'm not the brightest bulb on the Christmas tree, but does this make any fucking sense? Hey, I have an idea...I'll write 100 people and tell them to send me $10 each (just because I told them to) and I'll take a trip to Disney...oh...come to think of it, someone has probably done that already....

10/12/2009 12:28:49 PM
Well, I blocked my first contact a couple days ago, which is a first for me and considerable since I've been on this site since July of this year. I truly haven't felt the need to do so...until now. You may be asking yourself what prompted me to block someone after all this time? Let me tell you. They continued to insist that if I didn't webcam with them, that meant that I was a "fake" and a "dude" as they put it. Even though I told them I WOULD NOT webcam, they continued to contact me. For one, I threw my webcam in the trash a little over a year ago because people kept insisting to see me (yeah right...more like show me your ass, tits and pussy while I jack off). In the meantime, picture this...first thing in the morning...big pink fuzzy bathrobe, goobers in my eyes, hair all over my head and feeling sexy to me at this point is right up there with having a bowel obstruction...:) WTF? I'm putting this all here, just in case someone else feels the need for me to prove I'm a woman on a webcam. Go ahead...I dare you....evil grin.

10/2/2009 4:57:39 PM
Can I assume that people that don't make an effort to fill out a decent profile will put that same amount of effort into building a sexual relationship?.....Hmmmmmm

9/27/2009 6:56:15 PM
Come on guys...if you are from out of state (or out of the country for that matter) and want me to drop everything and run to your location....PLEASE, PLEASE at least promise that you are going to pay all my bills for the rest of my life or something...(throw in a boob job and I'm yours....lol)....geesh. Oh...btw... I AM kidding of course....:) 

One more thing (for now)...if you ask me to chat....SAY SOMETHING!!!! Do De Do

9/18/2009 10:07:44 AM
Ok, here we go again. AND please don't take me as sounding "bitchy" (well maybe)  but....question? Why is it that guys expect you to meet them without having any earthly idea of what they look like except for their height and weight (supposed) information in their profile? I have filled up every available pic slot to me on the site (except for a face pic obviously which I WILL provide seperately) and you give me a hard time because I want to see ONE pic? Like how dare I ask what you look like? Is it me or do some people just have a "stupid" printed on their forehead?

9/10/2009 7:07:21 AM
I am extremely particular about my friends list... I will only add people that I have ACTUALLY been with or that I have no doubt in my mind that I WILL get with. Thus...a very short list. So if you request to be added and don't see a reply...I need to get to know you better...A LOT better....:)

9/9/2009 9:21:25 AM
An asshole is an asshole...even in a designer silk suit...:)

9/9/2009 6:28:05 AM
I am probably one of the FEW that ACTUALLY meet off this site (and yes, my time IS as valuable as yours). So, please understand my frustration when I've run into multiple people lately that bug the living shit right out of me to meet (and even make me feel as if I AM a bullshitter and the one putting THEM off and not being "for real") and then guess what?...when I set up a meet, they have a last minute obligation...go figure. I know life happens. I'm busy too. If distance is a problem, don't even go there. If you are married, doing this on the side, and need permission to play, DO NOT contact me because I don't have a significant other or husband that I have to answer to and don't want to rely on someone who DOES.  If there is anyone out there that REALLY wants to tie me up, spank my ass and do anything I've mentioned in my profile...PLEASE contact me. For those that I have ACTUALLY gotten with (and they are few) THANK YOU for being real on here. I sooooo much appreciate it. Nothing worse than a bitchy sub, right?...lol...soooo put a gag in it already. Whew....venting is good....:)

9/9/2009 5:58:04 AM
I'm going to try this journal thing because I hate adding additional lines to my actual profile everytime I have a thought...more to follow....

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sexyncsubgirl
 
 Age: 25
 Luton, United Kingdom