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Ok, going to try the 5000 word essay profile. Yes, I have another profile near. Im looking to be owned, what does that mean to me? What am I looking for? Owned means I belong to you I live in your home Im your slave sex toy girlfriend fuck machine whatever you are looking for. Why do I want this? Well, Im effeminate by nature I know what I want but I just cant make it happen on my own. You know how the radical muslins treat their women, well I understand and no I dont think every woman should be treated like that but Id like to be treated like that or to some point be expected to be in my place around my man. No I dont want to wear a hijab or burqa but the being less than equal that aspect.
So what are you getting? I think I have got the looking femme down but practice practice practice !!! I have hormone breasts and I have been surgically castrated back in 2001. Im on pharmaceutical grade injectable estrogen and will have to keep this up for the rest of my life. Im tall but can be very skinny every picture of me is real no photoshop or filters. I do all my own makeup and hair. Im a girl and I love to be girly. Sexually Im still very active and horny and enjoy and want sex. And recently been lactating and cant seem to get it to stop.
Living together. Im not a princess unless you are looking for a princess. Meaning no I dont want to work outside the home BUT I understand some owners may want or need a second income. Id work but probably not a vanilla job. Maybe mistress for other wannabe sissys or maybe something more, maybe something in the beauty field? But not a 9 to 5 normal job.
Age. Im 50 a young 50 but never the less 50. I like people about my age or older. I write this because I get a few 25 to 30 guys Im sure your awesome but read the stuff I wrote and I hope Im not hurting feelings.
I need a reason and a place to be the real me. Im not a psychologist and Im not really really sure why I cant just go get a boob job and live as a girl full time. Yes I go and spend all my vacation time as my effeminate self looking for my special someone. But always I go home and go back to my boy life. Rut? Habit? Easier? Im not sure BUT I do want it to stop. I want to be just taken away or a demanding lover that wants me to stay. I know girls like me have crazy fantasies of being captured and chained or whatever. I have not found my oh crap moment where I cant go home. Sure I love the games locking heels or butt plugs being kept in only lingerie. But I just would be happy with a real dominant lover that just says your staying with me
Lovers Owners what Im looking for. Im simple and very open just be confident and dominant. Ive recently actually opened my mind up to dominant lesbians as well. I saw a few and got to meet and talk to a few. I understand that much like Im not thrilled by genetic females they are not thrilled by genetic males. Ok, I am attracted to dominance and some lesbians are very dominant. As for me Im 100 non functioning. This is also something guys should know about me. I dont get hard and my sexual pleasure is only giving pleasure and anal sex. One of the main reasons I stay away from females is much like me I want to be taken care of. Im not looking to get into a pay for play relationship.
I am domestic I cook I clean I do laundry I look pretty and like I wrote earlier I enjoy pleasing. I do have a lot to learn and if you arent the Im gonna make you into my dream girl Ill figure out what you want and try to be her. I understand girls like me are a lot of work and most of us are beyond selfish.. I try not to think of myself and try to please.
Im sure this isnt 5000 words. But Cliff notes. I cant top Im non functional. Im on estrogen and have been surgical castrated (testiculs removed) Im looking for a confident dominant person around my age. I want to live with you. What I bring is companion ship sex and domestic help. Ok this is where you hopefully write and we hopefully connect.
Dominant Man
Dominant Lesbian
Dominant Female
Dominant Trans
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So a tranny / sissy conundrum. You can’t force the willing and “Forced Feminization“ is something that I think is misunderstood. Of course there are “gurls” out there that are looking for someone to tie them up or whatever and glue a wig on them and slap make up on and vola!!! A woman!! Oh come on now! A guy that can do hair and makeup isn’t a man in my eyes! But of course I do cra some sort of Forced Feminization. To me just the expectation that I must be effeminate at all times is a strong feminizing tool. Something along the lines of, if you want to stay under my roof you need to be. Then fill in the blanks, full makeup hair nails heels etc. Now gurls like us need estrogen and progesterone so being place on a schedule and a regement could also fall under Forced Feminization. Being taken to a nail salon and being told beforehand what to get, like long pink nails and I’ll be waiting out here for you. That would work too. Now I can only spea for me but I love sex and pleasing a man is the BEST. If a guy only uses you as a female, and again explains if you do or act in any cerrain way or your out, that too is Forced Feminization.
This is where I think some disconnect comes about the difference between fantasy and reality. I think any guy that grabs a male and forces hypnosis and flash video gif training and forced shots of hormones and buys clothes and make up... well I’d gues the dominant is actually playing out a fantasy of his own. When I look for a dominant I look for a man mostly I don’t believe females really want to transform any sissy unless they are getting paid. i got to run!! 😘 |
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So I want to move away to a place where no one knows me. Where I am just with a man that owns me. I dream of being a sexy woman in public and a real sissy behind closed doors. I dream of not being allowed to drive or have a phone unless it's just to be under my masters control. |
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I wanted to take a second to talk about what pretty is in my world. Now some guys think that women like me I looking for huge boobs big lips long nails big hair high heels round ass. The funny thing to me is that of course these things are attractive but it’s the statements that they send out in public life that I believe are the reasons why girls like me want those thsee things. The huge over done lips trout pout basically artist statement to the world even when I am not in a fetish situation just out at the mall interacting with people at the grocery store that I am not really a person but a sex toy my mouth is designed for sucking cock. There’s no way to hide it this is what those huge pouty lips are for. Now in the bedroom or a fetish situation or at home yes it’s obvious. But these permanent changes will go with me into the vanilla world and any interaction will basically Alec me to anybody I come in contact with. I think that these types of permanent changes are another type of total bondage and submission. The same can be said for extremely large breasts. I wouldn’t mind triple D’s or larger. For the same type of reasons when I’m out in the vanilla world women will never take me seriously and males will only look at me as a sex toy. The same humiliation and second class citizen bondage not in the home or under the control of the master but out in public it’s something that goes with me wherever I go. Now all the other attractive things the icing on the cake is it would be the high heels the long nails the pretty hair And of course the make up our all other things that in a way our submission in bondage for a girl like me. The heels restrict my movement no more quick moves until I become very comfortable in them everything is very planned and calculated movements are forced to be effeminate the same can be said for long acrylic nails everything becomes more difficult simple household tasks and domestic chores now are something that become complicated for a girl like me. As they should be don’t get me wrong I love and enjoy all these things. So next time you are chatting with the trans gal or a sissy think about this stuff. |
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So the other day somebody asked me about what I like during sex? This really triggered a long thought and many days of discussion and pondering. I’m pretty sure I wasn’t really in a male state of mind before the castration or the estrogen or the progesterone. This in mind I also know that sexually my goals are probably not as close to what a generic girl may be looking for either. Now I don’t have any real insight into what real man want or real women want so I only can write about how I see things. Physical pleasure an actual orgasms have always been something of a myth to me. I do though enjoy making guys happy. Now I use the male word because yes I have been with females but I do actually crave male genitalia. I am happy like butterflies in the tummy type of happy when I am allowed to have a cock in my hand. To feel it get hard and stiff is very exciting to me. Where it goes from there only gets better. When I fantasize I fantasize usually about sucking cock. Now yes I have other parts of my body that might be pleasing to a guy. Yes I get some sort of pleasure from those areas as well. But I think that’s where genetic girls and I differ. The enjoyment of being fucked is definitely there and I think of it more of a Psychological curtain revealed type of situation. OK what I’m saying is when I’m getting fucked I get all crazy I moan I squirm I lose control and these are very personal things. To allow a guy to see that or be part of that is very deep and meaningful for me. Now let’s write about orgasms, even with my boy Parts I’ve never had that toe curling eyes rolling back in my head passing out type of feeling. Later in life playing with dildos I get kind of close and I I kind of understand what that feeling may be but I’ve actually never really reached it. And I enjoy playing with toys in my pussy especially if it’s turning on a guy. I like bigger guys i’m not petite by any means myself. Reading that I think I need to clarify I’m not talking about penis size I’m talking about overall size big guys even chubby guys are very attractive to me. I still can never get over the feeling of a cock getting hard in my hands or in my mouth and to make a cock come and squirt is the best feeling ever. Just because I’ve been asked so many times I don’t really come like that anymore. |
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